IN LOVE WITH MY WICKED EARPHONES.
makes almost every song sound so good. (:
i like my beat fast and my bass down lowwww.
HAHAH. random shit. forgot where i heard it from anw.

woke up before 6am today and was running my ass off for ihg at 8.10am.
forgot to start my stopwatch after receiving the "baton". so i have no idea how slow i ran. angst. but i did my best and it was damn awesome! the pain, baby. the pain in my legs, my chest, awesome awesome feeling. but would i do it again? HAAHHA only if im forced to. like this time. me is damn lazy. :P
we got 12th placing overall. HAHAHAHAH LMAO SUCKS TTM. :P hope my overtaking of 5 girls and 1 guy did some good man... but doesnt matter luh huh. it was an improvement from last year i heard. haha wtv. ITS OVER. think im like high. coz my earphones are so good. :D

swimming tmr.
im really praying medley doesnt get into finals. coz i soooo dont wanna swim fly TWICE. nononono. i'll die i swear. friggin scared i'll drown at the last 10m seriously. havent done the full 50m in full speed since..... sec3? woohoo. the last time i tried shenglin was laughing at me die. reason im dying: coz i never go bi trng. same reason why i spilled tauhuay over my floor, and why i wasnt used to my hands being wrinkly after swim. my bi team are damn retard and awesome bunch(: but too bad none of them will get to read this. but love them all the same! haha.

supposed to be anatomising(according to sanjay) now. but im right here haahah. wtv. im trying to be a mugger, but am always failing.. hahaha. esp this sem man. no discipline, clarissa tan!!!!
but guitaring for an hour today was shiok ttm. hee.

okokokok fine. i'll start anatomising. soon. hehs.

countdown to sun 1 pm is on babe. cant wait. 20.5 hours. hahah which means i effectively wasted away 6.5 hours! WAH TAN HUI MIN IS PRO. nais.nais.

only you have the power to subdue my anger/unhappiness that quickly. somehow you just can. (:

fri gonna be quite exciting in the morn. teehee.
ok 3 more days. gotta start waking up at 6.30am and sleeping by 11pm. shift body clock in time for race on sat. wahhh sleep is such a waste of time.
mugger me wants to study but havent done anything for the last 7 hours that i said i would use to study. seriously. smth is terribly wrong. since when clarissatan so slack. bah.

M.Y.L.C.
):

woohoo. cut hair on sun after swim comp. awesome. but sian cant shave bald. dangzzxxz. ):
and im seriously tempted to do acrylic but! i wont be able to play guitar after that.
and best thing im gonna have a guitar in hall soonsoon. heehee! damn excited.
*dances ard* cant wait cant wait.
like how i cant wait for sun. for everything to be over once and for all! omg!

ive wasted.. 8 hours alr. doing nothing when ive loads to complete. im damn awesome.
thanks!

daym when can i shave my head??? like seriously serious. i wannnnttttttt. but somebody would be angry HAHAHA. bleahs. oh wells.

and what the hell am i doing in hall on a recess week? why the heck am i staying in hall all week? this is ridiculous luhhh. and trainings are like at 10pm. hello dudes. you dont want to sleep i damn sure want to yknow. at 10pm-12am, i would be... fb-ing, (not like i dont do it during the rest of the day including during lects but its SOLELY fb-ing), doing my misc stuff, bathing, blog-surfing, doing devo, talking on the phone or msn-ing, cleaning room.

did i already mention that ihg is on sat and sun MORN? so why are we running at NIGHT. c'mon dudes. 7am is fine what. who ask y'all to have a 4am bedtime zzzzzzzz. oh wells. 3 more hours. not looking forward to it. SIGHS. whyyyy must comp be on a weekend. i love weekends! hahah who doesnt man :P weekends are the bombz.

You say that I'm messing with your head (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
All 'cause I was making out with your friends (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, woah, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?

So what if I go out on a million dates (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I rather rage than sit around and wait all day (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...
La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...

You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)
You can't save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la

not that i like the song but seriously, im done being a good girl.
and i like.

even though it sure isnt 2359 yet.
it doesnt matter anymore.
forgetting is still forgetting.
and it doesnt change anything.
coz you forgot.
damn, i know im making you feel bad.
but think about how im feeling now.
like shit.


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as if strike 1 wasnt bad enough.

(:

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oh right right.
it isnt a fudging big deal.
it isnt even "real" per se.
i get it.
oh well.
how silly of me to think it really did matter.

DAMN. words. nth but words. empty empty words. coming out of your sweet sweet tongue.

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am i supposed to live with this?
accepting stuff that i'd never thought i would?
but this time, it'd be different.
i'd shut up.
watch as the day pass.
wait and hope till 2359.
and see what happens.



forgetfulness.


on a side note, pink is sooooo girly. hahhaha. need to find the time to change my template sooooon.

the incentive of going back home on a thu was so strong that i was forced to vomit out 500 words within 3 hours. 500 words of bullshit, that is. whoo. and the best thing! didnt even bother proofreading my stupid essay. i hate als101 ttm. there's still the friggin research paper. totally gonna die for that. but till then, i'll continue with wtv im doing now, taking things one step at a time. (which also means screwing school and just playing)
and a reward for bullshitting 1199words was dessert dessert and more yummy desserts adding 1kg to me! hhaha nice. but it was really quite awesome.

guitar-ing with daddy was like omg funfunfun. havent done that since i started picking up guitar from him in sec4. did some recordings. which was quite funny coz there were some screw ups. but oh wtv as long as its funnn! :D

i really really really hate to be reminded of that coz it really sucks to know im just a number 2. no matter what you say or how much u tell me it aint true or how much u try to make me forget, the fact still remains that im just another one. not the first. i do try to ignore and push it aside everytime the reminder alarm goes off. seriously. and i do just fine actually. until like today, something was said. and then i couldnt look at you again and had to turn away for awhile coz it hurt so bad. im sorry. i really tried to be fine. or tried to act like i was. and im sorry for not knowing how to articulate my feelings well enough. but even if i did, there isnt anything that you could or do. its a decision i have to make and stick with.

daddy says love never lasts. what is left when love is gone is the commitment.
i have a feeling he is right.
and that sucks leh. how love doesnt actually last.
so mama and kongkong are living tgt just to take care of each other. huh.. ): no likey..

supposed to be doing work now but as usual, me is too lazy to. hehs.
funny isnt it, that when you're the most busy, you just wanna find time to do redundant stuff such as blogging. yours truly is a good example of one such person(:
dont even know what im doing here.

but im happy today and i wanna say it. hahaha.
thank God for the rain. hmm. rather ironic if i think about it. haha. its a thank you and im sorry. hmm. i dunno! but im happy anyhowsssss.

oh oh. my tennis shoes are finally wearing out! it lasted me a year and its still good actually.
so, the next time i go queensway this is what im gonna buy/do.
1. buy tennis shoes
2. buy ugly court shoes. ugh. gonna be needing it alot.
3. buy squash racket
4. buy badminton racket
5. buy tennis racket
6. go across to ikea for the heck of it and maybe eat some meatballs.

tennis match tmr. high chance we'll win the unfinished game tmr and so move on to quarter finals which is also tmr. meaning no time to do essay. whee. and fri is submission date.
not worrying actually coz i think i'll just crap. doesnt matter luh. als sucks to the core. -.-

i like the good mix of atypical and typical. HEHS. ;)

its vday like finally!!! everyone is like oh so hyped up and happily going out for vday dinner all.
but well, i'm right here, stuck in hall, all alone, facing my lappie, trying to come up with words to fill up my als101 essay due in 4 days. so far, I've written... my name, my matric number, tutorial group. yay me. *london tipton style!*
so, the closest thing to a vday celebration for me was lunch at my hall canteen with mm. thank goodness i'm not really concerned about vday. i guess its good enough i got to spend time with the people i love.
so yeah. thats how my vday went. hope other ppl are having wayyy better vday than I am. Happy Vday! <3 okies back to work. ):

and thanks for the song you sang to me ;

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams i couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

La da da
Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Coz all i need
Is you, my valentine

You're all i need
My love, my valentine


if you do rmb my blog add and come here, just wanna tell you.. there are certain things i would rather not let you know coz i feel its redundant and i do not want to force you into doing smth you do not want. you say you wanna change, but maybe i actually prefer how you were and change yes, but not to this extreme. ): oh wells. it now looks as though you're totally uninterested in stuff and its hurting me. im a girl afterall, rmb?