to B3 (who may have forgotten that its you):
appreciate what you have.
you may not even read this.
but yeah.
you dont know how lucky you are to have so many ppl care about you.



being bored to death.
the loneliness.
killing me.
my smile and laughter.
its all fake.
FAKE.
ugh.
never going back to this crapola.
i promise.
not like anyone cares.


OH DAMN.
WHY.WHY.WHY!
ahhhh.
DARNDARNDARN!!!!!!!!!

too tired to think.
too tired to even realise im gonna face shit again tmr.
YAYYY
hahah. im mad.

gonna bathe now. just had my lunch. from 12 hours ago. seriously.

sighsigh. gonna miss you so much.
):
may not be able to go to church for christmas eve and christmas.
ah wells.
):
sad-ded.
i'd rather retain forever.
then i dont need face this sh*t.
gahhh... ): ): ):

leaving for church camp tmr.
ive got free auto roaming but... i dont think its gonna be very useful! the charges are super ex.. ):

taught bae to rollerblade. he learns super fast lah! ahhaha. pro alr. pro alr. :D
was super sad today coz my roti prata stall was closed. like really really super super sad ok. so bae and i went to newton to eat instead.
and im happy.
i love fresh coconut. HEEHEEHEE. :D :D :D
yay!! hahhaah.
<33

i want my mac breakfast!!!

but its raininggg!
*whines*

UGH.

i dont care. i'll get it tmr morning then. before clarence and i get to church. HA.

oh oh. new use for powergel if you dont have the chance to eat it and its gonna expire: hair gel!

it worked really well on my hair ytd! and it smelled nice too! :D
some guy beside me also had nice hair treatment haha. coz somebody stepped on a powergel pack and it burst all over us. NICE.

thon-ing was really quite fun! and super tiring. we settled the mats which were like so super heavy. and then the stupid guy told us we had to move it forward by 30cm. very easy, no problem at all. just have to move 16 x 2 ten plus kg mats with weird wires underneath. sure. we're most willing to do it, mr big boss. sophia wanted to slaughter him HAHAHA.

woah went into the fullerton hotel. the toilet was really nice. so many mirrors.hee! i like! :D and the basin was the coolest basin i've ever seen! wahahaha. yay suaku!

and omg. we had to carry the what they call.. ears, back and forth. again.. no problem one lah. the ears.. only about 5kg and just need to run about 1km from the start point to the finishing. so fun haaha.

ok im too lazy to type alr.
ohhh so i shall upload the pics!

in the middle of the road!

clarence, yongsheng and yongler.

a sleepy yongsheng. even before the race started.

sleepyheads!

elite competitors warming up.

YAY close shot! :D Henry smth smth.

hello ruiyong!! (:

Dr william Tan (i think! oops.)

sophia nodding off HAHAHA.

random: kid in bubble being rolled around. super funny.

waiting for movie to load.
and i just need to say smth!
oh man. i havent felt this tired/dehydrated for a long long time and im loving it! WHOO!
yessss. my legs feel like they're gonna ache tmr. :D:D:D
nice!

finally decided to pump my bike and cycle over to sai's house instead of walking there yesterday. thought i still could manage cycling with clipshoes.
how smart.
out onto the road and about one minute (or less) later, being the smart person i am :D, unclipped the wrong shoe and leant to the wrong side. YAY me. fell right infront of the lorry i stopped for. the contractors/workers were laughing at me! hahaha. eeyer.
heh heh. it WAS funny. i was laughing too. haaha.
2 mins later, i was at tsai's house.
yipee. (:
first time exercising in manymany months!

shai told me they were clearing the lockers today.
so being lazy to wait for the bus, i was smart again, and cycled to school. was super scared i would fall stupidly smartly again.
the first km and i was dying! argh.
was friggin friggin tired when i reached school. YES. I SAW YOU, MRT. surprise! im not dead yet. SORRY.
smsed my mum to tell her i dont think i can cycle back anymore and she laughed at me! AH! hahaha.
thank God for fatty who came over to give me a lift home.
went to buy tausarpiah on the way home(er.. not really) for my mum. hee. pai ma pi :D lalala.

byebye shai!!! faster get married and bring your wife back to sg! we'll miss you! :D eh will shai have internet there or not ah??

yay gonna thon later with my bro and cuzs. volunteering for the standchart marathon. see my mum fly tmr haahah. she's doing her 2nd 42k race. and is friggin going to do ultra ( 84km!) in may. madmadmad!! own my ass anytime mun.

okies. back to slacking somemore! bye!

im TORN.

Winter snow is falling down
Children laughing all around
Lights are turning on
Like a fairy tale come true

Sitting by the fire we made
You're the answer when I prayed
I would find someone
And baby I found you

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful every day
For the gift

Watching as you softly sleep
What I'd give if I could keep
Just this moment
If only time stood still
But the colors fade away
And the years will make us grey
But baby in my eyes
You'll still be beautiful

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful every day
For the gift(Instrumental)

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
I can't find the words to say
That I'm thankful every day
For the gift

so this is what i get for being honest and telling you stuff.
awesome.
just awesome.
what am i to do now.
WHAT?!
what do you want.

my fault.
my fault.
blame me.
im so sorry.