RAWRSSS. clarissa is hungry!
waiting for bubs to take me out for lunch.

had an hour-long super duper interesting phonecall with cc ytd.
it feels.. comforting to know.. someone really understands coz that person has been through the exact same situation as you and felt the exact same way and thought the exact same things and did the exact same research hahaah.
but the sucky feeling that we keep trying to push away.. the worrying.. its smth we never thought we'd feel. and the conversations are those we'd never ever thought we would have.


if my witness reads this: im sorry, ive torn it and thrown it away, coz it is meaningless to keep something which i couldnt keep.
you may have forgotten what we exchanged signatures and phone numbers for. im not sure if you are still keeping that card that we got in j1. but it used to mean so much to me and i was so darn sure i will never have to discard it. but now i have and im sorry.



if that's gonna be the punishment.. its soso much more than i can bear.