i know its a little late now but today(or ytd in fact),
would have been his birthday.
his 21st.
so many things that might have been.
a party perhaps?
but who am i to think of what would have been right?
i look at our xc photo and sigh whenever my eyes look over to where he stood.
and whisper a simple prayer for his family everytime i do.
think about the good times we had, training, studying, competing.
his laugh, his hair, his sunglasses(which i reallyreally liked!), his smile, his bike, him in his tri suit, in his red cycling jersey...
rmb his last sentence to me.
"wah. never train still can race ah!" at the bike racks during seagames timetrial 07.
to which my reply was.."shut up la. i'll see you at the end hor." which obviously didnt happen.
all the memories flooding back now as im writing this.
rmb wanting to call him after getting back results for CT1 i think, to ask him how he did. already actually picked up the phone to dial then it hit me that he wouldnt be answering the phone again. not ever.
its been almost 4 years now. but i still miss him terribly(im sure many ppl do) everytime i walk past his picture and when the memories come back.
the pair of shoes are in sight now as im typing. the shoelaces left in that pattern since 5 years ago. and will always be left like that for as long as i live. that pair of shoes is so worn out, the sole is peeling, the cloth is greyish but the shoelaces remain untouched.
am smiling thinking of all the funny things that happened during training. flying over the hump after going so fast downslope at lower pierce. crashing head-on into you while sprinting 50m in the pool from opposite ends...
sigh. thank you for the wonderful memories you left behind with me. you'll always be remembered and dearly missed.
happy 21st birthday, dearest thad. hope you're doing great up there.

had a very enjoyable evening today.
thanks to gummy.
bought new shoes.
laughed like there was no tmr.
lived the night like there was no assignments due.
an evening well spent.
lovin' my life baby. hell yeaaaahhh(:

but hmm i do wish to get back the old muggertoad i was last sem haha.