some people are so fudging irritating and has period everyday.
damn you.
you like to stay at home so much then stay at home by yourself. dont make the world stay at home with you.
scared you drop dead nobody to save you? fall down the stairs with nobody to hear your screams? ghosts? the dogs get crazy and chew your meat off? fire?
im seriously done with tolerating you man.
and why the fudge am i even writing this? you are too old to know how to use the damn computer properly.
FUDGE YOU. old crap. i have no respect for you.
if anything happens to us. its all your fault and hope it makes you damn happy to see everybody around you sad.
retard.

There's something in your eyes that's far too revealing
Why must it be like this a love without feelin'
Something wrong with you I know
I see it in your eyes
Believe me when I say
It's gonna be okay

I told you from the start I won't be demanding
I won't be demanding
If you have a change of heart I'll be understanding
I'll be understanding
When love becomes a broken heart and dreams begin to die
Believe me when I say
We'll work it out some way

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say goodbye

We've lost that loving touch we used to feel so much
I try to hide the truth that's in my eyes
The love without feeling
But when I feel we're not in love, I know I'm losing you
Believe me when I say
We'll work it out some way

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say goodbye

Don't say goodbye

If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say goodbye

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try


YAWN.. what a boring song. -.-

just waiting to see what happens. but so far, everything seems quite alright tho it kinda felt screwed up last week. taking things step by step and letting Him lead. tho im not sure if He is. shrugs. this is where the non-christians go .. LOLLLLL. -.- rolls eyes dotdotdot.


"Friends are like grains of sand. Hold them too tight and you'll lose them; Hold them too loose you'll lose them." - random blog
we all have something to learn from this.
seems like some friends only say yeah they'll update but never and not wanting to be too buggy, im here waiting and waiting to see when their exams end so we can go out. and tho the friend is like.. i cant wait to go out with you too! that friend never informed me when the exams ended tho i know most exams would have ended by now. giving that friend the benefit of the doubt that maybe that friend's course is different or smth. and many times if i do not sms, that friend will never bother to sms. maybe coz that friend is too busy? once again.. giving that friend the benefit of the doubt.

so if that person knows who you are, if you are bothered enough to come here, dont be "scared that you are angry with me and i dont know how to start" coz im not. im just waiting. "you're too good a friend to lose." i hope you mean it.

You always screw up my life.
You just have to change the course of things.
and leave me so alone.
thought they said You were the source of strength and joy.
yeah right.

and yeah everything is just my fault.

wahhhh ive never missed a character beforeeee.. but i miss michael.. sobsob.
cant believe im still sad till today.
feels as if somebody real died... ): almost the same feeling but i know its stupid of me to feel sad.
i didnt cry ok! jotham keep saying i cry... hahaha.

think im crazy.
haha.



16.

no more miracles.. michael died.
im so so friggin sad. AHHH. i shouldnt have watched the last part.)))))))))))): sobs.
like really sad. sighhhhh........


and i just rmbed myself shouting to the kids this. "girls! if i dont see no running you gonna run me an extra round, got that?"
i think it sounds like tbag! hahahahahaha.

but im still very upset michael died and left sarah and their son. )))))):
argh. what a stupid ending. i wanna cryyyy )):

for the first time in one year, jenelle called me teacher. 5 times.
and i made her wait for an hour.
coz of pm2s. yeah totally looks like pms. zzz i dont even know what it stands for but wtv the system quite weird. so had to redo like 3, 4 times.

and i saw through kikumaru senpai's 'waterfall' serve! or the unreturnable serve. HA. she hits it very deep! and when i realised and moved back, she was really smart to change it to the normal serve. thats my awesome student(:

i sense vp gonna talk to me tmr. AHAHHA. we were hitting balls on the wrong wall. the clean wall. HAAHHA. and she saw us from the 3rd floor. gasp.
kikumaru: OMG! VP!!!!!
me: er. shucks! *pretends to bounce ball* stop hitting!!
oishi: HI _____________!*waves at vp* :D
kikumaru and me: ...............

eeee i dont wanna be tachibana's sister! hahahah.
me: call me ryoma.
oishi and kikumaru: YA RIGHTTTT, ms tan!
HAHHAAH yeah i love them.

tennissssssss rawks(:
LOL for the SUPERSNAG, you may have your opinion, that's mine.
i dont mind SNAGs. but SUPERSNAGs really get on my nerves.
there,there. a plaster for your wounded heart?

anw! bie's birthday lunch was great!!! hahhah. tho service there not thaaat awesome. and we brought jotham out! so fun! but he lost his wallet! containing $40 in tapz. he was )))): awww. and a min before that he was boasting that he could play one game free everyday with that card. hahahaha. i had so much fun that day(:

felt what you felt before. its kinda horrible a feeling, but i also kinda miss it.
havent felt it in awhile.
yet im thankful im not feeling it. and wish i wont have to go through that again.
so its not a very good thing to be missing.
though its actually quite cute how you 'kids' express yourself. haha. emo nemos.
just making me feel old eh.

anw! ALL THE BESTEST TO UNI PEEPS HAVING EXAMS SOOOON((: STUDY HARD!
eg. bie, tiff, josiahk, clara etc.

aww man. just remembered.. no tennis this fri):
1.6km gonna be the "hailer" chris says preserve your voice.

OH BY THE WAY.
hello. you dont have the absolute right to stop anybody from doing anything. what he/she/they does/do behind your back you wouldnt even know. you're not God.
and 'MUST' isnt a very good word to keep using. its up to anyone whether they want to do it or not. if they do it unwillingly, whats the point? for outsiders, this would repel(scare them away) rather than attract.
ok better stop saying otherwise it gets more and more obvious.
not gonna let my bro look like a loser or so loser-ish. so all that gossip, dudes, aint real. duh. if there are gossips to be spread, there are more interesting ones rather than absolutely one-sided love. get a life. please? (:

"....We have specially catered lunch today to celebrate foundress' day. our principal, _____, sincerely apologizes for her absence as she is attending a course. Enjoy." -vp

HAHAHHAHAHA. nicenice. i could just clap for that sentence!
unfortunately it wasnt meant to be interpreted that way): (selectively listening would be good)

sms dad(at bishan): can you come bishan and i drive back?
dad replies: n.....oooooooo
sms dad(at macr): how bout macr then?
dad replies: where are u. i go pick u up now.

hmmm. thats a trick that could work. instead of " can u come pick me upppp..." HA!

On a more serious note,
Theophilia tried to kill herself again today. Attempted to jump off from the 4th floor. was apparently climbling the railings.
Thank God zip saw her from across the block.
She has also tried pricking her fingers with a needle and claimed she wanted to die. The first was trying to strangle herself. hmm i wonder if thats really possible.
anw at p3. this is crazy.

15 passed by like nth.
so did 26 and 27.
so much for weekends.
its gonna be over in like...25hrs. wts.
TRAGIC. yes i absolutely agree.

everything is going wrong.
suay to the maximumest.

how come the rollercoaster still hasnt gone upwards? ok maybe just a little bump.
sighhhhhhhh...

hate my life.

fml

i feel so stupid.
why take the effort ALL the effort. i dont get myself either! just to go down all the way.
all this to end the day with an argument.
i.dont.understand.myself.
clarissa tan. why are you so friggin stupid.
WHY.
if you didnt go down, and just went home, you wouldnt be starving now and there wouldnt have been the argument. i dont get your stupidity. DONT GET IT!
damn it. damn everything.
MY LIFE SUCKS. BIG TIME.

i cant even place all my frustration into the stupid blog.
i want my tennis racket and tennis balls....):