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something's changed.
and i cant keep going, trying to find out what it is and hoping to fix it anymore. im tired and whatever im trying so hard to fix isnt getting anywhere, isnt helping. i dont know what else to do.
in fact, the feeling of not caring and just going with the flow feels so good.
was deleting old photos from the memory card and stumbled across all our happy photos at gardens by the bay. at that moment, i knew we could never get those times back - carefree, excited, and hopeful. now, all we think about is work, work and work. is this just a phase we are going through? will this pass? or is this a preview of what will happen in the future when we go out there to do real real work? i dont know and i cant really be bothered thinking about it. right now, all i know is that it's just "shall not bother him, he's too busy."

thank you for your sacrifices for me but i wish you'd keep in mind that im here, and im not invisible.

kapas marang was great. am proud of you.