there really IS a difference.
and im disgusted by it.
why. its just so damn important to respect one another and treat one another like family there but it just doesnt feel that way here. i was used to it. until i went over there.

i cant wait for tue evening. fri morning. and sat to sun kelong. suntan! and away from home.
hahah.
and omg. tmr going hiking at macr with tiff. so cool! never really walked walked like leisurely at macr before. wheeee! so exciting! haha.

tue will be here before you know it :D

and! i wanna read angels and demons again. and i haveee to watch the movie. haha. trailer looks so exciting. and i still rmb parts of the book i read in sec 3. yeah. its that nice. woots.

now the head chef calls me lisa. no thanks to my dear supervisor hahhaha.
from clarissa to melissa and finally to lisa. please, call me anything you like. pick one as you please: clar, huimin, clarissa, lisa. arghh.
just got back from kha not too long ago. reached home ard 12plus. waited 25min for 93. zzz.
today was really fun. like before work started started, we celebrated some person's bdae. super cool. they played the happybdae song in the whole restaurant and we all started dancing and the bdae boy got cake on his face hahahha! the environment there is just.. really friendly. and can be too friendly at times. scares me sometimes and the other women just laugh and say that im still young and should get used to all the stuff im seeing haha. but other than that, its like family there lah. like what the chef told me.. just make this place like your home like that. we all are your family. ahaha. the girls there are very huggy and hold-handy. but yeah. its nice. and somehow i know that i will learn alotalot working here. its so much more than just carrying plates ard. its the mannerism and littlelittle stuff i still dont think customers really care abt like 'ladies first' and 'only one person serves at a time' thing. but good experience i guess. cant wait to learn so much more.

okies. its late. should sleep early. busy tmr! fingers crossed!!!

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just wish time would pass faster. for now.
its really boring and torturous staying at home.
but thank goodness i now have kha.
omg. its sooo scary. like... too proper and high class scary. haha. fasterrrr! get used to it!!
left my black shoes at sushi's locker. so i had to borrow shoes from another girl. now my toes are hurting. gahh.
dont feel sleepy ): and i've just finished playing some hp game(not hp for handphone but hp hp) i dl-ed. wl.. turned out the guy cheated on the girl with her best friend! how come hp got such games??! hahaha. i thought they were all like kiddy games. and there were stuff about finding a bra in the car (??!!!!) like.. wth!! but yeah this one was not bad. the puzzles could be quite thinky at times. but! i still prefer nancy drew games. more challenging and more decent.

sorry for being all over the place. my brains are not working very well right now at 3plus in the morning. just abit messy. bear with me. oops.

oh oh. was hardworking ytd(oh. ytdytd) and decided to run to nus to accompany da. with my swimming stuff and storybook. but! i found out running with a bag without the tight buckly thing at the boobs is super irritating and difficult to run. ended up walking there. was in a super bad mood coz of stuff at home. i couldnt even pray. not without getting all worked up again. so my mind was blank. like.. blank. most of the way. the walk wasnt long.. i timed it.. about an hour.. felt neverending. the last time i walkedwalked was last year? or was it lastlast year. forgot. but i know it was after macr trng and i needed to sort myself out. and was too embarassed to take a bus coz i was crying? i dunno. just know i walked to mama house. shrugs.
anw! after walking under the hot sun at ard 1plus, i reached nus ard 2pm. then da accompanied me to the pool and i swam for an hour! haaha. trying to get a tan. wl. one hour felt longer than normal trng duration of 2hours lah. coz the ppl who were swimming were all doing relac swim. so trying to do a prog would attract attention man. i dont want. so i just relacrelac-ed also and in the end, today still kena whole body ache. tada! proof of my lack of exercise. thank you thank you! :D

i STILL dont feel sleepy.
ARGH.
nvm shall write a list of things i need to do tmr then.
1) go sushi get shoes.
2) look for rubberbands
3) arrange stuff for sat.
4) find hairband!
5) whatever else that needs to be done


sigh. hurry hurry... im really bored.. but more lonely..

what fun! hahaha.
queueing up with tiff and drey for free ice cream was awesome!
went round 3 times. woots.
yummy (:
sadly drey had to leave earlier for tuition. so tiff and i walked around the area somemore and finally stopped at donut fac to slack and chitchat. yes. me ate alotalot sinful food today. gahhh. talked about anything under the sun for like 2hours without realising drey was alr back home from tuition. wanted to go grab more icecream with drey again, but by the time we got there they had alr stopped the queue ): so yeah tiff and i went back while drey went to burn all the fats accumulated today haha.

TIFF!! LETS GO SWIMMING TMR PRETTY PRETTY PLEASEEEEE!
(before i feel lazy again.)

bus ride was funny hahaha.
background info: the 3 of us went to watch shopaholic tgt some time ago.

clar: ohhh. i've watch shopaholic before! not bad leh.
tiff: oh yeah!! me too!
*both realises*
clar and tiff: omg. ZZZZZZZZ
clar: if audrey was here ah...
tiff: yeah! oh man! she'll just be like.. me too!!!

thats why we're friends. :D

WHOOOO. no work rawks! and roaming around without plans is wayyyy awesome. thats the life mann. should try that some time.

oh man! and i sooo cant wait for kelong trip with the bananas and tiff mum! hahaha. B1-B4. wahaha. B4 has been out of the pic for a looonngg time. wheeee! cant wait cant waittt!
1-3may yayyy!

wow. today was awesome(:
hahaha.
gave da a birthday treat at suki sushi. buffet again! oh man! food there was alrrriigghhttt i guess. better than edible i'd say.
they had uni sushi on the buffet menu. uni sushi which costs 12bucks for 2 pcs at ST. unfortunately, it was out of stock today but i think its just permanently out of stock.

went mama house to sleep awhile coz we were so full and sleepy after eating so much. joel was sleeping when we went over, and was still sleeping after we left. haha. havent seen the 3boys since i moved back. jireh's getting smarter haha.

kongkong and mama are getting hip mannn. getting coolio specs, buying coolio phone. like... LG touch screen thingo and some qwerty nokia phone. haha. then dont know how to use. SO! kongkong gave the qwerty phone to me! and now, me owns a RED nokia E65. WOOOTS. but heeeheee. im not sure how to work the phone very much yet. but i'll figure out. try it out for a week or so. see how attached i get to it before deciding whether or not i should return it to kongkong to sell it off. AND ANYWAY. my SE phone is better hmph. my 3.2MP cybershot phone owns it bigtime. please lah. the cam is like the most impt function of the phone mann. you get lost still can take photo of the place and mms to whoever to ask for directions. aiyah. dont need GPS one lah. and cam can take photo of me :D wheee! so 2MP isnt good enough. hahahaha.

oh oh! and i'll be busy on the 25th too! yayyy. happily. but keeping my fingers crossed man.

okies. gonna watch movie and then sleep! cyaaaa

i cant i cant i cant waiiiitttttttt for later!
i hope everything goes well.
im sorry it isnt much of a surprise but there isnt much choice due to limited time. oh well, we'll just have to make do with what we have now yeah?
cant wait cant wait! hahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY :D

ohhh went to kha today. greaaatt. at least now i can afford salssm for an hour of my work. hahaha.
yay. this rawks. just that scheduling will be much harder. but so much more fun(less boring).

baked red velvet cake today. turned out alright. it looks so much better now with decorations and frosting. yay. hope da likes it. hahaha. i'll see if its camera-worthy tmr. oh i do hope so!

just watched legally blondeS. it like new haha. errrr................... its worth watching online. and only online. was just way bored and i couldnt find bleach ep66! so i gave up and watched this instead. loading hannah montana now. not hoping it'd better.

is this it, God? is this?
Your plan? Your purpose?
i dont know. what else to say. what else to ask.
i'll just go. and see. if thats what You want.
just please. dont disappoint me. again.

i'll be busy on the 20th then.
sigh.

everything just isnt going the way you wish it would, is it, clar?

but wth, i still have to smile(or at least try to).
and act. like i'm just fine.
fun.

been too lazy to update.
haha. even now actually. so this post's gonna be short.
going out to tp to cut my sucky hair now.
started watching greys anatomy. but maybe i'll switch to prison breakkk!
but am now too lazy(again) to watch thinking shows. haha.
cant wait for thu. and fri haha. off days! wahaha.

bye! going off.

yay! *prances around* i found it i found it! and its not my medicine!
been searching for more than 2hrs. and yayyyy! i finally found it.
wheee!

prolly be going out for dinner with shai and cq. we're not sure yet. i suggested sushi tei haha. but its friggin ex. maybe... thai express? dont even know what i'd like to eat. dont exactly appreciate thai food. we'll see how. hopefully an idea pops up in somebody's head. somehow. haha. i just dont wanna stay at home alone. its super boring. cant stand it. same goes for shai.

sms...
shai: I totally dont mind, anything to get out of the house...

ooohh! and da's gonna sit for his exam in like 2hrs time. all the best!! hhaha. :D

while waiting for cq to get out, i'll continue watching heroes. goodiess!

omg. its almost afternoon and i cant find my medicine.
it says to take one tablet in the morning.
but i reallyyy cant find it and i can safely say it will not surface from the amazon table the 5 of us are sharing anytime soon. putting something on that table is like saying "hide it! dont ever let me see it again!!"
ok lah. i dont care alr gonna give up finding it and i'll just continue watching heroes. bleah.

i want to go running now! but the inertia to get up from my seat is too great and the attractive forces of heroes doesnt help very much either. arrrggghhhh. ):
im eating junk for breakfast and lunch, and sushi for dinner. plus, i sit at my com the whole day
spamming heroes episodes just to catch up. and i still have bleach. just sitting there.. losing muscle mass and gaining fats. awesome.. at this rate, i may not get back my legs. ): i do i do so want them back.. sigghhh.

woots!
im way wayyyy happy. da just dropped by without even telling me! i love surprises hee(:

phonecall....
da: hello! i missed the bus.
clar: hello! huh? what bus??
da: the bus to my car.
clar: then where are you now? at home ah?
da: im outside your house now so you better open the door and give me a hug.

HAHAHAH.
you rawkk (:

i happened to make the peanutbutterchoc thing today and it tastes like peanutbutter cups! anw i gave half of them to da and he's gonna bring it to sch! omg. haha. its like super thick can. half a piece was too much for me alr. haha. yay and he can get fatTER :D

i now have to find another cake to bake. haha. but im happy to do it (:
wheeeee.

ok back to heroes!
im still super happyyyy! :D :D :D

there are ridiculous people in the world. and i met one of them ytd.
that was fun.
like so ridiculous it became funny.
and ridiculous people do not deserve my respect. call me rude. wtv. you're just retardiculous.

oh wait there's actually another one in my house now. zzz.
cant stand her.

i thought i planned my timetable well this week.
but the real 'fun' part comes when you realise YOU SHOULD HAVE JUST WORKED ON THAT DAY. coz its no use getting an off day and you could have use that day to earn more money.
but shrugs. i enjoyed myself this afternoon watching heroes though i dont think my off day today was very well spent. and its back to work tmr.
hope i dont bump into other ridiculous people.
another wasted offday will be on thu again. maybe i should go swimming?

okies.
heroes has loaded, babeeehh. yayy!

dinner and movie was fun!
randomly watched 'bridge to terabithia' at da's house. and dinner was yummyy! (:
well. today was awesome. and im happy!

tmr, mon, tue, wed is definitely no-no... thu is a possibilty. fri, sat maybe not. but i realllyy want da time.
and sorry ST. nextnext fri is totallytotally impossible. well, for me lah... but i'll see what happens..

OH goodness. i've to wake up extra early tmr for church. now i need to check the busguide!
okieokie. better get going.
ciaos.

i'll be just fine.

being bored at home.

wheee. (:
sakae buffet was funnn. its like picking coloured plates without even caring bout how much it costs! but i think i would have preferred tp sakae better.

ah. i suddenly dont have the mood to blog now.
even though today was fun.
blah..

oh no. i think im being quite crude and very unlady-like in my blog. and i know sushitei ppl reads my blog. *AHEM*
you betterrrr not tell other ppl lor. otherwise im deaddd. hahaha. and SOME PEOPLE actually stumbled upon my blog while browsing the internet. HMMM. such a coincidence huh.
this week im so gonna plan my timetable properly. and leave some time for training and da. hahha.
and omg. i cant stand the grouchy old lady in the kitchen HAHAHA. but wtv, i forgive her. coz she's old. lala. old ppl syndrome, i call it. ah wells.

im so going for buffet tmr. i donch care. ehhh i mean.. today. its like.. you're staring and staring at food the whole day, and the closest you get to touch food during working time is when you clear the half eaten food. how appetizing. so i shall try to be a real customer on purpose and irritate the hell out of the waitresses. muahahah. heh. its just a way of relieving all the irritated-ness i've been feeling with the customers the past week. finallyyyy. ahhh...

i need clothes. my wardrobe's emptying. and i cant find proper going out stuff to wear. sheesh. plus. i dont feel im being paid well enough. how can i still buy clothes? ooohhh the land of glory machines, you still rawk best!

you just dont know how i feel.
just try putting yourself in my shoes.
then you'll know the feeling of being let down. the feeling of being sad for nothing.
what a waste of emotions when i could have used that energy being sad to be high-ER with tiff and drey.
wth la. everything is screwed up.
even the stupid sushi tei management. YES. if any sushi tei ppl are reading my blog right now, i really dont care. The rigidity of the time tabling sucks. Yes, its flexible in that you give me the freedom to write down my own schedule of the days and times im free. i say thisthisthisthis day. you ask me if its whole day. i say yes. BUT NO! you give me a damn 4 hr or 5hr shift work. and its during dinner. wow. thank you so much. AND. have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe something might crop up during the week which was not foreseen on a damn THURSDAY the previous week?! or maybe plans shifted, got pushed forward and somehow i can work two shifts or wtv. so the thing is... i cant change shift (fine.), i cant NOT go to work (thats really fine too), and I CANT WORK MORE?
hey there. SCREW YOU. the management is seriously getting on my nerves.
furthermore, the pay is peanuts compared to the ridiculous price of the food there. one hour of my work is not even enough to buy me a salmon sashimi. just 5 pieces. nope. one hour cant pay for it. well done me.

sorry. im just in a really foul mood right now. coz my day was basically just screwed up, if not for the fact that i went out for a movie with tiff and drey and had a really nice time with them, it would have been worse. coz i'll just be wasting my time at home.

ok. goodbye to you, screwed up tuesday. screw you.

i've not changed out yet coz i rushed to my com immediately after i came back. but WHATEVER MAN. happy april fool's to me. *clapclap*