will not say anymore. dont ask.

020507Wed
im just thankful i didnt tell you anything today. SOOO THANKFUL. you wont know how thankful i am NOT to have said it. AHHH!!! SO SO THANKFUL! i wont say it anymore, so dont bother asking.
i seriously dont understand how you do it. you're damn good. seriously. like wow. im erh.. stunned actually. A<->B<->C. <-thats damn random. btw. im just bored. hur.
oh its nothing. nothing at all. i dont feel anything. haha. im lying. right now i just dont feel like talking to anyone. blocked a few people actually. STOP BUGGING ME LAH!
went to DG with tiff. started drawing funny pictures related to THAT on the tissue and we both started laughing quietly. hee! i can be artist already! hahaha! also can play pictionary! HAHAHA! or maybe my pictures weren't that hard to interpret. oops. haha!
after DG went out with tiff. stupid lah. we walked in and out of the shop FOUR times and they had to say 'welcome' and 'thank you for coming, please come again' four times. hahaha! bet they thought we're crazy. heehee!

mon: family dinner. didnt feel like eating at all. forced myself to eat stuff, so just picked at the fish. yongern made me eat crab by peeling them for me. k lah. thanks. hahah. took pics. anw, quite fun lah. but so tired..
tue: went maria's house to study. took a wrong bus all the way to sengkang. reached trng 45min late. coach was nice. hahaha. swam for 45mins. damn boring. and anw, i sooo wanted to take out my slipper and throw it at that $#@&^! argh! heh. 'recreational swimming eh?' hur. you'll see, you %^$#^*!

read this somewhere.
" Hope lacks a sense of certainty. Its more like a wish- something we want to happen but will have no way of knowing that it ultimately will. So we keep our fingers crossed and hope that everything will go the way we want it to. The reality is that often life doesnt turn out the way we want it to. Hope is a fragile commodity..... When we pin our hopes on Jesus, we will not be disappointed."
supposed to be very comforting. haha. but made me feel worse instead. coz THAT was rather disappointing. lol. i did pray about it. maybe.. its just not time yet? ARGH! you made me even more confused than i already am. THANKS arh.




pick one;
you'll just lose the other.