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just a few hours out and i learnt so much and saw so much more of the real you.
it scares me to think that this whole time, it was only the tip of the iceberg that i was loving and that there's so much more about you that i havent met.
it's true that it takes time to get to know a person fully.
i love you for you (or the you i know so far).
but i worry. would i still love the rest of the iceberg?

we are learning everyday, learning to be better, learning to trust.
but so far, it just feels like the house is always torn down after so much hard work put into building it. it takes so long to build, only to be torn apart in a flash by a heartless hurricane.

(:

hellohello!! we're back from a 2d1n trip to batam for some massage and cable ski-ing!

stayed at The Hills which is only a two-minute walk to Nagoya Hills, the biggest shopping mall in the area (or batam itself, i'm not too sure). stayed there the previous time, had no complains, found it extremely convenient, and with a 30% discount now, we obviously went back there. Like a true Singaporean, i found 2 things to complain about now. the bed wasnt very comfy and the breakfast wasnt great, however the room is simple (good enough for 1 night) with free wifi, tv had many channels (as long as they have soccer its good), and most importantly, they had a hairdryer whoooo. so, if you're looking for a reasonably-priced place to stay which is conveniently located in the middle of spas/massage palours, you can try out The Hills. havent tried other hotels since this is only my second time visiting batam. will definitely be back there for more short overnight trips and cable-skiing (because baby like).

when we reached the hotel, i realised we were right beside one of the top and highly recommended massage parlours - the spa secret and indothai. definitely had to give it a shot even though it was $10 more expensive than the usual massage prices. $32 for my aromatheraphy massage and $22 for babe's mixed massage.
honestly, am still not used to massages so i found it ticklish and painful ): didn't exactly enjoy enjoy it. in fact, i felt sore after the massage and i dont know why. dont understand how he could fall asleep. ah wells.

was planning to go for a pedi as well but decided to give it a miss and go for $3 movie instead. 50,000Rp for two persons. that was my guess. for ONE person. hahah. movie was good, screen was big and clear, cinema wasnt crowded, ticket was cheap. what more could we ask for? oh. that they let us bring food in to the cinema instead of putting it into the locker.

had an early night to wake up for an early brekkie before wakeboarding. was hoping to go one round on the wakeboard but didnt manage to. was very frustrated that i faceplanted so many times. i still think i have a concussion and that my stomach and intestines have exchanged places. dont know if i want to go back there again to get more innards rearrangement. as much as i want to master it, i wish i were more skilled in this so it's not so painful a process to go through. ):
succeeded in going one round on the kneeboard but that wasnt even challenging. what was awesome was riding with babe on his wakeboard and catching a whole video of it. loved it. he's so awesome heehee. he managed to land after an obstacle too! so proud of you, dear! muackssss

now, 1.5h of sleep before brazil vs mexico. (:

i hope these 7 days go by smoothly. the last time was just horrible and i learnt that so much can happen within a short span of 7 days.

today is day 1. it was fine. like the last time, day 1, too, was fine. subsequently it just got from bad to worse. dont know what to expect of the rest of the week this time.

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day 2 was pretty fun. was busy doing facial and shopping.
day 3 was alright as well. went to mama house. missing you. 3 more days.
day 4 went by pretty quickly.
day 5 was great.
one more day.
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7 days over.
thank God it went by so smoothly. 

lessons

yays my 500th post! :D

just a quick summary of what i've learnt from them since 15. all these shaped me to what i am today, how i deal with us and my expectations.

#1
puppy love is just what it is, puppy love.

#2
never stay with a guy who just wants 'fun'.
if at first, there's no chemistry, there never will be, no matter how cool he is.

#3
age is not a factor when you are old.
but it is now. and will be, until you're 50.
it takes courage and much love to be willing to wait while withstanding negative comments.

#4
save for the future, plan for the future.
try not to suffer and torture yourself while doing so.
sometimes, money CAN buy happiness.
first ask yourself if the reason for anger is reasonable before bringing it up.

#5
never judge a book by its cover.
a nice person may turn out to be an asshole.
money may buy happiness, but not my love. especially not your parents' money.
if he can't decide well now, don't expect him to be a good father.
you'd probably just end up the 'father', and he, the mother.

i'm still learning every day but i hope that's all i will ever add to this list.


was extremely disappointed that his reservist clashed with our phantom of the opera date(and date) haha. plus it was already booked during the early bird period and we had pretty good seats. thank God they extended the show days and we can still have good seats! yay! just that there's no more early bird discount. thank you binksy for offering to share the cost and give our tickets to my parents for free. my mother was really happy when she heard it. i'm really thankful that the two of them can go out together like how they did when they were dating (mummy told me that she watched it before and loved it). thank you dearrr ((:

on another note, today i was reminded of a portion of my past, of having to scrimp and save every single cent, eating the cheapest meals and telling myself that all these little savings now will add up in the future.
i saw her worry that the meal might be too expensive. as much as i thought of paying(so i could have my black canyon), i am not a charitable organization and i do not simply pay for anybody out of pity. i treat, out of appreciation, out of love, out of joy etc but not out of pity.

road

took ArgonDragon out for a spin last night together with mystique. first time since kenyir lake for me!
"let's go for a long, slow ride."which i heard as "slack ride" and was obviously not prepared, so ended up having to borrow baby's smallest jersey and ride with tri shorts (thinner padding). so i had to bear with the pain in my (somewhere) for the next 73km. not funny at all.
headed out at 8.20pm.
i dont know the exact route we took even though yes, i rode it, but i know we stopped at the punggol prawning place (where i fell heehee)

first stop! (:

AD and Mystique taking a break from the road.

We then continued to tampines, coastal (7km on big chain ring and manintaing a considerably constant and good speed, posture etc yay!) then babe pointed to the spot where the guy died which freaked me out and i just wanted to get out of coastal asap even though i felt so familiar there. fell again. headed down ecp, where we realised the sundown marathoners were going to be running past. Stopped by changi village to eat but decided to eat after we were done.

Watching the runners run by and offering our bikes??

 

Wanted to see if i could find my mother among the crowd so we stopped by some place when we saw some runners. and yes! we saw mummy! mission accomplished so we continued on our journey back.
passed braddell, serangoon, lornie, upp thomson and back. wahoooo finally! sprinted up the final hill but i still didnt cramp even though my aim for the ride was "to ride until i cramp or till my water finishes" neither of which happened. haha
73.65km accomplished that day. reached back at about 1.10am followed by 50 crunches and 50 leg raises as proposed by the crazy bf.
had bakchormee for supper before going back.
what an awesome and crazy ride. lesson learnt: unclip earlier because my babe will scold if i unclip too late and fall ): and then kiss my wound when i pout.
thank God for protecting and keeping us safe the entire ride, and even though i fell twice, the only injury sustained  was a teeny weeny abrasion on my ring finger.
so lucky to have an awesome navigator/google map reader/wind blocker to ride with. xoxoxo