after all the worrying and all the nonsense that came with the worrying, im relieved and really glad to say that everything's fine now.
but yet it makes me wonder,
does God have to take all that trouble of making us worry so much, so that we will be needy and finally go to Him, begging for mercy? Why do all that just to get us back to His side? Why doesnt He just give up, leave us be, let us stray and die as sinners?
in the bible, matt 18: 12,14 reads, "..If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine and go to look for the one that wandered off?...In the same way, your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost."

I'm guilty for straying for the past few months. but He has successfully gotten me back to His side in His own way and it really feels so good to be back in His arms once again.

This episode, though considerably short, felt like a really long period of time. i believe its simply coz it happened during this exam period. Knowing how exam periods are like, feels like its never gonna end eh. So yes, i think i can say that i've been worrying for a reallllyyy long time! from all the worrying, my studies were inevitably affected, attention was constantly diverted back to the what-if scenario, and at night, sleep didnt come easy, and even if it did, it wouldnt be a peaceful one, leaving me still tired the next day. yet, by His grace and mercy, i've been able to study, thought not alot, but enough, just enough to allow me to answer all the questions rather alright today. once again, i know i should be studying for the next paper tmr, but i just want to announce to the world the goodness and faithfulness of God.

Through this, it not only brought bubs and i closer to God, it also brought the both of us closer to each other and from now on, we're gonna honour the pact that bubs made to God. bubs doesnt know but i actually prayed the same thing. hee. so yes. im really glad we are gonna honour the pact and im really excited to see what else God has in stored for us. Thank you bubs, for staying with me through this. loves.

anw 2 more to go. after tmr can party alr actually. heehee. cant wait!

Yes, i serve a faithful God.