Interschool Aquathlon

Ok I need to type this out real quick. Yesterday was the Interschool Aquathlon.
Just wanna say a big CONGRATULATIONS!

to all the winners yesterday!

It was fun. Though the swimming part was horrible. Got pushed underwater once, pulled at my feet thrice, pulled at my swimming costume once. hahaha. And I won't deny pulling others' feet too hahaha. Was pushed to the rope so many times. ouch. swallowed one big gulp of water. ugh. Just horrible.

I feel that people from competitive swimming are so... unlike triathlon people who are so friendly. the atmosphere there that day was different too. there was no cheering, as all the parents were only interested in their child winning the race. Not like other triathlons where people cheer for other people as they know that the race is not easy.

The running part was alright. I pee-ed in my costume because i drank alot of water(from my water-bottle, the sea and the drink station). SHHH! But who cares? hahaha. Thats why I prefer triathlon. Who cares? They do that too! hahah! (: Caught up with a few girls on the run. Obviously, I could not catch up with Pat. She's damn fast! Woohoo! hahah!

After the race, I met Pat, Thad and Dexter at the podium(coz they finished before me). Dexter started pouring H-two-O on me and pat. oh wait. H-two-O, the isotonic drink. NOT water! And Thad threw dexter's shoes into the dustbin. damn funny. hhaha! Then we went to the transition area to get our stuffs before heading for the sea to warm down, a.k.a. play. We cheered Mok and Alisa as they came into the transition area. Dexter lost his goggles twice. funny. Awhile later, Thomas and the other kids came as well. Thomas started throwing sand at Pat and me. What a time we had throwing sand at each other while being filmed by Thad's and Thomas' dad. It was so much fun. Oh! Not forgetting Uncle Robert throwing empty water bottles at dexter! hahah! It was so funny.

Having enough of warming down and seeing our fingers wrinkling up, Pat, Dexter and I left for the transition area again to get our stuffs to change. We just showered. There was no place to put our towels, by the way. so each of us had to take turns being the "stand". hahaha. And there was still sand in my costume after rinsing. argh.

I was bored so I decided to take some random photos while wandering around the beach with pat and pam. But before that we had a nice picture taken. (below)pat, me, sophia, lilin, pam
wanna see a random shot? hahahaha. damn funny.

you can check out other pics on my msn space. http://spaces.msn.com/clar2107/
ok. i had to collect 3 prizes on behalf of pat, alisa, christine. so em,barrasing! hahah.

i'll be going for dinner now. wont blog till a long time. exam! haha.

that sentence hurts.

Don't even know why i actually bother to blog today. I am supposed to be studying now. Maybe its because I need to let my feelings out. maybe.

I just can't believe it. Of all people, WHY YOU? why?? If what you said had came from other people, i wouldn't mind, but YOU? It hurts ok? But NO, i am not going to cry. i wont. I was just behind her, alright? spare a thought for me, at least. Maybe if you did not add ,"...just like triathlon being easy for you." it wouldn't hurt me that much. I know you added that sentence because you saw me roll my eyes. yeah. i did that on purpose. it was to show you. its true. believe it. I know you know I was pissed. you're my godfather anyway. you should know how i feel. i've told you a few times. you did the same thing about four times in this one and a half years, hurting me. sure, she's happy about it. I AM NOT. thanks for trying to be nice, anyway. i know that added sentence was to prevent me from feeling out of place. unfortunately not. it hurts.

OH? WHY AM I COMPLAINING NOW? I've been through this more than a million times in one and a half years. why can't I last another half a year? Its only half a year more anyway. six months. and its all over. the hurt, the anger, the jealousy. i can't wait.

I see ME walking beside "me". no. you won't understand any of this. none of you will. not now, not ever. Its like a mirror. What ME likes, "me" likes. How ME walks, "me" walks. How ME talks, "me" talks. Even the way ME carries stuff, "me" does it the same way! Not that i mind or anything, I just see ME in "me". And so does the people around ME. the only different thing about the image and the object, is the brains. You make it seem so easy, a no-brainer, "oh, i just anyhow do one." and please, do not include the 'we' when you find something easy to do, and the others are having difficulty. just say, " I don't even need to think, can get answers, they keep on asking how to do." coz, you do not know if i had some trouble along the way before getting the right answers. >sorry. maybe we're just so close. (:

This is just how i felt for one and a half years already. six months is nothing to me now. just keep going. i can make it.i know i can.

why must it be like that?

what a world we live in. WHAT A WORLD WE LIVE IN. gossips here and gossips there. "do you know what he/she did?", "can you believe him/her?!", "hey, dont you think he/she_______?" its getting rather tiring, especially being the one hearing all the gossips and badmouthing from ten(or less) different people in the squad, each having different opinions about things and stuff. i am like getting so confused trying to decide who is right and who is not, who's got a point there and who doesnt. like pat said, it feels like you are a historian, trying to analyze the situation, seperating the facts from the fiction. its wasnt too difficult to do so in history tests, but this is different. it is real and it concerns me and probably my future as well.

what the outcome of the meeting will be like, i totally have no idea. actually, i feel i do not even have any idea about wth is going on! one says the meeting is about school commitment, another says its about training programme. so what do i do? do i listen to both? i dont know. this is draining me, FYI.

and about person A, person A doesnt know about this blog right? who cares. this is one example of a big letdown. sorry pat, i know you feel much worse than i do about this. we, being new to this sport, trust everything that a person with much more experience says and teaches us. (wait a minute. i've just lost my train of thoughts. gotta go catch it back. BY WASHING DISHES!)kays, lets continue. as i was saying, we have total trust in these people. we follow their instructions very closely, having not a single doubt. "if this is what person A does, i should just follow person A." well, thats what we thought. (actually i had my suspicions about what person A was doing weeks before the 'big letdown' today.)
-scoffs. so what if its SIX rounds? even if we cant keep up with the pack after four rounds or maybe less, at least we know that we have tried our best and that we have trained hard. why keep on reminding us to go within YOUR speed limit? are you a traffic police? why were we so gullible? blinded by your nice-NESS your and funny-NESS?
do you know you've hurt pat so much more than you have hurt me? she IDOLISES you! what a letdown. WHAT A LETDOWN! sigh.

oh wells, this is life. isnt life just great? woots. whatever. i shall just be a neutron, a neutral entity, with positive and negative charges circling around me. argh. this is a nightmare. i hope i wake up soon.

Mekong River Triathlon

Mekong River Triathlon... umm.. dont wanna talk about it.
but it was fun! especially the last night when we played truth or dare. That game was the best 'truth or dare' game i have ever played in my entire life! WOOHOO! haha.
Got to know Elaine much better too. She is really nice actually. haha. (:
got to make a few friends from macau.
yeah. im too lazy to write more...




There are times when I fall.
There are times when I fail.
There are times when I quit.
I wouldn't want it any other way.
Because the harder the struggle, the stronger I become.