Saturday, June 30

never again

argh. stop daydreaming! wake up! oh man. today sucked. the seven hours passed super duper slowly. there were not many people so alot of time to daydream. nuh-uh. not good. not good.
i need stuffs to occupy my mind. i cant be alone. otherwise.. gone. start becoming blank again.
not in the mood for movies. dont even feel like going out. dont feel like staying at home. arghhh... just want to cry cry and cry. i really dont know what to do already. also dont want to talk to anyone. just wanna be alone. but i dont want to be alone! ARGHHH!!
i cant take it anymore! God, I really really need you. please.

sigh. actually he promised to tell me once it was confirmed. and i was supposed to help him so it'd be confirmed asap. told him if he came online again, i'd give him my special course. foc. title to be kept confidential. hur. and he hasnt even started lesson 1 yet! ): also promised him i'd always support whatever decisions he made and that i'd be behind him all the way, no matter what happens. i dedicated this song to him on my blog. "i'll stand by you" by carrie underwood.
here, my friend. this is for you again. you didnt get to hear it last time. but now im sure you'd be able to. so, here it is.

i miss you so so much. now i cant see you anymore. earlier this week i could just go to your house. it didnt matter if it made me cry till i had no more tears left. i still got to see you. now, i can only look at your pics.

never again will i see you smile.
never again will i hear your voice.
never again will i touch your hair.
never again will i see you online.
never again will i receive your smses.
never again.
never. again.

Friday, June 29

lost. gone forever.

i'd like to say sorry for making people cry. oops. it wasnt intentional. promise. :P

anw this taught me so much.
im not going to waste my life anymore. time to invite people to church!
wont put things off till "next time". it may not come.
Will treasure my friends and family much more. life's unpredictable.

yes. its still sinking in. i just keep on forgetting... im so pissed at myself.
i was going to ask him if he was going for the meeting in TAS. then i realised. again.
argh.. i keep on thinking he's still here. and that nothing's ever happened.

the meeting was waaaaaay useless. please. i do NOT need a counsellor. im serious. im not the one who needs it. i'll be alright. soon, i guess. -shrugs. just leave me to continue grieving please. for now. They just say the same thing over and over and over and over again. here we are crying. and there they'll ask," what are your names?" like WTH?! i totally ignored the counsellors. hee.

and some people, i find, are really.. ugh. you're right. and i know it. just not at this time please. please spare a thought for those around you. think about how they'll feel. like what mdm foo use to tell us," do the right thing at the right time, in front of the right people." i'll tell you, "say the right thing at the right time infront of the right people." sorry CQ, i tried. i did call. the reply pissed me off. so i just hung up. oops.

3.5 hours queueing for doughnuts with maria was so nice. like real quality time mann. we just talked and talked and shared and laughed. it was really so nice. to know that i have such a great friend. we said we'd come back and queue again next time. im quite worried. coz i wont know right? sigh. anw, i thank God for giving me such a good friend. i really appreciate all that you've done.

i think i should start spending more time to get to know my friends better. learnt that time is the best thing anyone can give. dont wanna regret anything. (sorry. actually i dont think im making sense now.) sleepy.

ah anw. today's pw meeting was the funnest. like 9 ppl went to GESS?! after survey, we went to tiong bahru park to play playground! like little kids! i took so many pics. cant upload them now. will upload like... soon. OH NO. cannot. okok ASAP.

gtg sleep now. somebody's pangseh-ing me tmr. and i'll be pangseh-ing somebody on sunday. im sorry!

nites.

hear the song.

Sunday, June 24

all the times

240607
In loving memory of Thaddeus Cheong -A training mate, a friend, a brother.


thanks for all the memories.
both happy and sad.
i'll miss you like crazy, dude.
it hasnt really sunk in yet.
wanted to ask you something just now, but realised i couldnt.
im glad i told you.
ok. fine. you knew.
so.. im glad you told me it was on purpose!

i'll always remember that friday.
that special special friday.
6.5hours (:
the 'ooohhs' from the kids AND jina.
and i'll NEVER untie those shoelaces you tied for me.

The MSN games we played non-stop. minesweeper flags and 7 hand poker.
24-0.
it didnt matter.
and it was during prelims.

we were supposed to go wakeboarding again.
you were supposed to tutor pam this fri.
and you were going to own them all during osim!
you said so yourself!
come back. PLEASE.
own them all!

OH GOD! why. why must You take him away?
You didnt even give us a chance to speak to him.
You didnt even let him wake up once.
WHY?!
He's gone. forever.
and i've only got 2 pics taken with him.

Thomas dear. I salute you.
You were strong, boy.
I know you tried to hold it all back.
Don't worry. Jiaolian cried like crazy too.
Im sorry you cant tease me about being your sis-in-law anymore.

How could you leave your wife.
Your Orbea orca is at home waiting for you.
She's your 'awesomely georgous one'
so 'slim and fast'.

Your 'livestrong' band.
i've never seen you without it.
its always there. on your right wrist.
i stole it from you but
it just slipped out from my wrist. bleah.

sigh. i'll never forget you.
You'll always have that special place in my heart
just that.. we cant share our probs like we used to.
i miss those times many many.

your last sentence to me.
WAH. never train still can come and race ah?!
....


i cant imagine him just lying there.

the three words i can't say without starting to cry."thaddeus passed away."

the pain inside. it hurts so bad.

i guess we can only take comfort in knowing that he died doing what he loved.

bye my friend. i love you.

*listened to this song so many times in his mp3. yuan lai by jjlin

Friday, June 22

shootzzz

maria has a smart smart phone. must have been eavesdropping on our conversations.
sneakehhh huh.
i am NUMBER 236. maria, i like your phone.
and i want a phone toooo! -pouts.

AHHH!! she is back. SHE is back. -shudders.
now jina's acting so damn fierce. im scared.
but when she's not around, jina's nice. hahaha.
omg. i felt as if i were swimming in the sea ytd!
PLUS. not funny lor. they were swimming beside each other.
kept on fighting and kicking so hard!! siao lah.
and then in the other lane, lilin was swimming in the opp direction.
i tell you, i was dyinggg! like dieeee-ing. omg.
20 x 50m. shucks. 48-ing, 49-ing!! 50s bao1 gan1(swim and rest time included).
quite funny. i didnt bother to stop, just carried on without waiting for jiaolian to say go. hahaha!
it'd be the same anywaes!! :P

I WANT TO GO FOR THE ITU TRIATHLON TRAINING CAMP!! it'd be super fun, can learn lots of stuff they dont teach here AND! can bug mansheng! oooohh.. HAHA!

btw, im freakin out. COZ! we're not swimming in the sea! we're swimming in THE POOL!! i know i said it already, but who cares! we're running 10km along changi coastal road!!! -screams


230607
some volunteer briefing. siao. so boring.
psst. felt really safe with you sitting beside me. (:

Thursday, June 21

scared

scared for sunday.
scared i wont be able to complete.
scared of being the last.

they will laughhh!!! -cries. im serious.

God! i dont want to do this! i cant!! -continues crying

was so scared i almost cried when guojl showed us the route. 10km on changi coastal road. its blardy demoralizing. thought bout how i'll never make it this year. cried in toilet. but yes, i'll support those who make it this year.


oh. and er.. just FYI..
ISLY n IMUL
ARGH! nvm nvm! whatever luhhs.

Wednesday, June 20

boommm

okayesh. ive decided......

TO SCREW UP THIS ALREADY SCREWED UP BLOG EVEN MORE.

omg. i cant believe im doing this to my blog! argh! help!

okies. BLAST THE VOL PEOPLE! :DD

lameness

im sorry ppl. this blog is officially screwed up.

goodbye.











ok kidding.

rawr. trng today. was 42-ing with 2 43s in between. thats super suckaye. gah. wangjl could tell i was super tired-ed. yesss! slack swim 1k. was correcting my strokes. must look beautiful in the water also mahh..JUST KIDDING. :P

carboloading starts todaeee. argh. i dowannn! THREE MORE DAYS! nooooo....
after tt still got volunteer stuff. i'll just die. serious. you'd have to carry me. hahahaha!

random thought: i dont like saying bye. coz i'll always feel that i havent told you something.

another random thought: i miss gym. (as in gymnastics. not JIM or the gym.)

somemore random thoughts:
-if i dont make it for tt, i'll join recre gym. and sign up for wakeboarding lessons.
-i shall not cut my hair like super short, and i wont come to school in specs. that would be like UBER weird. period.
-i think i'll watch OPEN SEASON today or hmm.. mr bean's hol? and THEN, elvin ng. yess.
-i havent bathed since i came back from swimming. like 12.30pm. 5hours. cooliooos.
-and i dont think my hair's becoming any browner. they didnt add enough chlorine and chemicals. so the pool's filthy. and so! my hair isnt turning brown. shucks.
-OK BYE.


ps. OK BYE is not a random thought.



OK OK!! BYEE!





clar's evil twin: reading this was such a waste of time. you should seriously stop blogging, you fcktard. you wasted my precious time, my dear twin. [6.20pm]



Tuesday, June 19

bored-ed

third post today. i am super bored at home.gahhh..

been feasting on a big container of raisins. COZ IM BORED!!! ive eaten like half a container so far. congratulate me. CONGRATS!

hypothesis: when you eat too many raisins, you'll shit grapes.
result: results will be revealed soon.

as you can see, im overboardbored-ed. omg. what is wrong with me today?!
and ive spent like 7 hours on the com. so coolios eh.

highh byeee

TURN VOL OFF. not like i didnt warn ya.
ok. i absolutely hate this song MUCH.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! but its damn funny!!! its like a joke lah! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!
im sorry! im just HIGHHH! HAHAHAHA!!
must be the fever. gah.
HAHAHAHHAAH!!
i wanna be a nun. can stay in NUNASTRY. HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! oh shucks. siao liao lah.

eeew. i still dont know whats so nice bout this song.
simran keeps singing this song to me! argh. yucks.

OH YESS! TIFF! TIFF!! TIFF!!! TONIGHTTT! ELVIN NG! HAHAA! awww.. dont so sad luh.. i know you wishing you were one of the THREE(!!!). HAHAHA! awww... hahah!! :P

Girlfriend
Avril Lavigne

[Chorus]Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
You know it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

[Verse 1]
You’re so fine
I want you mine
You’re so delicious
I think about ya all the time
You’re so addictive
Don’t you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
Don’t pretend I think you know I’m damn precious
And Hell YeahI’m the motherf**king princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I’m right

[Bridge:]
She’s like so whatever
And you could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that’s what everyone’s talking about!

[Chorus:]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
You know it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

[Verse 2]
I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away
I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear
Better yet make your girlfriend disappear
I don’t want to hear you say her name ever again(And again and again and again!)[Bridge]

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
You know it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you’ll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There’s no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
She’s so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?!
[repeat]
[Chorus]

..

hate it. the feeling of not being able to do anything to help. it sucks.
darn. was searching and searching but couldnt find something suitable.
argh. what can i do?! (not the song, CQ)

Monday, June 18

im so hawt. oh yeah.

38.1 degrees.
im hawt mannn. :P
whooo.

k nites ppl.
no..i cant sleep luh.
darn.

yayy

yay yay and yay again! ahh! i dont know where to start!
wtv.

1. I got my pics! ( MANY MANY MANYYY)
2. Broke my own record for the latest earliest i've ever slept. 5 AM. WHOO!
3. CARIDEE WONNN!!!! omg im so happy!! cya melrose! :DDDDD
4. im sick. coz i broke my record.
5. didnt train today
6. i just watched THE WILD. super funnnyyy!
7. WHITE CHICKS finished downloading!
8. im blogging! :D

YAYY!

kelvin sent me dunno how many thousand million pics. my com is super lag now coz there's like 2GB of pics?!!! when my bro comes home, im like so dead. yay. this must have been the longest convo i ever had. Oh. that would be number 9! THREE hours. woah. jay kelvin and i were sending and sending pics like crazy. click click click click until 4.30am ok. can die ah... anw! this is my fave pic among all. btw, the rest were random shots. bleah.
-hey yo. check out the jacket im wearing mann:D
top(from left): paul, JAY!(sry. i mean, jay), frankie, gid
bottom: clar, benson, kelvin, shane

HONEYYY! LOOK LOOK! happy now? hahahah! -winks

and! im still sooo happyy! melrose didnt win! sry. um. i meant CARIDEE WONNN! wahahaha! like yayyy! and! the wild's funny. gonna watch white chicks later. yesss!

Sunday, June 17

Happy Fathers' Day

oxygen says:
OMG
oxygen says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oxygen says:
I'M RIGHT I'M RIGHT


hmmm....actually, i dont even know lor! Oh, God, help me. so, i dont know whether you are right, my friend. and AWWW...

oxygen says:
no wonder i'm drawn to you
oxygen says:
no wonder you're so attractive to me
oxygen says:
awww hahaha

.
.
oxygen says:
we're meant for each other!


and hey dad, Happy Fathers' Day! :D ive got loads to thank you for. that would take up alot alot of space here. but yeah, thanks for always being there for me whenever im confused or unsure bout something. you've never stopped believing in me, even though at one point, i just felt like giving it all up. Thank you for sacrificing so much for me. Once again, Happy Fathers' Day, daddy and daddy above! I LOVE YOU! (:

i know today's service was very difficult for *. i could see * trying hard to smile and laugh at the jokes. it was painful. i was going to cry when i saw * smiling. like ouch. then i remembered emil and rach. Please Daddy, comfort them, let them know that you'll never, ever leave them nor foresake them. Let them know you love and care for them. Please take good care of them, Amen.

planetshakers ytdytd was so uber loud. we were right infront of the barricades. coz they said we all could come to the front. like how coolios lah!! Jumping like crazy!whooo! wl the guy infront kept stepping on my shoe. hahah. anw, was filtering and filtering during the sermon. there was one song, i forgot the title. heard it many times before. As i raised my hands to the Lord, I really felt His presence, just so near.
argh. but i missed radi8! ): my uncle was preaching!! i wanted to go so baddd... hahaha anw! my bro followed in the end! haha.

AND! white chicks is downloading so slowly!! quickkk! i want to watch! then i can laugh while i cycle!! hahahahah!

ok. ANTM now. MUST watch. yay!

Saturday, June 16

haawt

watching mean girls now. like.. so totally cool!
so bimbotic! i know, right? like, ohmagawd! so hawt!
like, whatever. -rolls eyes. she's like totally annoying.
ahh i like.


*cough cough*
AHH! bimbo shows are like, nice!
awesomeee.


uh oh.
ok. BIG UH OH. ><

Thursday, June 14

smile;

dedicated to a friend. found this poem somewhere. STAY STRONG DUDE. smile!! :D:D:D:D

He Sees Your Tears

God sees the tears you're crying;
Understands the hurt you feel,
When someone lets you down
And you think your pain won't heal.

He wants to give you comfort
Soothe all your cares away;
Just turn to Him in prayer
And by your side He'll stay.

Ask for strength of will
To see this sadness through,
So the one that let you down,
Can't break your spirit too.

In life we meet unkindness
And find it hard forgiving,
But put your faith in God -He'll make your life worth living.

shut up

i am uber pissed. so PISS OFF.
wtv. trng rawked again today. relay was cool. raffles vs non. and dexter you lousy toooot. hur.
was 37-ning all the way until the last one. 36. bleah.
its our little secret, teddy bear. -winks

WP. #%$#%^$^%$@*. just coz you didnt get the ticket you kick up a &^$^&^% fuss and now rach cant go as well. YOU HAPPY NOW? YOU HAPPY NOW?! BH. i soo wanted to go over to your house to freakin knock some sense into your ^&**&( coconut head. so now how? so that rach can go, I have to give you MY ticket so YOU can go too?! DREAM ON. *&%#^. rach doesnt dare to go now coz she's afraid you'd be unhappy and! you're lucky rach was kind enough not to pass the phone to you. loser. she was scared you'd cry = all hell breaking loose. pfft. great. you rawk. girl, YOU RAWK LOADS.

and eh, you have already, stop doing that lah please. i feel damn weird okayyy. eeyer. but yeah. nice eyes. nice eyes. XP

thanks j for listening to all my probs. feel much better already. (: and thanks CQ for cheering me up. you damn funny lah you. BOO!hahahah!! and hey, dont worry, i'll be praying for you. cheer up k.

alrighties. prison break. yays.

Wednesday, June 13

dead fish

i caant mooooveee.... ughh.. helppp!
eh? but im damn happy! HAHAHAHA!
DOUBLE SESSIONS are SUPER FUNNN! :DDDDD aww.. tmr cant cycle with them... NVM! i'll cycle on my trainer then! yayyy! then friday.. PLANETSHAKERS! WOOHOOO! when's our next double session??!!! i want!!
yay today's trngs sooo rawked.


morn: stretchcords+swim
5x3min pull. alternate shuang1 shou3 and dan1 shou3(dont know english lah)
after 1 set, 30 situps, 30 bei4 qi2, and 20 pushups.
400m wu
2km pull (first 400m was using jwoo's handpaddles. DIED-ED. so big and had only one finger strap. wl. coz liying used mine... yay but she gave up using mine after 400m too! hahah! too small maybe. heeheehee.)
1km wd.
like omg. i couldnt feel my arms after that. ive never felt this tired in a loooong time. YAYYY! :D

oh yess! before we started swimming, i couldnt wear my cap properly!!! i was like,"jinaaa... help me put on my cap." EH WL! she was going to lor!! she wanted to reach for my cap alreadyyy!! then i said," my arms cannot move already." then she," WLE! crazy!! wear yourself lahhh!" HAHAHHAAH!!!

morning swims rawkkk.. they make you tanner. like YESSS!!!!

cried today coz gjl made it sound like i didnt want to come for trng. like.. HELLO? im HERE. right infront of you? clearing the kid's boards? i AM trying my best to come for trngs. you think i dont want to do well isit? timetrial's like TEN freakin days away?! knock knock!! hellooo?! wtv. I'LL SOOO SHOW YOU. i'll SOOO make you shut up. once and for all. just you wait.

lunch.
nice nasilemak! (: darnnn. sy caught me eating. "HUH?! triathletes eat so unhealthy one arh?!"
then! uncle alex! omggg!!! i was like.. "errr...... carbo. yeah. carbo." then he was like,"not much lah.." then walked away."too much chilli." OOOPS? XP

afternoon: run
8km.
so fun! i ran alone! hahahah!! begged jiaolian to let me run first. so fun so funn!!
exercises.


rushed to meet my friend at the bus stop. YAYNESS! :D i would have hugged you if i wasnt all dirty and smelly. seriously. hahahah! *hugs* THANK YOU for coming down all the way to macr very early and waited like 30mins, just to give me the waterbottle. :DD really really appreciate it!
but im sorry.its impossible.
pat and i were screaming as we ran across the road. it was a RED MAN ok!! brought back crazy memories. ahhh!!! wish we could go back. and jwoo's funny. hahahah!!


miss those days;
laughing at NOTHING. ):

Tuesday, June 12

gravediggers are cooliosss

dig dig dig bury bury bury. HAHAHAHAH! we can go be gravediggers already lah! hahahah!!
i dont care. ladies first. so i'll bury you first, then i'll let you bury me after i finish burying you okayy?? XP
oh yayness! i finally bought it! AHHH!!! like after sooo long!! its like the bestest thing ever! who watches TV while trng? now i can! WAHAHAHAH! without even having to wake up early just to avoid the traffic! like how coolios lah! love it loadds! (:
WHEEEE! Planetshakers here i come!!! was hoping i could go! rach and i were staring at the biggg poster at the mrt and! a woman also came and stared with us! HAHAHAHA!!!

SHINIGAMI: says:
ure mad...
clar(: the sand; says:
whaaat
SHINIGAMI: says:
nthin, i jst felt like saying something bad abt u...


like WTH??!! HAHAH! stupid shai! bleahhh! and omg! HAHAHAH! CQ just sent me something!!
omggg.... im gonna faint soon lah..

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Hong liang!
-Hong liang can last longer without water than a camel can!
-Hong liang cannot burp - there is no gravity to separate liquid from gas in his stomach.
-All swans in England belong to hong liang.
-Early thermometers were filled with hong liang instead of mercury.
-The Eskimos have over fifty words for hong liang.
-To check whether hong liang is safe to eat, drop him in a bowl of water; rotten hong liang will -sink, and fresh hong liang will float!
-99 percent of the pumpkins sold in the US end up as hong liang.
-Hong liang is the oldest playable musical instrument in the world!
-The fingerprints of hong liang are virtually indistinguishable from those of humans, so much so that they could be confused at a crime scene!
-It takes forty minutes to hard-boil hong liang.


NOOO!!!! now see this. stupid CQ!!! you and shai the same one lorrr!!

-Clarissa is the smallest of Jupiter's many moons!
-Pound for pound, hamburgers cost more than clarissa.
-Humans share over 98 percent of their DNA with clarissa!
-Clarissa is often used in place of milk in food photography, because milk goes soggy more quickly than clarissa.
-Clarissa was named after Clarissa the taxi driver in Frank Capra's 'It's a Wonderful Life'.
-The original nineteenth-century Coca-Cola formula contained clarissa.
-Clarissa can't sweat.
-Clarissa can last longer without water than a camel can!
-To check whether clarissa is safe to eat, drop her in a bowl of water; rotten clarissa will sink, and fresh clarissa will float.
-Women shoplift four times more frequently than clarissa.


OIE! not funny lorrr! hmph.

OH WHATEVER. ANYWAESS! as i was sayinggg... im gonna watch planetshakers!!! like AHHHH!!!! so cool right! johannan's mum bought the tickets for me and him to go watch together!!! he's like this little cute p6 guy in trng. very naughty. i would go down on sats last year to swim with him. yeah right. more like.. make him swim. HAHAHA! damn fun lah! yayness. yayness. we're going this FRIDAYY!! whooo! :D

darn. today's training was so slack again.. ):
400m wu
4 x 25m sprints
20 x 50m sprints
3x 100m k (supp to do 4. gjl called me up. got scolding. ): like im not trying to appear for trngs lah! i am lor. i dont care. i'll explain everything damnnn clearly to him during the meeting on tue. i dont careeee!)
1km pull
1 x 100 (75 fast 25 slow)

bh.. no wd? sianzz.. and oh yes. sam and i were confused the whole trng. darn. darn. darn!

Sunday, June 10

move your head luh

oh yayy! kelvin sent me the pics! but still got somemoreeee.. hahaha.

MEGAPRONS! YAY HEH-BE! :D

kelvin needs his cap. HA.
shane put the cap on my head. dots.

in church today, that little boyyy's head.. blocking our view. hahaha. siaoo.. make * lean all the way to the seat infront. hahhaa. make me bend forward pretend to adjust jeans. XP

service was goood! heehee! i didnt fall asleep! thanks *. hahahhaha! the preacher was really good lah. the words really spoke to my heart.

after service jay, sashi, my bros and i went downstairs. damn funny. both jay's and my back were sunburnt. so! so! i purposely smacked his back. eh! not hard at all lor. like.. abit only lah. and he was like," OWWW!!!" and started jumping around. heeheehee!! XD my bro saw me hit jay's back and his funny reaction, so wanted to try it for himself. SMACK! wah siao. i also screamed lah! omg. poor jay. got whacked so so many times. hahahah!! after he left with sashi, it was my turn to get whacked! superrr painful!!!! wp.. hahaha.

nice song nice song!
Assuredly Yours
Paradise Live
All that i am is in you
All that i seek is to follow you
I run to your side when you call
There is the hope i am longing for
Just to be by your side, there is hope in my life
There is no greater freedom i'll find
chorus
Take my life, and all that i have to give
Take my world, just inhabit all of it
Take my dreams, make me assuredly yours( x2)
Just to be by your side, there is hope in my life
There is no greater freedom i'll find(x2)


i saw i saw!
from the corner of my eye.

Saturday, June 9

coincidence??

interesting interesting day todayyy! :DDDD k yesterday first!

080607 Fri
benyeo was late for pw meeting as usual... after meeting, went with raj to do cip. bh. the kids were soo darn rowdy. can just die lah. hahaha. went youth straight away. awww... i didnt want to change seats... ): stupid bro lah... it was nice sitting thereeee. ((:
camp echo was funnn. watched our camp movies. so funnehh. hahaha. camp awards. most 'teh' award, 'siao on' award. 'carebear award' 'act cute award'. haha.yay! best male camper is derek on!!! seriously siao onz lah he. wah siao. then omg. i kena best female camper. ahh!! so embarassing lahh!!! wl.
anw! won 6 KK doughnuts and $20 trumpet praise voucher. yay! :D 4 doughnuts got kouped by my cuzzies and bros. left one for me and one for maria! hahah! my bros damn bad lah! leave the 2 worst ones for us! hmph.
after youth, rusheddd all the way to rach's house. and yadda yadda. previous post. hahahah. couldnt sleep at night lah. mosquito kept biting me. i know i so sweet right. heehee. then rach couldnt sleep coz i was scratching so much. hahahah!! AND when i turned on the ipod, she thought the light was God coming back. like wth???!! hahahah!

yay! today! 090607 Sat.

met friends at habourfront mrt. we were so early AGAIN. took the funny train thing there. hahaha.
AHHH!! AHH!!! OMG. GUESS WHATTT??!! i just happened to turn my head and saw this brown haired guy wearing that oh so familiar cap. (: i was like," JAYLORD! " and both of us were like," what are you doing here?!" telepathy mannn. -faints. i didnt know what beach he was going to and what beach i was going to. hahaha.
anw! SHANE WAS THERE TOO! coolios. 3 radi8-tors in sentosa. hahahah! we were playing beside his group. and oh. rach and i got bored after awhile, so we decided to bury our friends' slippers in the sand. HAHAHAHA. so fuunnnyy. we buried them in three different places. oops. put markings and counted the steps. then.. ran away to lunch with our own slippers. hahahaah!!!
wah siao. after we came back from lunch, the guys were all looking for their slippers. AND! some group set up their volleyball game near our slipper holes! diee... all the markings got shifted or buried. we went searching like siao for the slippers. good thing we counted steps. heee. but wrong angle. hahahahh!!
went swimming with the rest of the class. THENN! vivian got stung by something. omg. damn scary lah. and im glad i went to call the lifeguard. COZ! jay was just walking back from the water near the lifeguard tower! coincidence?? -shrugs. dunno. ask God. anw, she was sent to the hospital. Thank God she's feeling much better now. oh yes.. i think i've trained with the lifeguard before during some lifesaving thingy. not under mr kwa. i forgot lah.
went back to rach's house to watch pirates. hahaha! we're chaotah! coolios. didnt touch any notes for two whole days. whoo!



i can count!
FIVE.

moviemarathonnight.

nono. not rachellim day. its rachellim night.
got lots more to blog bout today. but her internet is dail up. hahah.
so i shall be nice and not waste money.
marathon failed luhhh...
rach too tired hahahhaah!! lousyyyy!
was doing crunches and splits while watching.
so im like awakeee... pfft..
hahaha.

eeee.. i still wanna watch pirates 3......
now she's like," i also want to watch.. but im too tireddd..." wp... hahahaha
okok. $$$$. bye ppl. cya. not sleepy also have to sleep.... gahhh...
yay-ness. sun tan tmrrrr! sentosa! hahahhaah!


OH YES OH YES!!!!! omg! so funnnyyy! we exchanged uniforms today and camwhored. hahahah! we were acting out the stereotypes of each other's school. damnnn funnehhh! see! see!left. omg. -faints. and yes.. gess gansters. eeee.
this is sooo not us.
EX-gessians. wahaha. > "ganster school" says rl.

there are alot more pics. but too slow to edit. aiyah k lah. $$$$!!!

and no. NO. NO. NO. NO! there is NOTHING. nuh uh. nothing at all. im serious.. stop asking already lah, please! how many times you all want me to repeat???!!


EH DAHLINGGG. saving KK doughnuts for youuuu!! hahhaha! the one you always wanted!!!! :DDDD

Thursday, June 7

IF.

hur. IF. like that word. yes. IF.
i dont know. i give up okay.
yeah maybe its time to give up.
to my dear friend, you win.
$9.50 is yours. quote me. kill me(if you can, i dont mind).
i give up. i cant take this anymore.
now.. what do you wanna watch? hahaha. it has to be at night though. otherwise its only $8.50.
just PLEASE not 10pm again. i'll fall asleep. lets ask our dear friend along. but she has to pay for her own ticket! hahaha.

and THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. HA. see i said thank you so many times. XP cant stop me! hahahha! er ...NONONO... no pink please! hahahahha!!! okok i stop i stop. heehee. eh, eh. one more time can? XD THANKS!!!! thanks for the all the trouble you went through just to search for it! i still dont know how to thank you enough. hahahaha.

to a someone. you know you'll always have a special place in my heart. dont worry bout this kinda stuff now lah. but if you really want it, go for it! (: oh yes.. patience, dudeee. hahaha! all the best and remember, i'll always be there for you no matter what. we'll share our probs with each other like we used to. (: train hard and mug hard too!! hahah! oh yes. this song dedicated to ya! hahaha. i know you hate emo songs. heee!eh? not very emo whaat. its really a waste of time and energy, i tell you.
oh yaynesssss!! i didnt slack again today! whooo!! hmm... we did...
400m wu
4 x 25m sprints
9 X 100m ( 75 fast, 25 slow) <- dont know why jiaolian say i can stop.. pfft.
100m wd
6 x 100m k
100m wd
8 x 100m IM ( THE BESTEST! :DD)
100 m wd
4 x 50m sprints
100 wd
total: 3.4 km ( SO LITTLE???!!! omg. it felt like we did alot! NOOOO.... )

heh heh. at least i didnt slack! wwahaha.


can i give up yet?
coz i think you have.

so deaddd..

dieee... arghhh... still got one whole stack of work to do!!

heh. im booked the whooolllee day tmr and prob night too. tmr shall be named... RACHELLIM DAY.
11-1 PW
lunch and prolly study abit,
3-6.30 CIP
7.30- 9.30 church
staying over at rach's house. yayness! we're gonna stay up and have a movie marathon! spidey3,potc3,pb season 1 and if there's time, pb season 2! AHHH!!! so coolios!
then saturday's sec 4 class gathering. dont need to study liao lor. yay me.

ahh yes. i think i forgot to mention my family and i went to jb. heh heh heh. :P
ARGHHH!! THE SUPER NICE SKIRT!!! ARGH ARGH ARGHHH!!! i cant believe its still hanging there waiting for someone to buy it. darnnn.. its super nice lahh!! its like not too short and very decent. was looking everywhere else for a similar cutting, but cannot finddd!! its the nicest skirt i've ever seen in jb. hahaha. was complaining the whole day after my mum didnt want me to buy that skirt. like "argh. how can you let something soooo nice just pass you by?!! like.. arghh!" then she was like," no no. its to short and too ex." like SOO not short! it was just 15 cm above the knee whaaat.. and it costed rm49.90 not ex lorr!!its normal!! arghhh.... ):

ok whatever. hahaha. omg... the skirtttttt!! okok enough lah you. cya.

Wednesday, June 6

whatever.

they are disrupting my train of thoughts. darn. hahahahah! i dont know where to start!
ah i know.
just wanted to let you know, if you want your 'half of you' back. you can have it back. (:
oh yes! im happy. coz i didnt slack for swim training ytd. now my arms are aching. YAY. :DDD
today was specially dedicated to maria. maria day! hahah! went to school to meet her. studied in lib. like whatever lah. cannot study luhh. ): so went down to check what alvinlam did to my dear blog. hahahah!! we have the same password!!!-faints
(that password SOOO belongs to me! im supposed to be the ONLY one in singapore to have this password. hahaha!!) *you dont have to act like you're so damn nice ok. i was happy on my own. you didnt have to ask him to come over. (controlling my fingers. no vulgarities here.)
well anws. went s11 to eat the super nice nasi lemak CHILLI. hahahah! and we looked like clowns trying to get a stamp from the funny S.A.M machine thingo. oops. XD
yeah not funny enough.. we took the wrong bus and stopped somewhere far away and had to take the same bus back. eeyer.. hahaha. AND AND! i brought a drink into the club library. and it dropped when maria carried our stuffs to the other table. like omg. almost died of heart attack lah. there were two cameras and we were not supposed to bring food in!! maria's shirt and shorts were all wet. HAHAHAHA. so clown! haha!
swimmingsplashing around in the 2m deep pool was damn fun!!(even though i couldnt stand at all). did funny ballet stuff in the water. and both of us were like," BUTT CRAMP!!" at the same time. HAAHAHAH!
AND i finally understood how my coach felt. WHOO! the satisfaction, baby! wahahahah!! YESSS! oh yeah oh yeah. -dances around. dinner was goooood! and ice cream too!!! yay! THANKS MARIA!! YOU RAWWKK! enjoyed your company many many! LOVE YA LOAADDS! :DDD

OMGGG. CQ is killing meeee... ): hahahah! see this. darn. i closed the convo. ok anw!! i where got say 'HAHA' every sentence??! arghh.. hahhhah. << okok fine. FINEEE.. hahahha! omg. nooo... heh. just found out he has a talent in poetry. ooohh.. hahah.

oh yes! i lost my nice red nike waterbottle in msia... ): it rolled under the bed and i didnt bother picking it up. AND i think its still lying there. so lonely.. hahaha! bleah. BUT! HAHAHAH! someone's gonna get me a new one! haha!! :DDD THANKS, DUDE! and hey, no rush lah. hahah. dont need to go tmr kay. (:


Goodbye my lover
James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(
x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father(HUH?!) of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And
I love you, I swear that's true
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)


And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.



p.s. i think some parts of my post have been deleted by accident. oops. nvm. wtv.

thanks. (:

Saturday, June 2

rahh

WARNING! LONG POST AHEAD. good luck.
back back back. boooo... ):
reality's back. whoo!
AHHH!! the four days in camp was refreshing. it was like sooo great.
GOD IS GOOD!

and why was the camp wonderful?
1. NO NAGGING( WHOOOO!)
2. NO STUDYING
3. took my mind off stuffs.
4. could spend time with Him.
5. learnt so much more.
6. made so much more friends
7. finalllyyyy after sooo long, i got to really spend time with my childhood friends.

yess. talking bout childhood friends. hahha. AHHH!! we didnt get to talk since we left sunday school in p6. FINALLY!! wow. they've grown to be such.. ahem.. gentlemen. hahahaha!!! :D

omg. we were discussing bout how dom and i used to arm wrestle, how jaylord, dom, amos, jerome, jeremiah and i used to hide in this dark room and someone would ask random girls to come in, and when they did, we would go," RAHH!" , "BOO!!!" or grab their legs from under the chair. ouch. their piercing screams. HAHAHAHAH!!!

oh mannn! miss those days at winsor!! ): ahh yes. i still rmb at the old church, the same few of us would play catching around the funny er.. container classrooms? ah wtv. hhahaha! they were like my closests buds then. er yes. all guys. XP

so anw, the camp brought back so much memories. even.. hmm... HAHAHHAA. wont say! bleahh!!

during one of the games, we had to sit on the sand with our feet facing our partners. jay and i were bored. so... he started burying MY legs! thanks arh... hahaah! made him bury his legs, so in the end, we were both stuck. HAHAHAHA. and dom started teasing us. darn. THEN jay was like," xiang dang nian ah Dom! xiang dang nian!!" then dom finally shut up. WHAT THE.. hahhahaah! thank God we're still as crazy as ever! :D knew him since like.. i was born? haha.

DAY 1
5hr busride. got sabo-ed to intro myself to the whole bus by my own dear cuzzie. THANKS. and the questions max asked weren't very helpful. HMPH. reached there at about 11. no lunch! went for games after changing into old(NOT) clothes. didnt get very dirty that day. phew. dinner... food was alright. edible. haha. sitting with my cousins( yongern and yongler), eldad, kenneth and my bro was damn fun. hahaha. made funny glass sounds. HEEHEE. XP evening service was coolios. the songs were nice. was singing to Him right from my heart.
sleep was gooooood.


DAY 2
sabrina said she woke me up! she didnt lor! hahaha! i woke up by myself yay. haha! devotion was great. the sharing was meaningful. enjoyed it. breakfast. finally the drink was NOT water! morning service after breakfast. ps chris long preached. he was soo good! not only did he get his message across, he woke all of us up with his super funny jokes. lunch. ok lahh.. games. needed to get into the pool, and my shirt was white! so exchanged shirt with marcus. one small p5 guy in my group. hahah! NOT funny. games was fun!! haha! legs buried under the sand! (:
oh yes. yongern,eldad, my bro and i wanted to go out to get stuff but the nearest store was like 20 km away. HAHAHA. yongern thought it was 5 and suggested walking there. -faints. beggeddd ps wilson to let us go. ha! he agreed on one condition. we had to cab there and back. wl. the cab fare was like rm50. booked from the resort. we left after games. rushed like siao. only eldad had money. coz my room was locked. forgot to get key from roommate. :P we were all wet and had ketchup on our faces. argh. wore my bros shirt out lah! wp. anw the driver was nice. waited for us. haha. our shopping was like 15min. chiong like maaadd!
ah! the second night service was a super good one. the first alter call was for family members' salvation so i didnt have to go up, i dont know why but as the pastor invited those who needed to pray for our friends' salvation, i just felt the need to really go up there and pray for their salvation. the burden God laid upon my heart was just so strong. i went up there and started crying. tears just kept flowing. and i didnt really know why. a few names just popped out and i started praying for them. was controlling so bad, i couldnt really pray, so i just cried. He knows who im praying for anw hahhaah! that service, i could really sense God's presence. and I know that He was right there.

Day3
the funnest funnest day! hahaha! woke up like 5.20am to run with clement, derek, sashi, kenneth and michelle. stupid kelvin and max. pangseh us. hahahah! JAY also! wp. lazy bones. hahhaa! guess what. when we reached the beach, yongern, yong ler, eldad and my bro were there!!! hahahah!! so cool! not even planned lah. ran about 2km on the beach. hahaha. after that started catching hermit crabs. oops. hahah!
had morning devotion then breakfast followed by morning service on becoming a history maker, and not history. took notes! so i wouldnt fall asleep. heee! lunch, sat in our groups. games, won 3 out of 4 games. it was super super funnn! go HEH-BEs! hahaah!! free time.. bridge time! whoo! and they were "cooking" muffins(kouped from lunch) in the tiny fridge by boiling water and leaving it inside tgt with the muffins. wah siao. thermostat sure screw up. HAHAHA. yesss. we are a crazy bunch of ppl. i know!
our evening services were after dinner! hahah! wrong timing mann.. after eating, feel damn sleepy.. jay and i were falling asleep. quite funny coz we were hoping that pastor would pray longer. XP heehee! Not fair lorrr.. he had a cap to cover his face!! dumbdumb. laughing at me under the cap. hmph. anw!the preacher was soo good lah! his superr funny jokes woke all of us up. hahahah! the sermon was good too! very good and very funny. enjoyed them. hahah!
ok damn funny. both our eyes were damn tired. his eyes were red lah. and mine were feeling very dry. he was like," can go toilet and wash right?" i got a shock lah. the first thing that came to my mind was taking out my eye and washing it. so i was like," HUH?" omg. too much pirates!! hahahahah!!!
God, what's this supp to mean ah? HHH twice in one day.
WHOO!! we were allowed to stay up until 1am!!! was "partying" like crazehhh. hahah! making alot of noise playing bridge and laughing like mad. and omg. yongler spelled TIDBITS wrongly!!! and still couldnt stop laughing bout it since lunch ytd. no prizes for guessing how he accidentally spelled it. XP ugh.

DAY 4
breakfast was funny funny. jay came down quite late, so there wasnt anymore sausages. when the new batch came, he and jerome went to get two whole plates full for our table. when they tried the sausages, they were like, "yucks!" i thought the sausages were quite nice what, but when jay let me try them, it tasted really different from the earlier batch. so hahha. wished them good luck in finishing the sausages by themselves. i just sat there watching them eat. haha.
our last service was a testimony sharing service. stupid sashi. sabo-ed me!!! just wanted to get back to my seat as quickly as possible so i made my testimony damn short. hahahahah! THEN! the award nominations. the best was the ' most teyh(whiny) award'. the girl was from my group. hahahah!! i KNEW she was going to get nominated!!! HAHAHAHA! after that jay and i couldnt stop teasing her. hahahaha!! whoo. HI FIVE! NEHHH!XP love this trick. not fun already.. we'd just do that to each other. bleah. copy me. somemore say is i copy you. hmph. hahahah!! and i dont know what's wrong with X! vote me as best camper. im not even in the same grp as you, i've never even spoken more than two words to you. quit saying hi and bye to me in that babyish voice luh. ew.
bus ride back. slept almost all the way. haha. didnt ever want to go home lah. darn. but still must. hhaha.

k its late. er EARLY. camp rawked. drew closer to Him. Daddy, i love You. (:



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