so emo now.
i need oreo milkshake.
jotham makes good oreo milkshake you know!!!! coz he uses like manymany oreos. cheaterbug.
hahaha.

most of the time i dont get what i want. and i really mean MOST of the time.
so there's this "ready to get rejected" feeling inside everytime i hope for smth and when it really happens ( it usually does), i'll be ready for it.
i think im getting used to not getting what i want.
but some ppl are just so used to getting what they want. or not getting rejected and simply take acceptance for granted.

okok enough. i'll live with it. like i always have.

shrugs.

21 is too exciting alr. sorry man haha. tmr i gotta pon work.
whoo.
dont think i will be able to hold out till 10pm tmr la.
so gonna finish watching this by today.
yessssssssss.
oh man so excitinggggg. eeeeeeeeeeee!

6 or 2.
not 6.
2.
but still 6.
yet 2.

hahhaha. riddle,baby.

and i just realised i need to start studying soon? maybe jotham's textbook. grah.

exciting!!!
cant stop watching pb.
i wanna sleep but oreo wafer's keeping me up so i can cont watching pb.
whoooo.


and the feeling... of knowing everything is just going to turn out fine.
even though im not sure of whats ahead of me.
its just this thing inside telling me all will go well.
i know. i sound very unchristian.
but yeah. its this assurance i have. from God? i guess so.
i probably need a little reminder sometimes, in one way or another.

oh man. i really cant stop watching!!! its like the exciting exciting part now. ahhh!!

difficult day ytd.
goodwill being taken the wrong way and being blamed for nth.
probably just my fault la.
it always is.

tired from thoning the night. but still gonna watch pb.
no work today was good. dont even know if i have work tmr.
stupid supervisor. ugh.

got a call today which kinda eased my burden a little.
at least its a reply.

pb time.

ciaos.

boss wedding good. coz we had alot of food to tabao back!
super tired now.

haha. realised my posts these few days are getting shorter and less detailed.
signs of me getting lazy.
lala.

blahhh. stuff to do after work tmr in prep for long tues.
guess i wont be watching bleach tonight. wanna zzz.

at least tonight nobody will stop me from sleeping and make me talk till 3am.
you TURD. hahaha.

nitessss.

back from camp


i want, i get it.

it was just a 'whatever you call it'

how true. a leopard never changes its spots. and i tell you, NEVER.


ok.. bath now.


zzz

i suddenly feel like runninggggg at macr man.
supp to go swim with tiff and drey today but as usual stuff happens.
wtv.
byee

not. excited.

quite screwed.

and i need to finish packing my bag.
okok. after packing bag then can read book and watch movie.
omg so many things to do?!
1. pack
2. read finish book.
3. update passbook.
4. dye hair
5. watch movie
6. call stupid thing
7. get late lunch so i dont need dinner
8. do 3sets of 5pull-ups to make my aching arms worse.

yay called rl. so cool. could immediately recognise my voice even after like 8months.
plan outing with rl soon. hahah. jap buffet lovers. finally found partner lalala.

okok. i must not spend money on useless stuff for the next 2-3weeks. its damn painful losing 200bucks. but ppl obviously think its a damn small sum and are so insensitive about it. prolly dont know whats like to work and earn in fnb. frigs.

time's running out. better put some thought into it alr, clar.



its sooo darn good a feeling to be feeling the lactic acid building up in my legs and the kinda painful breathing.. dont know how to explain properly but its just the feeling of being super tired yet pushing yourself till the end. hmm.. maybe thats why i was going upslope a little to quickly. sorry heehee. but that really was fun. chionging up the slope at our snail pace. whoo.

the slight ache now is greaaattt. i want to get back my fitness man. and my legs. i do miss them. gimme back my sec 4 legs! hahahah.

really enjoyed myself today. it felt so training days. like the three of us ran w/o talking. sometimes la. coz drey would suddenly say smth and tiff and i would just be too tired to reply. considered right?? haha. yay 8k. but it felt like running 21k man. superrr tired. but superrr gooood. :D



went curry for dinner with tiff and drey. mon is curry day 50% off 2nd set meal! so we paid so much less than what drey and i paid when we went on other days. this was with extra rice and curry for audrey. laughed so much the whole time there. chicken pox! hahahah! went back to drey's house to watch lakehouse. woaahhh enlightenment man. after discussing like mad ahahah. the show is friggin confusing. but so sweeeet. awwww.

alright. shall head to bed.. too tired to read book liao. shucks. long day tmr... ARGGHHH.