i feel so stupid.
why take the effort ALL the effort. i dont get myself either! just to go down all the way.
all this to end the day with an argument.
i.dont.understand.myself.
clarissa tan. why are you so friggin stupid.
WHY.
if you didnt go down, and just went home, you wouldnt be starving now and there wouldnt have been the argument. i dont get your stupidity. DONT GET IT!
damn it. damn everything.
MY LIFE SUCKS. BIG TIME.

i cant even place all my frustration into the stupid blog.
i want my tennis racket and tennis balls....):