isnt it scary how uncertain the future is?
dont know how to put it into words but i'll try.
its when you're not so sure anymore. from something you really wanted/loved/enjoyed to something you absolutely hate. yeah you know.. im talking bout pe. i mean, i thought it was gonna be awesome. like whoo pe rawks. now its like... YESSS NO PE! butbut!! i still wanna do do pe, like study pe... it just feels right. and not doing pe is like a part of me gone. and its weird.
ok not only pe but other stuff as well. it may seem everything's alright now but who can say for sure what will happen in 24hrs time. of course it would be great if everything goes well and goes on that way forever... but that doesnt usually happen. well not to me at least. so darn scary. from being omgsuperexcitedandhigh to idunnohowtogetridofthisfeeling. just reading her blog scares me. haha.
zzzzzzzz i dont even know what im blabbering abt. so the previous 2 or 3 lines are just nonsense. shrugs. i havent planned any lame drills for pe tmr. im sure she'll just dump me there to take the whole lesson while she sits and stares at me. totally feel like walking away man. handball. whats there to really learn. 3 steps, throw. so difficult meh... its like common sense. you dont aim at the goal keeper for her to catch, you aim away. still must teach this crap? and passing. its a freakin throwing motion. catching. use your hands to catch. then what? mouth meh. wl im damn pissed la. waste time teaching stuff they alr know but REFUSE to apply. sick of everything. its shit. its really shit.

just back from 4hr tuition with peanut and jelly.
supp to be 2hr each but i decided to have them tuition tgt so i dont have to repeat duh. their dream come true. totally screaming their heads off when they saw each other. little girls.... tsktsk.
but im super happy. jelly got 93! like hoooollyyymamaaa. she's damn zai. and she repeated everything i told her from the first lesson. like dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.. continuously till i stopped her. pro pro. but peanut was super disappointing tho... jelly was telling her answers for p4 sci. jelly is p3. and was like.." HUH? common sense! peanut! you sure you dont know?!! so easy!! the answer is thereeee!!!*jumps up and down*" ahhhhh i dunno. i know peanut is really really working hard and jelly is retardedly noisy when doing work. kinda pity peanut. but there's only this much i can do when there are limitations such as time. resources aint a prob and im thankful.


didnt have to take pe today coz it was v's lesson so we just played captain's ball with the girls. so fun. took shai's sis class. but since they are like p6 we were like.. whoever wanna play just come over. the rest were having pe by sitting down. eg shai sis. hahaha. i thought it was c's lesson and since she didnt come today i thought i was supp to take over, so when the girls came down..
me: warm up 3 rounds.
girls: HUH???
me: what? yeah 3 rounds. go.
girls: but we never do warm up!
me: so im asking you to go now?
girls: we NEVER do warm up!
me: yeah! now im telling you to run 3 rounds as warmup!
v was surprised when he came down. was like.. woah. good good. HAHAHHA.

and i dont have pe tmr again! and tmr tmr tmr tmr till exams over! gb arranged for me to follow the p6s to dragon kiln!
gb: clarissa, tmr.... you can go out and play! i arranged for you blahblah. and you can make yur own pottery. will pass it to you when they send it to us.
wheee so exciting man. best thing, NO PE! HA. *dances ard*

haha funny stuff happened in 3c and 4f. hhahah.

in 3c...
the girls were so freaked out by the bee that came to class and s was like... "if you dont look at it, it will go away. if you keep looking at it, you are giving it the attention it wants! so stop looking at the bee and look at me!"
but the girls just kept looking anw. so s went..."please mr bee! go away! the girls love you so much they cant study. hurry find your way out of the class!"
was controlling my laughter. and when s saw me she also wanted to laugh coz it was really too darn childish. HAHA.

in 4f...
wei isnt done copying.
some girls: AIYOHH why she copy so slow oneeee, mdm loh... she always like that one lehhhh.
angel: coz she write very small and very slow! like that! *imitates*
wei: *smiles sheepishly*
ying: yaya! and then veryveryvery neeeaaatt somemore!

super cute laaaa. even gb couldnt help but laugh along.
sch is cool. (except pe.)


okaaaayy bleah.. better go iron clothes.

eeeks. mon in a few minutes.
yucks. the start of another week.. ):
and i dont think its gonna be too awesome.
spam tuition and invigilation.
hmm. ok la. as long as no pe lesson is good. omg pe lessons are sooo boring. totally didnt expect that man. its so not me when im taking her class. coz i feel i need to do it her way. and its zzz boring. i see other pe classes and its really fun. shrugs i dunno. but i dread the day coz of pe. whats happening to me! heeelllpppp!

tried sake for the first time today and i swear its gonna be my last! EWW.
its horribleeeeee man.
but had a nice half-day out. (:
went kongkongmama house and couldnt complete a crazy sudoku.
but it was good to see them again. mama so not happy coz i never call her and she was like.." you know i missed you so much! and you never even call to at least let me hear your voice." oops. i felt bad man.

"where's my _____(wtv you wanna put here)?!!!"
josiah replies as a matter of factly, " up your ass turn right"
can totally anticipate his reaction everytime now when i ask where my stuff is.
hmm. idiot.


happy 26th oct.
UGGGHHH.... yes. its mon alr.ahhhhhhhhh....


+

dont know how i did for the test. just hope i dont fail any station man.
it was retarded doing the test with the stinky hangover bryan. yucks.

super bored now. hate staying at home.
but somebody beside me now needs to do work. haha.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
no food.

AH! crap. school on mon again. wlwlwlwlwlwl.

im using my com!! MINE! YAY! finally finally! :D
ppt tmr. apparently its quite difficult. argh. nervous excited man!
so not prepared for it. havent got to try out the agility run but maybe i should in sch tmr. when no one's looking haha. so clown.
anw we're done with wrapping books for TA. elsa and i vs 6 TAs. 4 boxes to 2 boxes. WTH. they are nooobbbz. freeee tmr to clown ard in sch. HA. no students no principal wheee.

ok so i dont need to meet robby to get shirt from him which is good! i can go tuition. lala. and if she doesnt need tuition tmr, i MAY go for youth. coz yongsheng forced me to.
which means im not running the nike run for him alr. otherwise me must wear mens M. HA. my dad's shirt size?!



RANDOM:
SORRY SORRY - SUPER JUNIOR raaawwwwkkkkzxxzx
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AAWqnA8PdcY

dance item on childrens day made student go crazy bout suju and she's still bugging me bout how suju sooo rawks and how she's so in love with ryeo whoever that is. zzzzzzz. the song is nice tho. go hear.


bored. gtg sleep soon.

do not touch sunday. nobody can.

am glad now. like a weight lifted off my shoulders.
missed family dinner at sakae.
its ok. it was worth it.

yes it was.

but damn. wasted sat and half a sun. now i think that today is sat... coz sat is usually a happy day. (just not this sat)
sigh.

not really looking forward to next week tho its marking days...
im kinda free. but da will be busy the whole week.
better fill my days with tuition then.
i'll be just fine.

fast forward later at 10. but me wanna do sudoku from newspaper. like we always do on sat and sun. wanted to do it ytd also but i dont have 'today'...

family isnt back yet. sigh yaiyai... hungry. hope they tabaoed food for me!

only bleach can make me happy.
yeah better than you

1.Longing for light, we wait in darkness.
Longing for truth, we turn to you.
Make us your own, your holy people,
light for the world to see.

Refrain
Christ, be our light! Shine in our hearts.
Shine through the darkness.
Christ, be our light!
Shine in your church gathered today.

2.Longing for peace, our world is troubled.
Longing for hope, many despair.
Your word alone has pow’r to save us.
Make us your living voice.

3.Longing for food, many are hungry.
Longing for water, many still thirst.
Make us your bread, broken for others,
shared until all are fed.

4.Longing for shelter, many are homeless.
Longing for warmth, many are cold.
Make us your building, sheltering others,
walls made of living stone.

5.Many the gifts, many the people,
many the hearts that yearn to belong.
Let us be servants to one another,
making your kingdom come.

audrey! i finally know this song (:
i rmb you always asked me if i knew this song when you wanted to play it on the piano but i always said i didnt know and so you would just play other songs.

Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.


I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.


I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.



Encouraging song. Hope it helps.

grah trying to find solitary and fact or fiction: beyond belief.
search super long alr.
they're kinda old shows. but left an impact on me man.
scared the shit out of me when i was younger the fact or fiction one.
solitary was just coooool.

who doesnt understand the meaning of cool? please raise your hand.
oh let me ignore that one lonely hand.
*rolls eyes*

"my mother's dead. she got killed in a car accident. my sister got killed too. my dad was a detective and was sent to the accident. he didnt know it was my mum till he got there"


"it is easier for him to say that his mother is dead than saying she ran away."

"katie died in her crib a year ago. cause unknown. i died then i left."

"there isnt a single night when i dont lie in bed and ask myself.. did katie cry and i didnt hear, did i turn the tv on too loud, why didnt i just walk into the room and kiss her goodnight again?

"its time to forgive yourself. i can help you. im an angel."

"you're an angel? you're an angel?? you're an angel! SO WHAT?? what are you doing here now. where the hell were you a year ago. where was an angel when my baby died alone in that crib. why didnt an angel come down and take me out of my bed, drag me into the nursey. why didnt an angel dial 911 for me. where the hell was the damn angel then??!"

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy.
There's nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you
in time - It's easy.

All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
There's nothing you can know that isn't known.
Nothing you can see that isn't shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
It's easy.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
All you need is love (all together now)
All you need is love (everybody)
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.

go.. awww so sweet and know that its all BULLS**T(:
that aint gonna happen in REAL life.
puh-leese. all crap.
its never. ever. thaat perfect.

sick of all these nonsense.
too tired to care anymore.
gdlck

stressssssssss siaaaaaa.

d-day. fri.

english english.

i still wanna danceeeeeeee but work is more impt. 2 things by tmr!!!! ahhhh. ok bye. back to work.

wahhhhhhhhhh.... ):
thought i was free to do prep tmr but NO... i have relief.
and soooo many relief omg.
multiplied by the next few days. till 13oct. or when psle's over... ):

all the best to those taking psle. esp josiah.


i have no idea how to start what im supp to do. COZ i dont even know what im going to do. anw... it doesnt matter coz i still wouldnt know how to do it... even if i knew what i was supp to do. SO! me shall sleep right after this.

totally wasnt listening to what hod said to me today man. i hadnt got over my "7.30-8.30" thing and she like spammed me with info...forgot the date, deadline and what im supp to send her. EVERYONE'S SPAMMING!!!!!! i know they mean well but my brain is like tiiiinnnyyyy. it feels like its gonna burst. like i have so many things to do but i cant rmb what!!!!

me is so.. so.. dead.


AHHHH. You put me here! and i still will cont to trust You that everything's gonna be just fine. tho im like... dreading everything and all..

pppppphhhhhhhhhhffffffffffftttttttttt. gnite

grah supp to do work now..... ):
i dont wanna....
haizzzzz.
not good. not good.............

dread dread dread.
uh ohssssssss..

scary shit coming up on tue man.
but i guess this is how it is.
new stuff to handle.
being thrown into the deep end expected to know how things are done.
guess im better off alr. so i should be thankful.
and yeah i guess i am. not complaining complaining. just a little scared. and excited. nervous. anxious.
i pray my stage fright stays away.
seriously.

3movies in a week.
thats what happens most of the time in sg.
eat, movie, shop.
kinda sian but nth else to do anw...
the ugly truth, surrogates, inglorious basterds.
and online, the proposal.
hahah.

too lazy to plan anything now. will cont planning tmr. really tired alr.
longggg longgg day on mon.
4f x 3, 3c x 3 netball 1.30-4, thessa 4.30-6.30, tiffandrey dinner 7-?
and tue is omg.. not enough time to prepare!
but no use freaking out. tue will come whether or not you like it. just make full use of mon for practice.

alrights. off i go...
just whack