Thursday, June 27

dspntd

just a few hours out and i learnt so much and saw so much more of the real you.
it scares me to think that this whole time, it was only the tip of the iceberg that i was loving and that there's so much more about you that i havent met.
it's true that it takes time to get to know a person fully.
i love you for you (or the you i know so far).
but i worry. would i still love the rest of the iceberg?

we are learning everyday, learning to be better, learning to trust.
but so far, it just feels like the house is always torn down after so much hard work put into building it. it takes so long to build, only to be torn apart in a flash by a heartless hurricane.

Thursday, June 20

(:


hellohello!! we're back from a 2d1n trip to batam for some massage and cable ski-ing!

stayed at The Hills which is only a two-minute walk to Nagoya Hills, the biggest shopping mall in the area (or batam itself, i'm not too sure). stayed there the previous time, had no complains, found it extremely convenient, and with a 30% discount now, we obviously went back there. Like a true Singaporean, i found 2 things to complain about now. the bed wasnt very comfy and the breakfast wasnt great, however the room is simple (good enough for 1 night) with free wifi, tv had many channels (as long as they have soccer its good), and most importantly, they had a hairdryer whoooo. so, if you're looking for a reasonably-priced place to stay which is conveniently located in the middle of spas/massage palours, you can try out The Hills. havent tried other hotels since this is only my second time visiting batam. will definitely be back there for more short overnight trips and cable-skiing (because baby like).

when we reached the hotel, i realised we were right beside one of the top and highly recommended massage parlours - the spa secret and indothai. definitely had to give it a shot even though it was $10 more expensive than the usual massage prices. $32 for my aromatheraphy massage and $22 for babe's mixed massage.
honestly, am still not used to massages so i found it ticklish and painful ): didn't exactly enjoy enjoy it. in fact, i felt sore after the massage and i dont know why. dont understand how he could fall asleep. ah wells.

was planning to go for a pedi as well but decided to give it a miss and go for $3 movie instead. 50,000Rp for two persons. that was my guess. for ONE person. hahah. movie was good, screen was big and clear, cinema wasnt crowded, ticket was cheap. what more could we ask for? oh. that they let us bring food in to the cinema instead of putting it into the locker.

had an early night to wake up for an early brekkie before wakeboarding. was hoping to go one round on the wakeboard but didnt manage to. was very frustrated that i faceplanted so many times. i still think i have a concussion and that my stomach and intestines have exchanged places. dont know if i want to go back there again to get more innards rearrangement. as much as i want to master it, i wish i were more skilled in this so it's not so painful a process to go through. ):
succeeded in going one round on the kneeboard but that wasnt even challenging. what was awesome was riding with babe on his wakeboard and catching a whole video of it. loved it. he's so awesome heehee. he managed to land after an obstacle too! so proud of you, dear! muackssss

now, 1.5h of sleep before brazil vs mexico. (:

Tuesday, June 11

i hope these 7 days go by smoothly. the last time was just horrible and i learnt that so much can happen within a short span of 7 days.

today is day 1. it was fine. like the last time, day 1, too, was fine. subsequently it just got from bad to worse. dont know what to expect of the rest of the week this time.

[edit]
day 2 was pretty fun. was busy doing facial and shopping.
day 3 was alright as well. went to mama house. missing you. 3 more days.
day 4 went by pretty quickly.
day 5 was great.
one more day.
[/edit]

7 days over.
thank God it went by so smoothly. 

Thursday, June 6

lessons

yays my 500th post! :D

just a quick summary of what i've learnt from them since 15. all these shaped me to what i am today, how i deal with us and my expectations.

#1
puppy love is just what it is, puppy love.

#2
never stay with a guy who just wants 'fun'.
if at first, there's no chemistry, there never will be, no matter how cool he is.

#3
age is not a factor when you are old.
but it is now. and will be, until you're 50.
it takes courage and much love to be willing to wait while withstanding negative comments.

#4
save for the future, plan for the future.
try not to suffer and torture yourself while doing so.
sometimes, money CAN buy happiness.
first ask yourself if the reason for anger is reasonable before bringing it up.

#5
never judge a book by its cover.
a nice person may turn out to be an asshole.
money may buy happiness, but not my love. especially not your parents' money.
if he can't decide well now, don't expect him to be a good father.
you'd probably just end up the 'father', and he, the mother.

i'm still learning every day but i hope that's all i will ever add to this list.


was extremely disappointed that his reservist clashed with our phantom of the opera date(and date) haha. plus it was already booked during the early bird period and we had pretty good seats. thank God they extended the show days and we can still have good seats! yay! just that there's no more early bird discount. thank you binksy for offering to share the cost and give our tickets to my parents for free. my mother was really happy when she heard it. i'm really thankful that the two of them can go out together like how they did when they were dating (mummy told me that she watched it before and loved it). thank you dearrr ((:

on another note, today i was reminded of a portion of my past, of having to scrimp and save every single cent, eating the cheapest meals and telling myself that all these little savings now will add up in the future.
i saw her worry that the meal might be too expensive. as much as i thought of paying(so i could have my black canyon), i am not a charitable organization and i do not simply pay for anybody out of pity. i treat, out of appreciation, out of love, out of joy etc but not out of pity.

Monday, June 3

road

took ArgonDragon out for a spin last night together with mystique. first time since kenyir lake for me!
"let's go for a long, slow ride."which i heard as "slack ride" and was obviously not prepared, so ended up having to borrow baby's smallest jersey and ride with tri shorts (thinner padding). so i had to bear with the pain in my (somewhere) for the next 73km. not funny at all.
headed out at 8.20pm.
i dont know the exact route we took even though yes, i rode it, but i know we stopped at the punggol prawning place (where i fell heehee)
first stop! (:
AD and Mystique taking a break from the road.
We then continued to tampines, coastal (7km on big chain ring and manintaing a considerably constant and good speed, posture etc yay!) then babe pointed to the spot where the guy died which freaked me out and i just wanted to get out of coastal asap even though i felt so familiar there. fell again. headed down ecp, where we realised the sundown marathoners were going to be running past. Stopped by changi village to eat but decided to eat after we were done.
Watching the runners run by and offering our bikes?? 



Wanted to see if i could find my mother among the crowd so we stopped by some place when we saw some runners. and yes! we saw mummy! mission accomplished so we continued on our journey back.
passed braddell, serangoon, lornie, upp thomson and back. wahoooo finally! sprinted up the final hill but i still didnt cramp even though my aim for the ride was "to ride until i cramp or till my water finishes" neither of which happened. haha
73.65km accomplished that day. reached back at about 1.10am followed by 50 crunches and 50 leg raises as proposed by the crazy bf.
had bakchormee for supper before going back.
what an awesome and crazy ride. lesson learnt: unclip earlier because my babe will scold if i unclip too late and fall ): and then kiss my wound when i pout.
thank God for protecting and keeping us safe the entire ride, and even though i fell twice, the only injury sustained  was a teeny weeny abrasion on my ring finger.
so lucky to have an awesome navigator/google map reader/wind blocker to ride with. xoxoxo

Friday, May 31

hooray(s)

in a celebratory mood today because of a few things worth celebrating!
firstly, congratulations to binks for crossing over! im so super proud of you, babe! always knew you could do it. (:
i was so happy that i announced to my family when i got home..
me: sean crossed over!!!
josiah: huh? he changed sex into a girl?
hahah he's so retarded.
in any case, im really happy that you were offered this option and dont have to worry about the future anymore. well, at least for the next 7 years.

secondly, my results were pretty good despite the fact that i had 13 tuition kids which forced me to return to hall/home at 11pm, leaving me with only 2h of study/assignment time each day. so getting such results is more than i could ask for or had even expected.
so, thank you God, for carrying me through this semester, helping me cope with a crazy schedule and still leaving me time to spend with binks (even though it was mostly doing work together), going overseas for competition together and coming back on the day of swimming test and math test. looking back, i really dont know how i managed. i even had time to watch movies, go for good meals and some training sessions (which were deemed useless from all the good meals we had haha). ohhhh i could even squeeze in time to complete his assignment for him haha wow. God is really good and i knew that He was always there helping me cope with the many changes. especially when binks left hall and had practicum, when i stayed alone in hall, and then when new room mates came, and when one had to go, and then roommate bringing her bf to stay over.. it was crazy..

last but not least, we also celebrate our 9th month together as a couple. just like every other couple, we had, have and will have our ups and downs, but we learned, through all our downs, more about each other and that communication and honesty is key in any relationship, without which, we are as good as not being in a relationship. so thank you dear for being in my life and being so awesome. you support me, make me laugh, brighten my day and make me feel like i can face the world everyday, no matter how dark it looks.

with that, i thank God not only for our results but also seeing us through these 9 months. i pray that we will continue to grow in Him and also towards each other little by little, day by day.
loving and appreciating you. hugsss(:

gardens by the bay 200812 - oh that hair (lack of)!

Wednesday, May 29

?

another phase of life.
changes.
new priorities.
uncertainty.

not sure if i can go on.
can i just take the easier option?
would love to.
but i will fight until i have no more left to fight.
until im too tired to care.
to feel.

as much as i would like to say that im stronger than that, i dont think i should put myself under such unncessary stress and hurt. because i do not deserve it. no one does.

maybe things would be different if you had to put in more effort to have gotten what you wanted. maybe.
bottomline, nobody appreciates being taken for granted.

Thursday, May 23

bloooopbloooop

so today, he ponned his apparently compulsory science centre trip to go out with me to SEA aquarium. it was really beautiful, and we were simply awestruck by the wide variety of fishes and the amazing array of colours. thank God for His creativity haha. my favourite fishes were the 'football fish' and of course, the sharks!! hungry shark evolution ftw!
wanted to take many photos but it was difficult to do so under the poor lighting as can be seen from some of the photos here. rawr.

managed to find a spot to sit despite the crowd heehee

colourful corals!

happy dolphin is smiling!

crazy overcrowding here

jelliesssss

more jellies

they're just too fascinating even though they are quite ugly haha

manta ray in the background! a pity the lighting was bad here.

loving the colours

reminds me of a movie scene somehow

i found dory!!

beautiful black tip shark

sharkies!

at the dock
after that, we went for some korean bbq buffet, i think it's call hyang-to-gol or something like that, located at some random part of RWS that we've never seen before. food was alright, variety wasnt there, not worth the price and wouldnt go back there. i believe there are better korean bbq buffets around with a better price and wider variety.
next up, adventure cove before the ticket expires like how the maritime museum and typhoon theatre tickets did. :P

Sunday, May 19

Rockin' and surfin'

After a hectic and exhausting semester, we were in desperate need of a good break, away from busy Singapore.
So, just for fun, we decided to sneak out of the country. In approximately 15min, we made the decision, grabbed the opportunity and off we went 2 weeks later, flying to a place where every day is a holiday - Bali.
Due to our tight schedule, only 2hrs of sit-down itinerary-planning was done less than 36h before our flight. While this does not fully fit my definition of spontaneity, it was pretty spontaneous given that it was both our first time visiting Bali and had no idea how to get around etc. 
(And yes, we also just found out that the majority of Balinese are Hindus and not Muslims even though its in a Muslim country.) 

Day 1
Immediately after his school ended (also 10 weeks practicum!), he rushed home to finish up his remaining packing. In less than half an hour, I was in a cab, on my way to his house to pick him up for the flight. The adventure was just beginning and I was so excited to be taking our first ever flight together.
We've landed in Bali!
After we landed, we met with our driver-tour guide, Juli, who brought us to our hotel, apparently the best in kuta- hard rock hotel! The place was well-decorated and it made me just want to take photo of everything but knowing me, I'm not one to take photos of inanimate objects, so our photos were mostly of people, US haha (photos coming soon). In addition to great decor, there was great service from the front desk. Room was geeeeeaaat. Live band was awesomeeee. There and then, I knew it was going to be an amazing and unforgettable stay at this hotel.
Entrance of Hard Rock Hotel (:
Checked in at about 930pm, and was planning to roam kuta square but decided we were too tired so we had an early night, in preparation for our morning tour!

Day 2
Woke up to a hearty and delicious breakfast (after waking up to his morning breath kisses heehee). Yumyum. After which, Juli picked us for our tour at turtle island! We were treated like royalty, a turtle island tour guide brought us around the island and helped us cut the queue and also helped to take photos of us playing with the animals.
Giant turtles we were so tempted to ride on.

SSSSSS..

Babe and his really flappy turtle which I had to protect my baby turtle from.
The glass-bottom boat then brought us back to the island and we headed back to our hotel for our very first surf lesson!!
Quick introduction to surfing! He made it look so easy.
It was super exciting and I managed to stand on my first try, with the wrong leg hahaah beginner's luck, coz after that, I fell alot. Babers was awesome even though the waves and undercurrent really sucked. Actually felt very irritated because I couldn't bring the board out far enough without having the waves push me back to where I started from. SIGH. Most of the time was spent pushing the board out, trying to get past the waves. I guess I just don't have the patience to keep doing that.. ): 
Still, surfing was fun and we (more so, he) loved it.

First try!! Obvious mistake there haha
Ride the waves like you own em' baby!
That evening, we had a special candlelight dinner by the beach planned for us. It was simply... beautiful. Had an absolutely wonderful dinner with a romantic atmosphere which was enhanced by 4 amazing/comical musicians who were performing for the different tables (not without tips of course). They finally came to our table and performed a chinese song and then our requested song heehee.
Seafood candlelight dinner by the beach!
The 4 super talented musicians who will pwn Sg "bands" any freakin time.
Wanting to catch the soccer match after that, we changed up and headed for the sports bar where we realised after buying the drinks that the man u match was the next day and that the match showing that day was 1h later. Unfortunately, they spiked our drinks(or so we suspected) and we got so high we had to go back hahaha and fell right asleep even before the match started. oopsy.
nachos and 2 hugeass glasses of cocktails = this and worse :P
Day 3
Woke up early for brekkie before rafting! A driver picked us and brought us to the rafting place 1.5h away from our hotel. Got our rafting gear, met the guide and the two other people rafting with us. Rafting was fun because the guide made it so. He was funny and was really great at steering the raft despite the rapids. Of course, once we got used to the bumpy ride, we wanted something more crazy. So, let's go Australia where the rapids are definitely crazier! woohoo!
First rafting experience (:
 They had showers and lunch provided there so it was perfect for starving us. Went back to the hotel and immediately headed out for shopping! Of course before our shopping started, we had to have some pedicure! :D pretty nails done while he had leg massage haha.
Can't hide the gay side of him heehee.
Walked around the whole area for approximately 3 hours searching for Johnny Rockets for dinner since it was something the bf wanted to try. Realised that it was actually just a stone's throw away from our hotel. The place actually reminded us of star vista in singapore! Anyway, this was only a snack as we did not want to have burgers for dinner but just wanted to see how good it was. It was.. probably similar to carl's jr, but more expensive and no free flow drinks? Since I don't exactly fancy burgers, I only took a bite or two. Honestly, I prefer carl's jr much more. That's only my opinion, go try it for yourself if you do get a chance to! (:

Our first ever taste of Johnny Rockets burgers! Woohoo!
Then we remembered that we wanted to visit the bomb site memorial but totally had no idea where it was because we only drove past it once on the first day. Took another 2 hours walking around and getting lost searching for it (also partly because we got distracted by the huge surf shops all over the place?). Asked a police and found out that it was 1km away from where we were. So we just kept walking while enjoying the busy night scene and having random guys ask the bf, "bro, mushroom?"
Finally made it here! May the victims rest in peace.
Finally found the bomb site memorial after the long walk. So tired, we just sat down by the road side like hobos. Being random, I suggested riding the horse carriages just for fun. And ride the carriage we did, at SGD12.50 for just 15min. He wanted to charge us SGD50 for one round (which we took 3h to walk) so obviously we declined and bargained for him to just bring us back to the hotel. Yay! another new thing we did together!
Cinderella, her prince charming and the horse carriage :P
Walked till we were finally hungry and settled for dinner. It was probably the live band that attracted us there. They were actually so good, that people stood and sat by the side of the road to watch them. So here, a waiter helped us take a polaroid and asked for one to be taken of him! He and the other waiters and hostesses were so fascinated by it.
Random dinner place with a way-better-than-sg live band (again) - Sandbar














This reminded me to appreciate the things I have as did many other instances we encountered here in Bali. I felt even more blessed when right after dinner, there were fireworks which we watched for a little while before heading to get some black canyon coffee. Ah.. this is what I call living the life. By the way, never knew black canyon coffee tasted so darn good!!!
In addition, our room showed soccer woooootsss!! Watched soccer and fell asleep by the first half. Woke up to man u winning (what's new).


Day 4
Extremely sad that the 4 days in Bali passed by so quickly and that we would be heading back to Singapore, to busy days, to reality. Probably made me very moody but of course, babe was trying not to let my mood affect our holiday so thank you for being so understanding, love.
Woke up late but still tried to surf anyways, not knowing that the tide and waves were impossible to get past especially with such floaty boards like ours. After a few tries and being crazily washed by the huge, towering waves, we decided it would be safer to come back later when the tide was lower and waves were kinder.
Managed to bring his board out when there were smaller waves.
 Hung around the hotel pool and played water basketball heehee. 
Doing some tricks as usual haha
And took some pretty nice shots (:
Lunch-ed at a beef bbq place that we had to cab to. Was only alright coz it just wasn't wagyu beef! And it didn't look anything like the picture in the postcard either but it's a holiday so we just wanted to try everything new.
Checked out and then went back to continue surfing with a slightly better tide now. The undercurrents were extremely strong though, and kept sweeping me to the right which made it very difficult (knowing how small I am) to get the surf board far enough without finding myself moving more right than out. This pissed me off so much because I just felt so very powerless and wished I were stronger and bigger like the other guys who could bring their boards further out.. Was pretty disappointed at myself that I did much better on the first day and it being our last day, I was hoping to at least get the hang of it a little more. It's probably just me being me again and having too high an expectation of myself and having the if-he-can-i-can-too attitude.
Was sulky but babe was so super sweet which cheered me up tons. XOXO. Played around in the pool a little bit more before washing up and heading out for dinner. Walked to the Aussie bbq restaurant we accidentally found when we got lost haha.
Service was great. Atmosphere was pretty quiet because it was quite deep inside the street, food was yummy yummy! loved the lamb and the oh-so-juicy honey glazed pineapples!!!



Everything was going perfect in this entire trip. Never did we expect to be missing our flight. I should have double-checked when I thought the driver made a mistake about being at the airport at a later time, when we already changed to an earlier flight back. Somehow I just didn't voice it out because I thought it sounded correct. SIGH. The flight was changed to 2h earlier, so we should have been at the airport 4h earlier but because the time sounded correct/familiar, I did not really realise it even though something told me it wasn't right, but I ignored it. RAWR. In the end we had to pay an extra 300USD each to catch the later flight back. The flight we originally were supposed to take. What a joke..
Well, the only positive thing was that there were seats for us. If not, I think we might have had to stay another night. So yeah, thank God for that.
SIGH.
Overall, I still thank God for protecting us and keeping us (and our belongings) safe throughout the 4 days and bringing us back safely to Singapore. This trip was so enjoyable and I truly enjoyed myself with babe. The flight problem only brought us closer and it was just another problem that we overcame together. We didn't let this problem ruin our trip but made it part of a learning experience especially for me to double-check and voice out any doubts.
Thank you love for being positive and handling the situation well (better than previously and probably better than me this time because I was the one at fault sorry dear). Thank you for everything throughout the trip, from being the map-reader, bag carrier to money handler, I appreciate your amazing effort in making this trip turn out so so awesome. This has been an absolutely memorable trip for me. Never felt this happy in a long time. Looking forward to many more trips to come. Lots of loveeeee (:

Thursday, May 9

overseas stunt #2

TWO.
MORE.
DAYS.

to the end of his practicum and the start of our crazy action-packed 4d3n in Bali.
was thinking it would be more of a relaxing and chillax trip(especially after a tiring semester for me and 10weeks practicum for him), but nooooo, once google came into the picture and having found so many things to do, we realised that there will not be enough time for us to try everything and we ended up having to choose a few out of all the exciting activities there!

only wish we didnt have to plan the trip right after his practicum coz its going to be so rushed. no matter, im sure we are going to have a great experience and a wonderful time, as usual.

cant wait! (:

Friday, May 3

let's

dont be so hard on yourself, love,
have i actually complained at all? did i whine about meeting only twice a week (and when we do, we are just doing work, or helping with your marking), or going out only to eat (and when there's more time to spare, maybe a movie)?
i dont mind all of those. i understand that you're busy and i dont expect a new thing to do everyday. let's save some for the future! dont use up all the ideas so quickly heeehee.
i just want to remind you that communication, to me, plays a very critical role in a relationship and that both of us have much to learn.




Found this on thoughtcatalogue. dates to go on with your best friend..


"1. Go to an amusement park together and try all of the rides you’re normally too scared to go on. CHECKED

2. Stay up all night when it’s nice out and drink wine under the stars, talking about all the things you’re usually too embarrassed or afraid to admit.

3. Treat yourselves to a nice dinner out at a fancy place when one of you gets a Groupon for it.
CHECKED

4. Pick a recipe that you’re almost 100 percent sure you’re not skilled enough to make, and make it together. (Feel free to have a fair amount of wine throughout the cooking process, even if it means you’re more likely to mess the recipe up.)

5. Go to an apple orchard or pumpkin patch and pick produce while wearing adorable, hand-knitted scarves. Instagram pictures of yourselves and basically make everyone else want to vomit with how adorable you are.

6. Get absurdly dressed up and go to your high school reunion together, only to get buzzed on champagne and judge everyone in the corner together. N/A

7. Watch all of your favorite movies all day curled up under blankets, drinking hot cocoa and eating popcorn.

8. Go to a bar for happy hour and eat 25-cent wings until your tummies hurt. BUFFULO WINGS?

9. Take a road trip on the weekend to a place in your area you’ve never been before. Find a place to couch surf, or sleep outdoors if the weather is nice. Bring a cooler full of snacks and drinks to share with people you meet along the way. 22HOUR DRIVE TO KENYIR LAKE, CHECKED!

10. Go to a zoo.CHECKEDCHECKED

11. Go to a petting zoo and spend an inordinate amount of time cuddling with a baby pig while you take pictures of each other and plot how you’re going to steal it. SIMILAR TO ZOO, WHEN I WANTED TO STEAL A CROCODILE.

12. Listen to a new album that you’ve both been hearing about for a long time but haven’t taken the time to listen to yet, and then talk (or possibly blog) about what you think of it.

13. Go to a really fancy store where you know the salespeople are going to be really bitchy and judgmental, and take all the time your little hearts desire looking at things/trying them on, regardless of the sideways glares you’re getting.

14. Go to a thrift store afterwards and pick up things infinitely more interesting, and for 1/100th the price.

15. Make delicious snacks such as chocolate-dipped pretzels and white cheddar popcorn, then sneak them into the movie theater with you to go watch a kid’s movie. Also consider a Powerade bottle full of rosé wine.

16. Re-watch all the episodes of your favorite TV show.

17. Read an issue of Cosmo cover-to-cover and make fun of everything (while secretly noting the things which seem like they’re going to be useful/sexy).  N/A

18. Go to a museum and pretend to understand the first thing about art.

19. Go walk around your old school grounds and see what’s different, and what’s the same. (Try not to marvel at how much older you look than everyone now.)

20. Spend all afternoon in a coffee shop, reading books next to each other and watching people come in and out.

21. Go sledding when it snows, even if the hill is pathetically small. Make a ramp out of packed snow and take videos of each other busting your asses falling off of it. N/A

22. Play Truth or Dare, and actually do everything you get dared to do. Yes, even if it’s “Run through the snow in your underwear screaming ‘penis’ at the top of your lungs.” And be honest when the truth comes, even if it’s really embarrassing.

23. Have an arts-and-crafts session where you make one another paintings to hang up in your respective apartments. And hang them up, even if they look terrible. They’ll be the best piece of wall art you’ll ever have.

24. Bake cupcakes.

25. Go for a long walk in the park, not necessarily talking, but just enjoying being in a beautiful place together when the weather is nice and the animals are out. LONG RUN/RIDE COUNTED RIGHT?

26. Go to a pet store and play with the puppies until you’re essentially in tears over the fact that you can’t have one.

27. Offer to pet-sit for someone and quench your puppy-owning thirst by taking care of one together for a few days.

28. Learn a new sport together, even if you’re both terrible at it. Even if you give up after the first tennis lesson, or ski session, or turn around the ice skating rink. Give it a try and don’t laugh at each other (too much).

29. Play board games at your house with fancy cocktails and yummy snacks and good music, and don’t worry about who wins or how late you stay up. Try to remember that having time with them is precious, and should never be taken for granted. Even if they always beat you at Monopoly. "

so, don't say we have nothing to do. we have the whole june holidays to do all these! (:
what we still have waiting for us:
- BALI (10-13may)
- phantom of the opera (26jul)
- chocolate facial
- korean bbq buffet at rws
- SEA aquarium
- Adventure cove
- Maritime museum
- River Safari
- pedicure

 cant wait, binks (:

Tuesday, April 30

eight

the day i finished my very last exam in my entire school life
the day he had his last pe observation for his practicum
the day we watched ironman 3 at jcube imax
the day we managed to catch an ice hockey match while having dinner

the day we celebrated our 8 months together.

the past 6 weeks have been so crazy for us. (crazier for him i believe)
for me, with assignments due, tuition, travelling and exam. for him, school, with lesson plans and marking to do every single day, 6 observations.
there was so little time to text, and meeting became a bonus when we could just barely squeeze out that little time we had to meet. even so, while eating dinner, he marked while i worked on assignment.
it was difficult for us, because it was during times like these that we need each other's support and but we couldnt give it when each of us are so busy fretting over the upcoming mountain of work. i was helping him to mark despite worrying over number theory. he was helping me with my assignment despit having lesson plans to churn and sleep to catch. it was difficult to hold meaningful conversations because it was time-consuming and not work-related. we got irratible and less patient with each other.
honestly, i was very sad and felt very neglected, with no one to turn to because i didnt want to burden him with my troubles when he had enough of his own.
i've so much to discuss with you. i dont know where to start.
for one, i know exams aren't the most important thing to you, but when i am the one taking the exam, i was hoping for a little more support before my exam. something along the lines of  'you'll do just fine' or 'study hard', 'jiayou jiayou' , 'don't worry, love you no matter what' and asking me how my exam went and being excited with me that my exam has finally ended.. i just needed some encouragement before the paper but it's ok. it's over now.
and i hope we will go back to normal soon........ 11 more days. now that i've ended school, i will give you all the support i can.
loves.