i will try. promise.

ARGH. gave up trying to fall asleep. lucky me. the com was already on. heh heh.
darn. my mind kept wandering as i was praying.
so i gave up on that too.
and im hungry... ): NOT greedy. thank you very much.
you'd be hungry too if you only had a pau for dinner! haha.
and why is this song stuck in my head?!

童話
光良

忘了有多久　
再沒聽到你　
對我說你最愛的故事
我想了很久　
我開始慌了　
是不是我又做錯了甚麼

你哭著對我說　
童話裡都是騙人的　
我不可能是你的王子　
也許你不會懂　
從你說愛我以後　
我的天空星星都亮了

我願變成童話裡　
你愛的那個天使　
張開雙手變成翅膀守護你　
你要相信　
相信我們會像童話故事裡　
幸福和快樂是結局

我要變成童話裡　
你愛的那個天使　
張開雙手變成翅膀守護你
你要相信　
相信我們會像童話故事裡　
幸福和快樂是結局

我會變成童話裡　
你愛的那個天使　
張開雙手變成翅膀守護你
你要相信　
相信我們會像童話故事裡　
幸福和快樂是結局　
一起寫我們的結局

heh. good luck trying to read the funny chinese. i cant. gave up again. haha. ok lah. i'll be nice and play the song here. but once i come back from camp, i'll take it out! haha. aiyah... i'd rather have another song here....this is so cheena.... hmm...ah nvm. that song's emo-er. fine.

"Love is when you shed a tear(er..many) and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry" ahhh omg. so emo.
and YEOWEIHAO is not allowed to laugh again!! hmph.

AH! found a super super nice songgg!! heh. this was the song Pat sent me when i was damn sad after i couldnt complete a race in Thailand. i will go back there and try again. i dont care!

Learn to Fly
Shannon Noll

When you feel the dream is over
Feel the world is on your shoulders
and you've lost the strength to carry on
Even though the walls may crumble
And you find you always stumble through
Remember never to surrender to the dark
Cos if you turn another page
You will see that's not the way
The story has to end.
[CHORUS:]

If you need to find a way back
Feel you're on the wrong track
Give it time
Learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
You will find you're own way
You'll be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you'll learn to fly

In your head so many questions
The truth is your possession
The answer lies within your heart
You will see the doors are open
If you only dare to hope and you
Will find the way to fight
the fears that kept you down
Cos if you turn another page
You will see that's not the way
The story has to end
[CHORUS]

Looking at your situation
There's so much that you can do
Now's the time to make your stand
This is just an observation
In the end it's up to you
The future's in your hands
CHORUS.

waiting. can i do it?

is it possible?
is it that strong enough to be able to wait?
she reaally wants to.
is she strong enough to carry on like this?
she doesnt know what will happen in the future.
she's right.
it wasn't a promise.
but she still wants to wait.
for how long? she doesnt know.
she trusts him.
but it wasnt a promise.
so she's left dangling.
not knowing what to do.
but now she has "signed" a contract with her.
and is crossing her fingers.
hoping that she wont kill her in the future.
and that she wouldnt have to spend $9.50 on her movie.
hoping this works.
but still, it wasnt a promise between him and her.
she'll try anyways.
yes she will.


going camp in like 6 hours. hahaha. nites ppl.
and BENYEO, STOP LAUGHING. later i change my password then you know ah. hmph.
hahaha!
and special thanks to my dear friend. thanks for always being there and helping me. i know i can tell you anything and trust that you'll keep it a secret. im really touched. going to cry already lah. haha. THANKS. :D

ps. that jacket will keep me warm. (: (coz its BIG.)

in code

siao liao lah... ahhaaha. oh man! im damn blur! i came down the bus and found myself right under my block. DOTS. i was like, "EH?!" and just stood there thinking. im very sure i didnt cross the overhead bridge!!!! then how did i end up right under my block??? heh. teleport. HEH.
anw, yesterday was waay coolios. 11 to 12. im now ouching away. but nevermind. was good. lovin the pain. went maria's house to bake again! some white chocolate thingo. was it cookies? hee. ah, it was still damn nice anywaes. yummeh. YES. maria is so pro at mixing stuff lah. heeheehee. and i was just poking at the stuff and moving the funny stuff inside all around. hahahah!
OH. audrey couldnt wait to watch pirates. and as you already know, im so nice. XP so we went to watch it after i baked at maria's house. heh. but! tickets at j8 were sold out. went to PS instead. OUCH OUCH OUCH. $9.50. wallet's crying. awww... cuaght the 10pm show. sat at row A. ROW A. omg. ROW A!!! ITS THE FREAKIN FIRST ROW. ouch. neck hurts. hahahha. but it was damn exciting anw. show ended at 1.05AM. good thing audrey's parents gave me a lift home. reached home 1.30am. bleah. contact lenses on for 19 hours. whoo. record. btw. i still wanna watch it again! :D
pw today! used our $50 voucher at coffeebean! 5 drinks. 5 cake slices. couldnt finish them. packed them back. hahaha. ben yeo says it isnt food. who cares lah. hahhaah! at least i finally get to EAT and not sniff them like how drey and i sniff bread at breadtalk and sniff pastry at han's. HAHAHA. (bet she's laughing like mad now) watched some sick movie at shai's house for our project. eh. this is NOT an excuse hor, excuse me. it was UGGHH. i'll never ever watch it again. eww. was covering my eyes for some scenes. BTW. there was NO nudity. so lac lah.

WL. i wanna kill benyeo!!! draw on my hand with marker still not enough. make me cry then the ink from my hand kena my face, still laugh. hahahahh! aiyah nvm! at least he felt damn bad after that. HAHA. eh! dont disturb me like that lah! TOOT. hahahahah!! played cluedo after we were done. so fun! i was this close to winning. aww. hahah. coz i missed you. and also coz he was lying bout knowing what happened.
to those who are sure to do damn well in gp compre coz they've ''GOOD'' inference skills : !@#$%^&*(!@#$%^&*(#^&^! yes. !@#$%^&*(!@#$%^&*(#^&^! you understand? STOP TRYING TO INFER. COZ ITS NOT TRUE. *&%#%^**^%$#^&^&$##!
thank God and MARIA for password prompts. its great and im lovin it! this is gonna be so great. IF! IF! no one tells that SOMEONE my password. coz if %^&$&% knows, THE WOLE WORLD will know and the password prompt becomes useless. that %&#^!*&#( . ihymmmmmmmmm!

i miss you many many.


can't stop running huh.

bye.

Crying in the rain
A-ha

I'll never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride and I know how to hide
All my sorrow and pain
I'll do my crying in the rain

If I wait for stormy skies
You won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you so
Though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the rain

Raindrops falling from heaven
Could never take away my misery
But since we're not together
I pray for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you'll never see

Some day when my cryin's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool
But till then, darling, you'll, never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain

I'll do my crying in the rain x3



I'm Not Missing You
Stacy Orrico

Oh, Oh
Im not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Dont know what I was missing or why I aint listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus]
(But) Im not missing you
Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
Im not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I dont even feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus x2]

No I cant be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I cant keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone elses life

[Chorus]

Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you
(yeah right)

where?

finally. after many days of thinking, i finally know what i want.
this happened too many times.
i have my limits.
waste of time and energy.
i think it would be much better to just stop here.
then everyone would be happier.
and i think ive said this for the millionth time.
i have no idea whats going on!
i dont know how to help.
i dont know what to do.
and i dont know what will happen.
THIS has never happened to me before.
God, help me! I need You.



YES. TWO DAYS STRAIGHT. i randomly flipped open my bible while doing work. and yesterday, i was just looking through it after reading. flip, flip, flip. there it was again. i was like omgoodness.


"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4


hmm..gotta pray bout this.



when it stops, its when you realise nothing actually happens anymore.

smile and take it like a woMAN :D

210507Sun
coz there's nothing you can do about this, clar! hur. so just SMILE, even though you are so broken inside.

ps. its not coz i cant be bothered or anything, its just that THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO. NOTHING. whoo. isnt this just so much fun.


today's race was quite funny. i actually thought i lost count! coz i couldnt see any women anywhere on the bike!! i sort of "gave up" and was actually looking for a place to stop. hahahaha. ok. not funny. i continued anw, and guess what! " THERE!! ARGH! so many women!! you didnt lose count lah!!" darn. hahhaah! still not funny.

it was so boring on the bike, i came up with something!! hahahhaha!

ZIPP-Ah-Dee-Doo-Dah
ZIPP-Ah-Dee-Ay
Wonderful feeling,
wonderful day
ZIPP-Ah-Dee-Doo-Dah
ZIPP-Ah-Dee-Ay
My oh my what a "wonderful" day
Plenty of sunshine headed our way
and blah blah blah.

arghh. the last 5k run was the worst-est. but really funny! hahahah! my quads cramped. yeah. both at the same time. hahahah!!! THEN THEN! when i tried to stretch them, my hamstring cramped! like ARGHHH!!! hahahahah!!!! omg so funny! still got still got!! cramp gone, continue running, THEN right quad cramp. stretch already, run. THEN left quad. argh. so this happened a few times. SOOO FUNNYY!! even funnier coz there were other ppl limping EXACTLY like me! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!! oops. :P
the weather was super super hot! ive gotten tanner! whee! hahaha. AH. oh yes. when i bathed, i was screaming.. "P.I.P! P.I.P!" mamamia.
Simran and sharan were the marshalls! passed them like EIGHT times. hahha. yuen hung was at the finish point! hahaha! and ms lim raced too! our bikes were beside each other. so coolios! hahaha!


argh k. gtg now! hahahahaha!
and someone's talking like me! HAAHHAHAHAH! lousy. XP



(: smile.

dont ever want

TGIF! TGIF!! TGIF!!!

prison break was sooooo whoooo!!! made me forget bout stuff. still good, even though it was only for an hour. hahaha. sooo exciting! AHHH!!

see this. so sweet right! HAHAHAH!

I Love You
I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You



that magical feeling;
when our eyes met/
our love, I want it all to stand still, to stay.
You mean more to me than words can say.

dumb and still getting dumber

170507 Thu
feeling dumbb... i just couldnt get it.
you make it seem SOOO easy. you were explaining like it was ''just like that'' and there i was trying so hard to absorb what you were saying.
and i THINK i got it. THINK.
i dont know what you were thinking then. probably," its so simple! why cant she just get it?!"
sorry. i know you were really trying to explain to me. i was really trying to understand. really.
sometimes, i just feel like giving up altogether. right now, the only thing that keeps me going is the thought of them saying," i told you so, LOSER."
i just want to cry. cry till there's no more tears left to cry. cry till my eyes become red and swollen. cry till ive no more energy left to cry one second longer.
no. i wont cry. i cant. cant let them see how im dying in here. cant cant cant.
i almost cried just now. felt so stupid. why cant i understand it?! bet you thought i yawned or something. haha. or maybe you didnt even notice.
seriously, if anymore information tries to squeeze into my already crammed brain, I'LL JUST DIE. promise.
i laugh. i smile. i skip around. but inside... no one knows what im really feeling. im trying really hard to hide it all inside. i may explode one day. just dont know how soon that day will arrive.... lets all wait and see....


there's no secrets today;
dont look. :P
i told you dont look already right! haha.
okok. ilu. (:

pw

pw now. and blogging. hahaha. chionging gp essay. i want to give up alreadyyy!! argh! ben yeo is like beside me now, playing some stupid train game on the com. bleah. okok. i need to finish up pw and gp now. cya.



zi dong yi dian leh.

sorry

140507 Mon
exactly how im feeling now. this song says it all.
'dad' can be changed to 'mum' too.

Perfect
Simple Plan

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

TMR!
*GP essay test
*Econs lect test
*chem quiz


chocolate and honeycombs are <3333;
and so are youu (:

NOOB

130507 Sun
darn. feeling noob-ish right now. hahaha.
anw, after today's cycling training, i can only say three words. P.I.P (;
Pat and I made this up while we were in China training, where we would cycle on trainers for a loooong time, 2 or 3 times a week. hahaha. we couldnt go on the road after the super funny "accident" hahahhahah!! stupid rock. argh. shoots. :P after every cycling training, we I(most of the time its me, so yeah. its 'I'.) would be jumping around screaming," P.I.P! P.I.P! ouch ouch ouchhh!!!" and regret drinking too much water after training. hahahahah!! go figure whats P.I.P. heh! and i miss chinaaa...
for the first time in 12 weeks. i appeared at cycling training. i felt sooo newcomer-ish. dang... ): just wanted to get home as soon as possible. where have all the happy times gone? ))):
5rounds-> 65. CANT SEE MY SPEED, CANT SEE MY DISTANCE. it was killing. i need another speedometer!!!
couldnt go to church today. training ended at 10 plus. would have been late. ): i just wanted to spend more time with Him. without any distractions. and see? im like here now. argh!

yesterday was funn! haahah! went with audrey to do CIP at orchard. yay! sold 20 post-its at $5 each in less that 1h30mins! then went to buy flowers for maria. played piano at her house. hahah funny "modelling" session in front of her mirror. finally picked the green halter. my head to toe belonged to audrey. hahaha! and it was really head to toe. except one. :D thanks drey!
dance night! hahahah! maria is ultimate pro-ness. hahahaha! she was really really really good!!! the chinese dancers were so pro lah! hahaha. their first dance was a HAIR-RAISING experience. HAHAHAHAH!!!! XD

i so wish i could just fly away to neverland and never never come back. that would be great, wouldnt it?


action speaks louder than words;
wish you'd show it.

wasting time

110507 Fri
hey ppl. im wasting time here.
im not coming back. ):

I am in the computer lab now
I miss you!
YAY
YAY

posted by clarissa <- BEN YEO DID THIS. <---- Clarissa did this <- and BEN YEO does it again.

dots.... kay he's gone now. hahahah! toot lah he.
well anw, our pw teacher didn't come today so we're like in the com lab now. yeah. WASTING TIME.
havent been studying properly these few days. hahah. nothing gets in!!
lately, i've been spending less time with a special friend and spending more time with my friend(s). ive been neglecting my everyday convos with Him, pushing Him to the last, thinking it can wait till the end of the day. sadly, before I can even talk to Him, i wake up realising its already the next morning and that ive been through a whole day without Him even appearing once in thoughts.
Sometimes I feel lost and I dont know why. I've been feeling empty inside since the day after cross nats. I guess I was subconciously angry with Him. I've tried filling this hole by listening to songs, spending more time with a friend(: , studying, running, cycling.. but nothing worked. It was only after i read maria's blog that i realised i have definitely not been spending enough time with Him and was not letting Him take first place in my life.
My mind's still a tangled-up mess and I dont know what im going to do now, what im supposed to do and how im going to solve this problem. I need You. Im so sorry for neglecting You and not placing You first in my life. I need You in my life. I cant live without You. Please help me, Daddy. Please.




I need You and you.
I love You and you.

HIHI

HI!
ITS GP NOW!
IM IN THE COM LAB!
WHEEEE! :D
im bored. shh.


maria and I should change families for a day. maybe then we wont complain so much. hahahahaha!


*stop stealing my heart!
` give me your heart.
*you're tearing my heart into a million pieces!
`your heart belongs to me.
*you're breaking my heart!
`i stole your heart
*okay i give you my heart. you can have it.
NEW> *you've captured my heart.

SUPER FUNNY CONVO. HAHAHA!




i meant it.
fyi.

boo! (: im scary! rawr!

wahaha! just came back from cyclinggg! stupidometer was spoiled again! darn... anw, didnt cycle to sec sch today. too dangerous. so cycled the 'pat loop'. i call it the 'pat loop' coz pat and i used to cycle this loop during public hols, and she was the one who brought me round this loop. one loop is around 12km.. so i cycled 3 loops which makes it around 36km. argh.. so little.. the slopes were killers. erh.. actually.. they're not killers. i just died. gah.

i dont know what to do now. i want to train, but here you are telling me that sending me for my cycling training affects your work which ultimately affects our income. i wanted to wake you up this morning, but decided not to upon seeing how soundly you slept. i just stood outside your room deiciding whether or not i should wake you up. well, i didnt. are you happy now? so if i dont wake you up to send me to cycling trainings, and cycle on my own instead, does that mean you'll earn more?? whatever.

siaaooo.. was cycling so quietly and suddenly i heard a noise behind me. i turned and saw some guy cycling behind me. I was like," AHHH!" hahah! i think he thought i was crazy. oops. im just very jumpy on my bike okay!dont creep up from behind like that! sneaky fella. hahaha. okok. i admit coming from behind and shouting," good morning!" at random cyclists, giving them a shock too. hahah damn funny. Eh! but they are big men okay. im just hmm.. fine.. a short girl. HAHAH!
kays going to church now. byebye.

OH. That hamsters says i bought my bike from toy'r'us (dont know how to spell lah), and that its a tricycle coz then it would be just right for me. darn.

hamster dies on monday.

pwned. (by a hamster) O.o

ARGH! im being pwned by a freakin hamster! NOOOO!!!! he's owning me like anything! we're counting scores. its like 6-2 now. bleah.

height
clar(: life's little twists; fun, aren't they? says:
you very tall mehhh!
leaving game says:
:D
leaving game says:
no
leaving game says:
just that you very short

height
leaving game says:
i wonder how you do titration...
leaving game says:
how do you actually see the burette marking at eye level?

shooting game
clar(: life's little twists; fun, aren't they? says:
no! i want shoot YOU!
clar(: life's little twists; fun, aren't they? says:
HAHAHAHA!
leaving game says:
but you can only hit the leg
leaving game says:
:P

CS
clar(: life's little twists; fun, aren't they? says:
cs still the best
leaving game says:
yessss
clar(: life's little twists; fun, aren't they? says:
hahaha!!!
leaving game says:
i bet i can knife you ahahaa
clar(: life's little twists; fun, aren't they? says:
I WANT PLAYYYY!!!
leaving game says:
no wait
clar(: life's little twists; fun, aren't they? says:
OI!
leaving game says:
cant reach.
leaving game says:
must crouch to knife

leaving game says:
eh not fair lehh.
clar(: life's little twists; fun, aren't they? says:
WOT
leaving game says:
so little area to shoot at.
leaving game says:
sure miss..

emo
leaving game says:
i know why you don't get emo often..
leaving game says:
you don't get emo often cos when ppl pass on their emo it just flies over your head
leaving game says:
haha im smilingg now


i dont want talk to that hamster already lah! the more i talk the more i kena owned. BYE.

*NEW*
clar(: life's little twists; fun, aren't they? says:
im sooooo nice! WHOO
leaving game says:
but short.
leaving game says:
hahahahahahahahaaa

SEE!! ARGH!




give up;
leaving it all to God

finalleh

050507Sat
oh yeahhhh! haha! its 7.46am now. ive cycled to my sec school and back, bathed, ate breakfast and now im here! haha! everyone's still asleep.
whoo! feels so good to be able to cycle again! YAY! i cycled alone alone. ok. not really alone alone. but still alone. hahhaha! rawr! stupid speedometer! suddenly restarted! now i dont know how much i cycled. gahh! kay anw, cycling alone is superr exciting! HAHAH! quite scary also.
I really thank God for watching over me and protecting me while I was on the road.
Oh yeah! our pw grp won the best team charter and for that, our teacher gave us a $50 coffee bean voucher! yay! meeting up tmr! whee! (:
oh. sry CQ for synching the ipod. HAHAHA! omg. sry! i cant help it! HAHAHAHAHAH!!! i thought it was supposed to be goooood!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH!!

cq to aug : omg! im damn pissed! but i just cant get angry with her. -points at me. she laugh already then you just cant get angry with her! argh!
clar: HAHAHAHAHAH! (it was really really super funny!)
raj: omgomg.
aug to cq: yeah! i dont know why! but she is damn hard to hate. you cant go "i hate you" to her. she'll just laugh and then you wont hate her already.
cq: ARGHH!!! fine! i give up. you can have the ipod! i dont really use it anw lah.

WHOO! hahahahaah!! pro-ness! hee! :P




actually..
im not ready too/

keep smiling! :D:D:D:D:D

040507Fri
gahhhh! screwed up chem spa. i have never, in any of my practs, ever forgot to comment on results!! no wonder i finished earlier than the rest of my classmates. was super blur that whole day (and yes ben, it was ONLY yesterday. thanks.) thursday 030507 was a bad, bad day. ): AND ALSO BEN'S BIRTHDAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAMMIE! (:
had so much on my mind during chem spa. thank God i could do my experiments properly. spillage, yes. but not as much as mock spa. HAHAHA! stupid burette clip!!
HAHA! someone screwed up chem spa too! and it is NOT my fault okay. BUT it was your fault i screwed up mine. toooot. XP. hmph.
ah. went to the track after studying.dang i so wanted to train. continued studying there after THE conversation. ok. this is the point where i wont say anything, coz i have NOTHING to say. nothing at all.
anyways, im glad i made it quite clear. its like a weight being lifted from my shoulders. phew.
OH! this is like.. ahh!! so cool!! hahaha. kay.. lets see. i turned on my mp3. this song played.

Say It Isn't So
Gareth Gates

Skies are dark it's time for rain
Final call you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five at least we tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneth the wheels
As I wish I never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Miles and miles to go before I can say,
Before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh, darling oh
I got miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again


HAHAHA. THEN! this song.

Came To My Rescue
Hillsong United

Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek Your face
Lord all I am is is Yours

My whole life I place in Your hands
God of mercy Humbled I bow down
In your presence at Your throne

I called, You answered
And You came to my rescue and I,
I wanna be where You are

In my life be lifted high
In our world be lifted high
In our love be lifted high


okok thenthen!

You carried me

Its only when I look back and trace the way
My crooked path was wandered
I see the footprints in the sand
And I realise you were there beside me
Every single day

chorus:
You carried me through all of my trials
You carried me when i was troubled and alone
When my strength had gone
couldnt get aong without you
You carried me,
So i wouldnt stumble
You carried me,
just when i needed someone there
Who would be a friend and I reached the end
Because He carried me

And now as i turn to face the narrow way
With shadows growing longer
I know my Savior's by my side
Always there for me and He'll care for me
when the enemy draws near (chorus)


then the best song.

that thing you do
the wonders

You, doing that thing you do
Breaking my heart into a million pieces
Like you always do
And you, don't mean to be cruel
You never even knew about the heartache
I've been going through

Well, I try and try to forget you girl
But it's just so hard to do
Every time you do that thing you do

I know all the games you play
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that
You'll be mine someday

'Cause we, could be happy, can't you see
If you only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me

'Cause I try and try to forget you girl
But it just so hard to do
Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl ( I don't ask a lot girl)
But I know one thing for sure (I know one thing for sure)
It's the love I haven't got girl and I just can't take it anymore

'Cause we, could be happy can't you see
If you only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me

'Cause it hurts me so just to see you go
Around with someone new
And if I know you you're doing that thing,
Every day just doin' that thing
I can't take you doing that thing you do



AHHHHH!!! SO FUNNY! OMG! only a few special ppl understand this post. hahahaha!!!
theres a storyyy... lalala...



life's twists ;
then there were two.

will not say anymore. dont ask.

020507Wed
im just thankful i didnt tell you anything today. SOOO THANKFUL. you wont know how thankful i am NOT to have said it. AHHH!!! SO SO THANKFUL! i wont say it anymore, so dont bother asking.
i seriously dont understand how you do it. you're damn good. seriously. like wow. im erh.. stunned actually. A<->B<->C. <-thats damn random. btw. im just bored. hur.
oh its nothing. nothing at all. i dont feel anything. haha. im lying. right now i just dont feel like talking to anyone. blocked a few people actually. STOP BUGGING ME LAH!
went to DG with tiff. started drawing funny pictures related to THAT on the tissue and we both started laughing quietly. hee! i can be artist already! hahaha! also can play pictionary! HAHAHA! or maybe my pictures weren't that hard to interpret. oops. haha!
after DG went out with tiff. stupid lah. we walked in and out of the shop FOUR times and they had to say 'welcome' and 'thank you for coming, please come again' four times. hahaha! bet they thought we're crazy. heehee!

mon: family dinner. didnt feel like eating at all. forced myself to eat stuff, so just picked at the fish. yongern made me eat crab by peeling them for me. k lah. thanks. hahah. took pics. anw, quite fun lah. but so tired..
tue: went maria's house to study. took a wrong bus all the way to sengkang. reached trng 45min late. coach was nice. hahaha. swam for 45mins. damn boring. and anw, i sooo wanted to take out my slipper and throw it at that $#@&^! argh! heh. 'recreational swimming eh?' hur. you'll see, you %^$#^*!

read this somewhere.
" Hope lacks a sense of certainty. Its more like a wish- something we want to happen but will have no way of knowing that it ultimately will. So we keep our fingers crossed and hope that everything will go the way we want it to. The reality is that often life doesnt turn out the way we want it to. Hope is a fragile commodity..... When we pin our hopes on Jesus, we will not be disappointed."
supposed to be very comforting. haha. but made me feel worse instead. coz THAT was rather disappointing. lol. i did pray about it. maybe.. its just not time yet? ARGH! you made me even more confused than i already am. THANKS arh.




pick one;
you'll just lose the other.

where's the bicyle light?!

010507 Tue
WHEE. GREAT. its like 6 plus in the morning. im all changed and ready to go. all i wanted to do was to feel the morning breeze through my hair, er, helmet (?) on my two-wheeled "car". and not having touched my "car" for like 9weeks, getting to finally take in out for a drive today was the one thing i was so looking forward to. no school, less cars, nice wind. perfect day for an early morning drive isnt it?
ok so anyways, here's what happened in that 10mins after i woke up.
-peered out of window. hmm NICE WEATHER. whoo!
- argh! no bicycle light! how to cycle?! ok dont care. i must go today. must must must!
- got changed.
- opened window wider. goodness. why so cold! and why the wind so strong?!
- big big battle in my head. (serious.)
- little voice in my head: you can still choose not to go. <- EVERY MOMENT.
- me( in my head): God, I know i dont have the bicycle light. You can still make it rain if you dont want me to go. Please just rain before i put my contact lenses on.
- stared out of the window for like 3mins. ok no rain. er. can go lah.
- put contact lenses on.
- stared out of window again. booom. and the rain came tumbling down.(the children's song. lol)
- stunned- ded. continue staring out of window for another 5 mins. (a damn loud thunder just gave me shock btw. ): )

so yeah. now im here. all changed, hair tied and wearing contact lenses. wheee. IT WAS THE SUPER PERFECT DAY TO CYCLEEEEE.... darn. kay i think im going back to sleep now. gotta remove contacts first. nites. oops. mornin'! :D

oh yeah! starting prayer and fast today. couldnt start yesterday coz of family dinner. lol. oh right. family dinner. will blog about it later . maybe. going maria's house in like 3 hours anw. lalala.




i wanna hold you so much,
you're just too good to be true