Just a quick post to let everybody know how pissed I am. I just wanted to be there when she was in trouble ok? All I wanted to do was to let her know I was there for her, even though I knew I could not help in anyway. I know she would have been there for me too, if I were in her shoes. She doesnt belong to you, alright? As her friend, I could not bare to see her gasping for air and breathing with so much difficulty. Why must you stop me from letting her know I was there. In the end I did not even dared to follow her to the hospital. All I could do was to control my tears and hope and pray in the car that she would be alright. Who are you to stop me? I was worrying until she finally called me, alright? Actually, until now I still feel guilt inside me. And its all because of YOU.YOU.YOU.
i know you know;
i do care, really/
Sunday, May 28
Sunday, May 21
finally!
These past few days were hell. Had a hard time deciding on alot of stuffs, weighing the pros and cons and trying to find the best way to minimise trouble for guojiaolian. FINALLY! Its all over! Wahahaha! Now I can train in peace. whooo! (:
The suggestion by guojiaolian and Pat's mum seems like the best solution for me- to go later and end earlier together with Pat. This arrangement will allow me time to study and calm down after all the excitement before returning to school. (Unlike Thailand Tri. I still felt I was walking on the streets of Thailand when I was in school.dots.) plus! I still get to go for all the amaths lessons! hahaha.
Todays training was alright for the first five rounds. we were averaging at about 31.1km/h. But on the last round, after I led, I was too tired to keep up. ugh. so i slowed down. hahaha. ran only 1 km.
NE trip tomorrow. They did not even state the aim of this NE trip. I dont like aimless trips. so yeah. May be going running with Pat tomorrow.
Better blog as much as I can now before going to China. hahah.
kk, bro's nagging. cya!
The suggestion by guojiaolian and Pat's mum seems like the best solution for me- to go later and end earlier together with Pat. This arrangement will allow me time to study and calm down after all the excitement before returning to school. (Unlike Thailand Tri. I still felt I was walking on the streets of Thailand when I was in school.dots.) plus! I still get to go for all the amaths lessons! hahaha.
Todays training was alright for the first five rounds. we were averaging at about 31.1km/h. But on the last round, after I led, I was too tired to keep up. ugh. so i slowed down. hahaha. ran only 1 km.
NE trip tomorrow. They did not even state the aim of this NE trip. I dont like aimless trips. so yeah. May be going running with Pat tomorrow.
Better blog as much as I can now before going to China. hahah.
kk, bro's nagging. cya!
Thursday, May 18
fun.
Tuesday
Exams are finally over! And while everyone's catching the latest movies, going to the arcades and taking neoprints, guess what Rachel and I did - shopping! At borders! Well, we decided to go there to get a book on guitars.
So we were just wandering around the whole bookshop. I couldnt help it. I had to stop at every shelf. It was just too interesting! Rachel had to drag me away and constantly remind me of our mission- to look for a guitar book. Soon, I found a book that caught my attention and started reading it.
Suddenly from beside me, "hello." I turned and saw the least expected person - Mr Lim! And my natural reaction, "Ahh! what are you doing here?!" turned out that he was buying sports-related books for the school. The second shock came when he took me to check out a triathlon book he found. Guess who I saw when I went? Mr Goh a.k.a. camel ! Like wth. Rachel screamed when she saw him. hahaha! That Tuesday was funny. ha. (:
Wednesday
Cindy, Rachel and I went Great World City(after a long time pestering my mother).
we : - took neoprint
- bought earrings
- shopped
- Rachel talked abit too loudly in the bus -could not hear herself (listening to cindy's ipod)
- Cindy and I took the wrong bus to the wrong terminal. hahah.
yeah. It was FUN! especially throwing popcorn! whoo! (:
TODAY
Went training in the morning before going to East Coast Park for the Osim Tri clinic as a lifeguard. It was fun!! I was like supposed to watch attentively when the partipants entered the water. But what was i doing? Laughing and talking to the someone who was interviewing me. yeah, it was rather nice talking to her. I prefer face to face interviews to phone interviews. haha. She took a few pictures of the four guys and me with me standing in the middle. quite cool, actually. haha. she also took a picture of me alone, twice. one together with the lifesaving stuff(bouys etc) and one with bikes as the background. hahaha.
After the participants completed their swim leg, we cleared the area, removing bouys from the sea and other stuffs. then we had nothing to do. so i went and sat down with the DJs, meddling with the sound system and stuff, making the zapping sound at funny parts. everybody turned to look, which was super funny! Made them play funny songs, such as the tuo diao song and beep! hahha! pressed the play button too! whoo! hahhaa.
AND AND! I got to try out the Cannondale Ironman for the first time ever!!! IT WAS SOOO COOL!! and obviosly much better than my bike. haha.
Ah. Had so much fun today. Now I have to go prepare for cycling tomorrow. Pump my bike!
oh and I wont be blogging for a long, long, time. :(( china..
BYE!!
Exams are finally over! And while everyone's catching the latest movies, going to the arcades and taking neoprints, guess what Rachel and I did - shopping! At borders! Well, we decided to go there to get a book on guitars.
So we were just wandering around the whole bookshop. I couldnt help it. I had to stop at every shelf. It was just too interesting! Rachel had to drag me away and constantly remind me of our mission- to look for a guitar book. Soon, I found a book that caught my attention and started reading it.
Suddenly from beside me, "hello." I turned and saw the least expected person - Mr Lim! And my natural reaction, "Ahh! what are you doing here?!" turned out that he was buying sports-related books for the school. The second shock came when he took me to check out a triathlon book he found. Guess who I saw when I went? Mr Goh a.k.a. camel ! Like wth. Rachel screamed when she saw him. hahaha! That Tuesday was funny. ha. (:
Wednesday
Cindy, Rachel and I went Great World City(after a long time pestering my mother).
we : - took neoprint
- bought earrings
- shopped
- Rachel talked abit too loudly in the bus -could not hear herself (listening to cindy's ipod)
- Cindy and I took the wrong bus to the wrong terminal. hahah.
yeah. It was FUN! especially throwing popcorn! whoo! (:
TODAY
Went training in the morning before going to East Coast Park for the Osim Tri clinic as a lifeguard. It was fun!! I was like supposed to watch attentively when the partipants entered the water. But what was i doing? Laughing and talking to the someone who was interviewing me. yeah, it was rather nice talking to her. I prefer face to face interviews to phone interviews. haha. She took a few pictures of the four guys and me with me standing in the middle. quite cool, actually. haha. she also took a picture of me alone, twice. one together with the lifesaving stuff(bouys etc) and one with bikes as the background. hahaha.
After the participants completed their swim leg, we cleared the area, removing bouys from the sea and other stuffs. then we had nothing to do. so i went and sat down with the DJs, meddling with the sound system and stuff, making the zapping sound at funny parts. everybody turned to look, which was super funny! Made them play funny songs, such as the tuo diao song and beep! hahha! pressed the play button too! whoo! hahhaa.
AND AND! I got to try out the Cannondale Ironman for the first time ever!!! IT WAS SOOO COOL!! and obviosly much better than my bike. haha.
Ah. Had so much fun today. Now I have to go prepare for cycling tomorrow. Pump my bike!
oh and I wont be blogging for a long, long, time. :(( china..
BYE!!
Saturday, May 13
blah
Has he ever corrected our stroke so many times? Has he ever stopped us in the middle of the pool just to correct our strokes? no. Then why is it that he is doing these to the new girl? And its not because her strokes are that bad ok? they're good. she comes from a swimming club.
I thought I was the only one noticing that guojiaolian is paying extra attention to her. Pat is annoyed and another guy training with us refers to her as " oh, the one that guo jiaolian always correct her strokes." well, im irritated. There were two things he did which were totally unfair to me. Fine, I wont allow myself to be bothered by this. I just think he is biased. Its abit late for me to realise this only now. the others have already mentioned it, its just that i did not want to believe. But I saw it with my own eyes today. Yeah. now i believe.
I thought I was the only one noticing that guojiaolian is paying extra attention to her. Pat is annoyed and another guy training with us refers to her as " oh, the one that guo jiaolian always correct her strokes." well, im irritated. There were two things he did which were totally unfair to me. Fine, I wont allow myself to be bothered by this. I just think he is biased. Its abit late for me to realise this only now. the others have already mentioned it, its just that i did not want to believe. But I saw it with my own eyes today. Yeah. now i believe.
the scary old woman
This post is for yesterday.
Had so much fun yesterday. Woke up early to go cycling with Pat. It felt so much better than the last times. Like we were more experienced. I dont know how to describe the feeling. I think it just gave me a sense of satisfaction that we went more rounds before visiting Alisa (hahahah!) compared to the last time, and that we also went faster and conquered that steep steep slope!whhoo!! (: oh. when we visited alisa, her father caught us standing outside like two dum dums AGAIN! like once was not enough. so embarrassinggg...hahaha. and alisa was like, " huh, what do you all want arh?" hahah!!
Pat invited me over to her house for breakfast, so I went. Breakfast was good! Usually, I'd only eat bread at home. haha. Oh! And I went into Pat's room!! Her dad wouldnt have allowed if he was at home, but since he wasnt home that time, Pat brought me into her room! There were conditions, though - if i hear her dad saying," I'm home!" i would have to run into the toilet. hahahah!! We played her com and checked out our friends' blogs, which was fun haha.
By the time her dad returned home, we were already doing her homework- differentiation. haha. The piano in her study room was really distracting. I couldnt help it but play a few notes, going " woaaahhh!" at every note I played. hahaha. Her younger sis, came in and played some songs for us. Again I went, "woooaahhh!" after she finished. She is good, ok? hahaha!
Stayed over for lunch, coz Pat's dad asked her to ask some friends over, and i was already there! hahaha. Lunch was really really good! We had salad and lots more. ( I dont usually eat salad, coz i do not like salad, but this is the best salad i've ever tasted!) yumm! Was super full after lunch. When asked if i wanted to go swimming, i replied," no thanks, I will sink." haha.
Cycled back after lunch. >>>> fast forward.
Training in the afternoon was so tiring. plus, guojiaolian left early! wth.. we did like 16 x 400m. wanted to vomit at the fourteenth time. Actually wanted to stop halfway again. But told myself "I have to complete today's training programme. I've already done 10, I can do 6 more." yay! And I did complete it! happy! (:
Pat's dad sent me home again today. ( actually, like everyday.. Thanks Uncle! ) The windows were misty and we were prepared to move off, suddenly a knock came from outside pat's window. we turned our heads and " AHHHH!!!! GHOST!!" there was a freakin old woman standing outside lah! omg. If you were in our shoes you'd be so freaked out too. I was already at the corner of the seat, I still jumped at tried to move more to the corner. Pat did not dare to wind down her window when her dad told her to do so, so the woman continued knocking. hahaha. what a scare. I really really got a super big shock. ok. one of the worst scares I've ever had in my life.
Turned out that the old woman wanted a lift to the taxi stand, coz she was afraid of to walk alone in the dark. she was like, "thank you hor, thank you. thank you hor." and i was like mumbling to myself ," kgia si nang." ( scared to death in teochew) dont know how to spell. haha.
so yeah, i also learnt that Pat likes eating cold bread..... (dots...) hahaha!
Had so much fun yesterday. Woke up early to go cycling with Pat. It felt so much better than the last times. Like we were more experienced. I dont know how to describe the feeling. I think it just gave me a sense of satisfaction that we went more rounds before visiting Alisa (hahahah!) compared to the last time, and that we also went faster and conquered that steep steep slope!whhoo!! (: oh. when we visited alisa, her father caught us standing outside like two dum dums AGAIN! like once was not enough. so embarrassinggg...hahaha. and alisa was like, " huh, what do you all want arh?" hahah!!
Pat invited me over to her house for breakfast, so I went. Breakfast was good! Usually, I'd only eat bread at home. haha. Oh! And I went into Pat's room!! Her dad wouldnt have allowed if he was at home, but since he wasnt home that time, Pat brought me into her room! There were conditions, though - if i hear her dad saying," I'm home!" i would have to run into the toilet. hahahah!! We played her com and checked out our friends' blogs, which was fun haha.
By the time her dad returned home, we were already doing her homework- differentiation. haha. The piano in her study room was really distracting. I couldnt help it but play a few notes, going " woaaahhh!" at every note I played. hahaha. Her younger sis, came in and played some songs for us. Again I went, "woooaahhh!" after she finished. She is good, ok? hahaha!
Stayed over for lunch, coz Pat's dad asked her to ask some friends over, and i was already there! hahaha. Lunch was really really good! We had salad and lots more. ( I dont usually eat salad, coz i do not like salad, but this is the best salad i've ever tasted!) yumm! Was super full after lunch. When asked if i wanted to go swimming, i replied," no thanks, I will sink." haha.
Cycled back after lunch. >>>> fast forward.
Training in the afternoon was so tiring. plus, guojiaolian left early! wth.. we did like 16 x 400m. wanted to vomit at the fourteenth time. Actually wanted to stop halfway again. But told myself "I have to complete today's training programme. I've already done 10, I can do 6 more." yay! And I did complete it! happy! (:
Pat's dad sent me home again today. ( actually, like everyday.. Thanks Uncle! ) The windows were misty and we were prepared to move off, suddenly a knock came from outside pat's window. we turned our heads and " AHHHH!!!! GHOST!!" there was a freakin old woman standing outside lah! omg. If you were in our shoes you'd be so freaked out too. I was already at the corner of the seat, I still jumped at tried to move more to the corner. Pat did not dare to wind down her window when her dad told her to do so, so the woman continued knocking. hahaha. what a scare. I really really got a super big shock. ok. one of the worst scares I've ever had in my life.
Turned out that the old woman wanted a lift to the taxi stand, coz she was afraid of to walk alone in the dark. she was like, "thank you hor, thank you. thank you hor." and i was like mumbling to myself ," kgia si nang." ( scared to death in teochew) dont know how to spell. haha.
so yeah, i also learnt that Pat likes eating cold bread..... (dots...) hahaha!
Tuesday, May 9
Saturday, May 6
stuffs Rachel wanted me to do
Your gift for gab is Laying On The Laughter!
What's Your Gift For Gab?
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You're a Total Thrill Seeker
Are You a Thrill Seeker?
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Friday, May 5
B-O-R-I-N-G
Guo jiao lian's gone to China. Visiting Jina, probably. heard she was on drip. oh no.. yeah, i now realise how quiet traning is without jina. I miss her actually. haha. even tian jiao lian said so. she had nobody to talk to today. haha.
to jina (if she comes here) : Hey Jina! Hope you're feeling better! You are included in my prayers every night. Remember, He is the God that healeth thee. Have faith in God. Hope you get well soon! (:
training was super boring today, except from some people calling pat and i, pig sty(plural. dont know how to spell. hur.) OH! i just remembered! I forgot to show Pat I could levitate! I really can, ok. Ask Rachel. hahahah! Oh well, i'll show her on sunday. if i remember. Alright, getting back to how boring training is. we did like 6 x 1km. supposed to do 7. But i was too tired. phlegm was stuck in my throat, making it hard to breathe. (coz i could only breathe through my nose!)haha. timings were super lousy. was going so slow yet i was so tired. sigh.
hope guojiaolian comes back soon. there's no motivation, when there's nobody shouting at us to " gen shang! gen shang!" hahaha.
Pat's a great motivation to me. The way she pushes on even when she is so tired. I really admire her endurance. Many a times during training, thoughts of stopping halfway crossed my mind. But seeing Pat so determined to go on, it motivated me and made me decide to carry on, telling myself," two more only." etc. Its just great to have a friend like Pat. motivated and so determined. learnt so much from her. Thanks, Pat! (:
Anyway, I just wanted to let everybody know that : HAVING EXAMS IN THE HALL IS SO FUN! hahaha. its true! (:
Social Studies, bio, chinese and amaths paper 1 , down. many more to go! 16.05.06, i can't wait for you!!! going to study history now. hope i wont fall asleep. hur.
to jina (if she comes here) : Hey Jina! Hope you're feeling better! You are included in my prayers every night. Remember, He is the God that healeth thee. Have faith in God. Hope you get well soon! (:
training was super boring today, except from some people calling pat and i, pig sty(plural. dont know how to spell. hur.) OH! i just remembered! I forgot to show Pat I could levitate! I really can, ok. Ask Rachel. hahahah! Oh well, i'll show her on sunday. if i remember. Alright, getting back to how boring training is. we did like 6 x 1km. supposed to do 7. But i was too tired. phlegm was stuck in my throat, making it hard to breathe. (coz i could only breathe through my nose!)haha. timings were super lousy. was going so slow yet i was so tired. sigh.
hope guojiaolian comes back soon. there's no motivation, when there's nobody shouting at us to " gen shang! gen shang!" hahaha.
Pat's a great motivation to me. The way she pushes on even when she is so tired. I really admire her endurance. Many a times during training, thoughts of stopping halfway crossed my mind. But seeing Pat so determined to go on, it motivated me and made me decide to carry on, telling myself," two more only." etc. Its just great to have a friend like Pat. motivated and so determined. learnt so much from her. Thanks, Pat! (:
Anyway, I just wanted to let everybody know that : HAVING EXAMS IN THE HALL IS SO FUN! hahaha. its true! (:
Social Studies, bio, chinese and amaths paper 1 , down. many more to go! 16.05.06, i can't wait for you!!! going to study history now. hope i wont fall asleep. hur.
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