when the dance ended i was really very very veryyyy sad. it felt too fast.. 2min51sec...
come on. how many more chances would i get to do this man!
getting up on stage and totally not freaked out but having fun even when of coz there were slight mistakes.
super funny. all of us danced better during pract then the real thing. and made mistakes we never made during practice!!! even faizal made a funny mistake while just standing! the girls totally laughed at that man!
awesome fun.
sadly, elsa and i realised we wouldnt get to do this again next year. sigh.
miss it alr. ):

going to meet tiff in awhile for goldclass man. (:
but its more tiff than goldclass of coz!

its tmr yay! so exciting!
we are all like so ready to get up there and do out thang. (:
awesome practices. going crazy and retardedly freestyling when we forget steps. super funny.

but its starting to get kinda stressful... ughhh
so sweet guatbee and fiazal are like helping me out so much. lending me books, telling me stuff and helping me get resources etc.

hah! i still dont like calling guatbee guatbee! she's like older.... its just weird man.
but some ppl certainly dont feel the same!

random girl: clarissaaa!
elsa and me: *GASPS!*
elsa: WHAT CLARISSA?!!
me: what did you just call me?
elsa: you better greet properly!
random girl: miss tan. heehee.
elsa: tsktsktsk.


YAY YAY anw! cant waitttt(: candyfloss and popcorn heeehhhsss.
packed packed wed thu and fri man. whoo.

happy birthday, tiff.

ok nites!

i alr said nth will screw up my mood today
but farking lab just had to do it again.
its ALWAYS lab. think abt 876 or wtv. its just had to be farking lab.
-.-

wahaha. dancing for childrens' day!
awesome.
and guess what.
bye bye stage fright! (:
totally had fun training with the p4 teachers.
kinda need to find hiphoppy stuff now?
so funny. we're all gonna like dance ard at home. stress man. standing infront. ugh.
must rmb to teach elsa the steps. (if i still can rmb them by mon!!)

and omg. i dont want to be in charged of netball?! i know nth bout it. except that GK is goal keeper!
im proud of that. :D

hod: er. clarissa. can you be incharged of netball? coz (some reason blahh..)
me(thinks): NOOOOO.. ))): i want gym))):
but me says: okay! yeah sure! *smiles sweetly*
me(thinks): DUH. like i can say NO? -.-
hod: so its every mon 1.30-4. start next week ok.
me: alright!*continues smiling sweetly*
after hod turns away..
elsa and i look at each other.
elsa: haha. you totally couldnt say no to that.
me: WL. i dont want laaaaahhh! but ya! cant say no man!
elsa: eh. i also ok. i got SPEECH AND DRAMA.
me*immediately feels better*: HAHA. COOL. :P
elsa: cool your head lah! UGH!

sch is actually quite interesting.

9

woots bought shorts. good.
and ARGH crap! i realise i cant go back to crash sch. -.-

totally stonning now man.
been stonning since i got back. like an hour ago..

things to do by tmr:
-get longer shorts wth..
-find way to rmb QA easier.
-'' '' '' '' soluble and insoluble salts ''.
-hmm i so know there's more.


things to do soon:
-cut hair. (hair sux)
-finish reading and return pe book/notes/cd
-'' '' '' '' math book.
-'' '' time traveler's wife.

ugh. i cant make myself do any of these. so so stoned-ed.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

looking forward to tea!
but for now going to sembawang first.
ugh. long ride.



considering if i should close this blog down.
since im gonna start getting busy and all.
anw i dont think many ppl bother reading crap like this.
haha. but i do appreciate those who read and sms me.

ok off i go.

3/1 is just 3. what am i thinking. reciprocal? 1/3. nah.. doesnt work in this case.
one sided.
how could i ever think that maybe i had meant a little more to you.
not expecting anything much just updates once in awhile without me having to ask.
been letting you in on everything impt to me. but i dont seem to be recieving the same from you.
wedding gown huh.
ouch.
and no sms. nth. at all.
now that you're busier you can just throw me away (:
lets see now how much this friendship means to you. you always said it did. put it into action.

wanna die alr...
its tmr shitshit.
in like friggin 9hrs. omgomg help...
))):

blueblackgreen -> red.
gosh.
im freakin out.
how calm i appear to be at home. haha. they always thought i was this everyday-no-worries-just-whack person. dont want to change the way they think about me.
but. hell. am i scared. more scared than excited.
ahhhhhhhh..
totally freaked infront of auntie. must have thought im suchaloser. haha.

this isnt the same as everything ive been through. its like... big.
tv was super scary for me at first but i got used to it really quickly. fnb as well. money also. wallet also.they were all firsts. NONONONO this is just different!!!!!! i dont exactly know how to put it into words! and i really dont care coz i need to sleep.

gonna miss the ppl at TV. really cool/fun ppl (: totally enjoyed that one month.
i suddenly feel so free.
but gotta study. even then its not studying studying. just feels like you are studying for somebody else. supposed to be impt but there just isnt that chiong factor to it. hahah

eat sushi and study is good (:
6hrs ftw.
nice.
goodjob tiff.
no buffet-ing for a longlong time. we pwomise.

studied with da today. reminds me of alevels man.
pancakes! for dinner. fun flipping them. hahha. (:
just enjoying as much as i can now before hell starts.
im scared shitless.
honestly.

miss school.
miss wearing sch u.
miss folding skirt and trying to tuck in uniform properly.
miss wearing contacts everyday.
miss tying hair for sch.
miss waving at tiff in the canteen and calling her from across 3rd floor to 4th floor.
miss studying for smth.
miss classmates.

heh. who wanna go back to sch with me to crash some lects? (:

omigochie! i just deleted some of my songs from my phone. AHHH! crapzxzzzx

had awesome run this morning. ran very little but visited beatiful place (:
took weird pics with tiff haha. (mostly just her. HHAHAHA)

stone now.

phew. back from a very exciting lunch man.
played punk and decided to eat at sushi tei with jo and marianne.
funny stuff. rushed there and back. spent like 18 in total. wooaaah...
had my usual sscmk and a.mekass.(secret code in st HAHA, wanna guess what they are? HEE) rawkzxxzz.
now im stoning again...
and have to act busy typing typing. haha
sleepyyyy.

omg smth freaky just happened!
my com flooded with facebook! like PIAK ALL OVER THE SCREEN.
freak man.

daph(on the phone): ning gui xin?
caller: jfifjdiosg
jo: your name how expensive. 10dollars la.
daph to caller: oh... about $1000(in chinese)
jo: wah seh. 1000 leh.


aww jo so sweet. didnt have breakfast coz dad was idunnola so i didnt get my mr bean...
went to work hungry and grr..
was just sitting at my desk going to start work, and jo brought a plastic bowl and a fork together with her caidaokuey to my table and was like.. come we share halfhalf.
so touched hahah.

she was showing me her pics. overseas with her bf. so nice lah haha. argh now im damn bored again. have nth to do. whee.

i suddenly feel like going to ecp to walkwalk.

and somewhere.



just do what you want.
who am i to say anything.
it wouldnt matter, it wouldnt change how you'd do stuff so why bother asking for my opinion at all.

what's new.


its always my fault.
thanks for putting in so much effort.
pointing out that its all my fault (: