this is the air i breathe

050907- sorry. this is long due. i know. bleahhh.. ):

240807
wassup with the tennis craze in my pw group?? hahaha.
played tennis again todaee!

shucks. i feel super guilty. eeks.
i suddenly felt that i had to go for radi8. havent been going for quite awhile.
but if i go, i'd have to pon trng!
in the end, didnt go for either. -.-

oh yes. tiff has now taken over anabelle's job. tiif, all the best ya. i pray that God will give you the wisdom and guidance to lead SV. to bring more people to Christ.

Lord, this is all your plan. Your purpose for her. This is why she's here. to be a witness for you. to shine for you, Father. I knew it right from the start when Johnson asked Tiff and weixian to take over annabelle. but tiff was rather unsure. Father, i know you'll take her through this and even as she'd have to juggle SV and trng, you'd just grant her wisdom so that she'll be able to cope and do well in her studies and trng. Lord, i pray for both tiff and weixian that your favour will be upon them and that your light will shine through them and truly let everyone see You through their lives. I thank You, dear Lord, for both of them. In Your name i pray, Amen.

its decided that clara, sihan and i will meet every mon-fri morning at LT2, if not, LT3, if not, LT4, if not, LT5, if not, practice rooms (yeah that bad. hahaha!) to do our devotion and worship. Really thank God for all this. Its slowly becoming clearer. Your purpose. Your plans for me.

anw! this is funny. was laughing like mad. audrey, you blur queen! HAHAHAHA! tiff we rawk yarh! whoo!

this was the starting. of a frigging funny convo.

* the "telepathy"

clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
was just thinking....
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
hmm...
audrey says:
hahaha i know!
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
hahahahah!
audrey says:
are u thinking what im think B1?
audrey says:
*thinking
audrey says:
LOL
audrey says:
telepathy!
...

...

-- i tink u're cute has been added to the conversation.

man u vs liverpool aka argument between Tiff and clar. :P

...

...

clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
toa payoh garden?
audrey says:
hmm tp?
-- i tink u're cute says:
toapayoh garden????
-- i tink u're cute says:
there can study ah??
-- i tink u're cute says:
no mosquito?
audrey says:
we all wear track pants
-- i tink u're cute says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-- i tink u're cute says:
OKAY LETS WEAR TRACK PANTS
-- i tink u're cute says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAA

audrey says:
so the veridct is?
audrey says:
track pants
audrey says:
hahahahaha
audrey says:
latest fashion
-- i tink u're cute says:
yea baby!
...

...

audrey says:
but wait
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
hmm?
audrey says:
are u serious abt track pants
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
YEAHHH MANNS
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
so cool *
audrey says:
so hot *
audrey says:
=(
-- i tink u're cute says:
so cool so hot
-- i tink u're cute says:
hahahahha!

Tiff and Clar opens new convo.

clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
then we wear NORMAL
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA
-- i tink u're cute says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
then she come in track pants!
-- i tink u're cute says:
OMG DAMN BAG
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
HAHAHAHA!!!!
-- i tink u're cute says:
BAD
-- i tink u're cute says:
HAHAHAHHAHA BUT OKAY
-- i tink u're cute says:
hahhahahahahahahahahahahha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-- i tink u're cute says:
you're da domb

convo with audrey continues...

clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
HAHAH!
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
HAWWWTT MANNZ
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
whoo!
audrey says:
t
audrey says:
hahah
audrey says:
k loh
-- i tink u're cute says:
then what shirt
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
track suit actually
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
the whole thing
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
then cooler.
-- i tink u're cute says:
oh yea
audrey says:
tttttt'
audrey says:
-faints
audrey says:
ok fine
audrey says:
the shirt is the track one or cross one
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
um. the cross one better
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
dull colour
audrey says:
ok
-- i tink u're cute says:
yea true
audrey says:
then we'll be totally black
-- i tink u're cute says:
plus more team spirit
-- i tink u're cute says:
sexy
audrey says:
and we'll attract mosquitoes *
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
then mosquito wont be attracted *
audrey says:
cool
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
no lah wont!
audrey says:
when we're trying to ward them off
audrey says:
HHHHAHAHA
audrey says:
OK THEN
audrey says:
SET

clar and tiff again...

clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
HAHA
-- i tink u're cute says:
if she really wear
-- i tink u're cute says:
omg
-- i tink u're cute says:
i'd die laughing

-- i tink u're cute says:
TRACK SHIRT OR CROSS SHIRT
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
HAAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-- i tink u're cute says:
DO YOU THINK SHES PLAYNG ALONG?!?!?!?!?!
-- i tink u're cute says:
COS IT'S DAMN FUNNY

after i told drey...

audrey says:
omg omg omg omg

audrey says:
EH EH EH
audrey says:
AHHHHH
audrey says:
luckily u tell me!
audrey says:
if not i'll really wear la

clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
we thought you were playing along!
clar啊敏(: i sorta miss you; says:
hahaha
audrey says:
hahaha
audrey says:
no i was serious

audrey says:
cos u both sounded serious!
audrey says:
HMPH
audrey says:
I FEEL SO CHEATED

Aiyah.. shouldnt have told drey. then we can all die laughing. -winks at tiff

* notice the ''telepathy''?

thanks for everything, Father

nothing seems very important to me now. All that matters is knowing that He will be with me through all of my trials. and that He placed me here for a reason. My friends and i were dicussing about so much stuff. but something she said really hit me. am i ready? once it happens, there's nothing anyone can do about it. will i see myself taken into the clouds above or will i watch hopelessly as everything starts blowing up. i've dreamt of this scene before. i sooo know i do not want to be there when it happens.
[edit 230807]
as i stepped into the SV meeting today, i could feel God's presence so strongly. so strong i knew i had to quieten my heart and oh i dont know how to explain. His presence was just there. i really didnt want worship to end. it was just so nice. being able to feel Him there again. I just thank God for bringing me through all the way here and for giving me great friends. i really appreciate it, Daddy. i love You.

heh heh. finger itchy. just want to type. hee! XD
190807 sun
went morning service. hmph. amos lee! you pang seh-ed me! and who was the one who say he wont pang seh me one! wl. make me go 8am service! hahaha. lazy bum lah you. ok nvm. next time then.
simran's house in the afternoon! (((:
played tennis at ssc or was it csc? argh. their names all so close!
anwanw! tennis rawkkkeddd!!! super fun! but how come tennis elective is quite boring?? must be the ppl. yay! love y'all loads! :D
simran and i played doubles against aug and benyeo. into the first 3 minutes of the game and aug lost one ball. i brought 4. 3 normal ones and one super precious one. was so scared he'd hit it out, i just let it roll somewhere and play with the other 2. hahaha.
last 5 mins we had comp. super funny. coz the guard was like chasing us out. begged for 5 more mins. booked 1 court, used 2 courts. sim and aug one court, yeo and i another court, winner competes for 1st and 2nd place. the 2 losers compete for 3rd, 4th place. ok so obvious right? sorry lah. hahaha. siao. lost to yeo 7-5. lost to aug 5-3. shucks. hahaha 4th. but super fun!! :D:D:D
ate at the club! was talking about so many funny stuff!
about *cough cough* not so bad actually.
yeo: iGallop! uPilot!
clar and yeo: ISQUEEZE!!
HAHHAHAHAA. super funny.
that day rawked. :D

tues, wed... nothing much... hmm..
ponned trng on wed. haha. coz super tired after DG.
and at least somebody said she missed talking to me. hahaha.
some ppl, every mon, wed, and fri see me in chinese class just pretend dont know me.
but nvm. you'll get the movie soon.

OH OH!!!!!!! tuesday.. went to RI gym hall with clara and sihan! wahhh finally. after soo many years. whooo! felt great mannnz! jumped the trampoline! yayyy! did 2 somersaults! wheeee!! i want go again soon!!

today!
chem mock spa. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
trng was gooooood!!!
WHOO!!
thanks wangjl! improved so much! :D
am happy! yayyy!!




if you can wait a few more weeks;

milk

stop making people think. or TRYING to.
guess what.
i dont know and i dont care.
it has no meaning at all.
stop trying to get people to comfort you by using weird words.
you need attention?
go get it from monday to friday during morning assembly.
siannnn ah.
seriously.



ok whatever. here's a BIG WHATEVER to you. -rolls eyes.
i cant be bothered already.
she wins.
say yay, mah fren.


dragon boating todaeee. at marina bay.
so fun! hahaaha!
wl. wanted to get suntan.. no sun.
rained.
hahaha.
good thing we raced already. got 2nd. in our wave.
camwhoreed with lionel and alfred.

FLYY!

FLYYY AGAIN! strong winddd! do-re-mi.

went inside. waited for rain to stop. slept for 10mins. sleep was good. yay.
got so bored, lionel and i went outside to walk around the then empty 'carnival'.
saw the funny hit-and-see-how-high-the-metal-thing-flies. a group of girls were trying it out.
the hammer LOOKED heavy. hit until 7-8.
so lionel and i were laughing at them hahahah!
then another group of boys tried to show off. haha. hit 9-10.
then they walked off.
lionel made me try!! wl. so paiseh.
hit 13. YESSS!
the girls screamed. the guys were like,"WAHLAO!" and came back to hit the thing.
super funny.
lionel hit 15! and one guy hit the bell! hahah!

went back in to get balloons. yay. helium ones!
one little boy was like saying smth, pointing to the balloons.
so the older guy was like oh he wants a balloon.
so i gave it to him. so lionel had to give me his.
plus he tied it on my hair! wt...

daojie, benyeo and jianrong were sucking in helium. super funny. daojie was like singing the barbie girl song. eeee. hahhaa. and when he took a breath it was from the balloon. super funny. i want the videoooo! heeheehee! we took turns saying random stuff. was damn funnn.

walked around in esplanade and the mrt with that balloon in my hair can!
went plaza sing with cq and shai to get present for my bro, raj and aug.
bought a shirt for my bro. niceee. hahha
raj got a cute pencil box.
and aug got a mug. coz he mugs. funnnnyy!! hahaha!

made honey joys when i reached home. wheee.

and oh yes. i can tab 'hey there delilah' on the guitar alreadyy. ok lah. quite easy actually. heehee. it repeats. but the song is niceeee.



i do not look like a mousedeer ;
and i do not smell like milk /

made everything ok

150807 wed
FOTF. at bishan.
missed DG.
the rest had to leave, so benyeo and i went to bishan lib to look for that book.
were so stupid. too stupid to mention.
maria was laughing like mad when i told her.
bet the librarian was like -.- rjc???? ooops. heehee! XD
trng at macr.
so dark. so scary. i think i was more aware of my surroundings that day and how things can look like other scary things. eg. monkey!, white haired old woman, giant tombstone etc. was freakin out. so prayed and went faster.
was fun sprinting up the hill! hahah!
went to meet wq at 'little sisters of the poor'
walk the whole way there. so darkkk... hahha.
we were searching for place with light.
in the end, sat infront of vending machine. so fun. hahahah!
drove me home! so fun!! (again. hahah!)

160807 thu
went trng early.
guojl was like telling me maybe trng had to be cancelled.
coz the water was really dirty. and there were bugs inside.
so i just said," wasnt it like that alr?"
and sy was like *gasp* hahahaha.
i told guojl i wanted to swim.
yay. so trng continued! and so fun mannz!
wangjl is super cute!
supp to do 10x 200. 5pull, 5 swim.
she let us do 6 pull, 4 swim. and was like," bu yao rang guo jiao lian zhi dao" HAHAHAAH!
yay and cant wait for tuesday!wangjl is loveddd! ((:

170807 Fri
free period spent at MEP practice room with clara and shuqi.
thanks, "twin", for bringing the guitar chords.
so nice right. i only randomly said that i wanted to get the chords for the nice song we sang in SV. pink thanks purple. (:
siaoooo. we went somewhere near NUS.
it was super near lahhhh!!!
but all of us couldnt find it... ))):
cabbed there.
there were 5 of us.
had to sneak in. heeheehee!
waited at the opp side of the road with shai.
then when the taxi came and when they were entering from the other side, and when the uncle turned to them, we went in from the other side. so funny. heehee.
$8.
cabbed back.$10.60. $2 extra. whaattt the...
went trng super tired. fell asleep while stretching. (!!!!)
omg..
luckily we did long run. 8k on track.
not bad quite fun! hahhaa! only felt warmed up at 5k.
3x 200 was super fun. hahaha! 35-37.
and i hope guojl saw my shoes. PLEASE SEE MY SHOES!
plspls jl. i really need new shoes. hahaha.

shuqi: eh. my friend was asking me,"why your class have the 'heart gang' and the 'star gang' one ah?"

hahahaha. greenpurplebluepink!

funnn

five things! five things!
1. tennis was fun. improved. yay!
2. lifts get pms-y too. BEWARE. and! do not hit the lift.
3. sihan, cq and i went up to the 14th storey of our school! (YES. we did.) SO COOLIOS RIGHT! cq and sihan! you better not announce to the whole class tmr bout what i did. SHHHH!!!!!!! [edit] SHUCKS. CQ BEAT ME TO IT! now the whole world will know!-hides face. [/edit]
3. Pat and sis(pam) finally came for trng today!! YAYY!
4. pam drove us back!
5. pam was accelerating and braking to the beat of the music. HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!! so embarassing! the person in the car behind us was staring at us! HAHAHAHA!!




no traffic today.
so sian. ):

(:

password thingo not useful. darn.
WHY? why did you have to come here?

ok anw, just remember i'll be there whenever you need someone to talk to. cheer up kay. pls come back to your funny self soon. school starts tmr. take care of yourself. i really hope everything will turn out fine for you. God loves you, my friend. (: *patpat*

^.^V

am happy. says the shameless mousedeer.
long happy emails are lovedd! (:
thanks loads.
:DDD


fri trng was umm.. slack? ok. quite. wanted to play soccerrrr... hahaha. ee.. wangjl dont allow. hahah quite funny. coz i just randomly asked her," wo men ke yi wan zu qiu ma?" then wahhh siao. all the kids suddenly,'AHH JIAOLIAN! PLS PLS PLS. rang wo men wan zu qiu lehhh!!" oops. XD

today's cycling was ughh... strong headwind. stomachache. dropped. mamamia...
was trying to chase jina. coz sunny told me something about... dunno.. dunno. what rubberband snap alr, cannot put back.. aiyah something about following close behind lah. like rubberband. aiyah. dunno. -shrugs. so better listen to the senior. hhaha.
anw,
sunny: eh. you sec what now?
clar: sec WHAT?
sunny: oh wah. sec one only ah. wahh. (told you the wind was strong. haha)
clar: im J ONE!
sunny: OH. sorry sorry! you look like sec sch only mah.
clar: grrr..

kk. then then! suddenly some person came up behind me. "clarisssaaa... faster lehh!" i couldnt recognise the voice can! turned back. saw mok. was like "AHHHHHH!!!!" and started pedalling faster. was like," sorrysorry" to sunny infront, coz he thought something happened to me. hahaha!
siaooo.. then suddenly sunny went so fast. didnt want to chase alr. so got dropped. hahaha. when they turned back across the road, mok was like,"Awww.. clarissa so sad. must cycle alone!" so i was like shouting," shut up lah mok!" super retarded. haha. still not enough, when i passed them again in the opp direction, jina was cycling behind mok like crazy. and he was like," heeellloooo!" bet jina was like arghhh! HAHA!
saw pam and joel in the opp direction too. both of them were like waving at me and smiling like so big. hahaaha. so i waved back and smiled just as big as them. super funny. hee. slackers. HAHA.

went to church. yay.

trees.

HAHAHHAH! super super funny canns!
laugh until cry.
watching youtube ytd.
JAP GAME- IF YOU DONT LAUGH, I GIVE YOU $10. HAAHHAHA.
ROWAN ATKINSON- this is just one funny one. check out 'welcome to hell' too! HAHAHA

went shai's house for pw.
ended up playing xbox.
need for speed!! yay!
hahahah!! benyeo totally got ownnned! :P
nehhhh!! hahaha! whheee!
not by a few seconds. by 1min plus. HAHAHA!
shai totally ownnned me lah. gahh.
nvm! it was still uber funnn!

yessss. finally. wahahaha. sneaky ppl! XDDDD

OH! and i made truffles! yummyyy! hahaha! :D

when i needed cheeing up, you made me feel worse.
when i needed you to say something, silence.
when i wanted to let go, you let me.
its like you dont care.
maybe you do.
it doesnt show.
oh i dont know!
im tired.


i o drey. HHAHAAHAHA. darn. darn. oh wells. a promise is a promise. hahahah! happy lah, someone! bleahhh!

and i wasnt lying when i said...

made it through one night without talking to you.
torturous.
thank God for emails. hahaha!
and school computers.

oh wells. ytd... hmm.. was alright i guess.
i think the best part was watching maria dance!!
was like 'awwww!' was it was over.
and anywaes, im very proud to have a friend like maria! :D
she looked so steady on stage worh! hahaah!

wed(today)
ran with clement.
he's like funny.
we were running running..
suddenly..
clem: ehh! wait wait! i need to fart.
clar: fart lorr...
clem:-lets out a long fart. ahhhh. so much better. ok can run already.
clar: ...
and then ...
clem: wait. i need to fart again lehs
clar: HAHAHAHA!
clem: oie see lah. you laugh i cannot fart already.
-continues runnung.
clem: ok now i need to fart.
clar: ok BYE. -runs away
clem: -farts again.

omg so funny. hahahah! stupid farter.



and HAHA! i dont know why ah. this happened like 2 times. HAHA
aug: eh. when im gone, right... can you and shai..
clar: -starts singing avril lavigne's 'when you're gone'
aug: -.-'''
clar: ^.^V

aug: so where are you going later?
clar: -starts singing Chris Daughtry's ' Home' I'm going home, to the place where i belong...
aug: O.o ARGH.
clar: yesssssss!

HAHAHAH!

awww... its TWO whole nights now... ))):
i want a handphoneee...

wahhh... super pek chek now...
COZ! in the end, wq and i didnt go for fop. and why?? he fell sick. coughing like mad. so ok fine. sunday then. THEN! we were like smsing when i called tiff who told me that the queue the previous day was super long and she had to sit quite far back. and that's even when she started queing at 5.15 okayy. the thing starts at 7.30!! so i told him that and that its fine with me whether or not he wants to go. so in the end we decided not to go.
THEN THEN! the worse thing ever!! when we came online, our msn nicks were saying the same thing. only that mine was thrice of his. "i want to go" HAHAHAHAH! omg. then we realised that we SUPER SUPER wanted to go canns! we were both like AHHHHHHHH!! I WANTED TO GO!!!! BUT I THOUGHT YOU DIDNT WANT TO GO!!
like wth lahhh!!! its like once a year thing.... )): sad-ed... *screams!!!* DON MOEN AND DELIRIOUS!!!! ahhhhh!!!AHHHH!!! i want to see delirious perform!! sigh... ):

oh.. and in the last 2 days, 5 of my friends told me stuff. like alot of stuff. i know they're confused about what to do. and i hate seeing them so sad and depressed. but what can i do? i can only sit there and listen to them talk, occasionally patting them on the shoulders, and telling them to trust God and to just fix their eyes on Him.
BUT am i doing that? i dont think so! ever since that day, i guess i've been slowly drifting further and further from Him. i hardly read my bible nowadays and listen to all those worldly songs. its not that i dont know. i know! but i just didnt really care. it didnt seem to be such a big deal. i thought that as long as i prayed, everything will be just fine.
i was wrong... the whole time, i couldnt feel His presence with me. it didnt feel like last time. i still remember how i felt during o's. was studying the whole time, so didnt make enough time for Him. and it was like.. i was trying and trying but, without Him, i dont know, i just felt so empty.
it was until today. when i spoke with her that i realised.


i dont even know why im posting this. i really dont!!! -shrugs. oh wells. since ive type so much. i might as well. wanted to delete actually hahaha! shucks. we're talking until so late again! cannot like thatttt!!!! ahhhh!!!!

thanks.

need to thank a few people.

wq: you've been a great help. thanks for helping me with the stupid chem remedial ws. and for pei-ing me stay up until so late, waiting for me to finish my work. thanks also for cheering me up so much. your flower made me smile, your ecard made me laugh again. even when i was feeling like uber pissed, your stupid jokes are sure to make me smile. had fun slacking with you. chicken little is loveddd! (:


yh: it was really nice talking to you today. like we just had so much to talk about. i dont think we've ever spoken so much before. hahaha. even though we're like in the same class and all. thanks for staying back and going for dinner with me. and thanks for sharing. (: i had fun spending time with you. thanks for making me laugh. hahahah! :D


cq: hey you! (: smile man! dont so sad kays. cq, you rawk cannn. you never fail to encourage me whenever i just feel like giving up, or when im tired. thanks for always trying to cheer me up even when i know you yourself are feeling down. thanks for all the nice songs you sent me. they're very nice. (: i still think po xiao rawks! hahaha! oh yeah. thanks for all the suggestions too! dude, you're da best! :D


there are like so many more. i reaaallly need my beauty sleep like NOW. kkk mornin'! (:

who could tell?

went swimming training ytd.
super funny. and quite slack.
mok was there.
being super retarded.
like seriously can?
giving funny comments about how wangjl looking hawt.
etc etc etc.
was laughing even when wangjl said go.
finally jina couldnt take it alr..
jina: argh! give me a break!!
wangjl: ready..
-everybody gets into ready position
mok and i(exactly at the same time, turning to face jina who was in between us): have a kitkat.
wangjl: GO.
-kick off
hahahaha!!
supp to do 10 x 50m. but i did only 8. guess why.
so stupid lah. i couldnt find my goggles!!
was like," AHH!! wait wait wait!! my goggles!!"
wangjl obviously didnt understand that. so hahaa! i missed 2! :P

went for dinner with mok. he ah, everything also want to buy. towels, bags, cloth. "everything very cheap only what! buy lah!" dots... siao. also want to buy stuff for my bro. i didnt allow him to man. in the end he just bought canyfloss for me. yay! candyfloss rawks! (:

was chatting with the tas interns until about 1.30am. like so fun lah! 6 of us talking non stop. planning the wakeboarding outing. omg i didnt know they were REALLY going wakeboarding. like REALLL wakeboarding. not the cable ski. ahhh so fun so fun! i want!! when i suggested wakeboarding, i was thinking of cable ski! not the realll one! hahaha! but nvm. will be funn!
and YAY. will be going FOP with wq on sat. hopefully hansel can come too.

alrights. pw is over. darn. ):



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