it just gets on my nerve how you can be so bochap.
everyday as i go to work, or see restuarants ard sg i think about you and wonder if this place would pay you well, the distance from your home, bus fares, any direct bus etc. sometimes even going to the extent of telling you bout what i've found out and ask you to give it a shot. but you just dont seem to even bother.
ok maybe i care too much.
as (probably) a normal friend (to you) i guess i do lah huh.
even organising a simple lunch, run or wtv the 3 of us could do tgt is so difficult since both you of really dont seem to care much. or have other (better) plans.
you want to do thisthisthis. i'll do it. even if im running low on cash coz i just dont wanna be a spoilsport and spoil the fun, hindering the both of you from doing stuff you both wanna do. but obviously my effort to maintain this friendship is NOT noticed here la.
being too tired isnt a good enough excuse. esp after agreeing. im sorry that im being super direct here. but i just cant stand it anymore. do you even care about our friendship. sometimes i dont think so and it just makes me feel like im just wasting my time, energy and money.
you've disappointed me a few times but i've let it go and continued as per normal.
but today, everything just piled up on me. one after another.

the lack of appreciation. hahaha.
guess we all feel this way sometime or another.

if you need me, be nice to me.
if you dont need me, please feel free to throw me aside (:

oh and btw. i HATE ppl telling me that im living an easier live as compared to them. and saying.. at least you get to ___ i want to ___ but cant. just an example.
and also that im FREE. just coz i was kinda lucky this week. go. and. die.

ok. after all that complaining.
i just want to say that im still contented with the life im living right now. not awesome not exciting, but i get free food almost everyday from work(s), can earn money, place to sleep, have friends... ah.. its fine. im satisfied. very in fact. just dont do what irks me and we'll all be fine.

thanks.

OHHHHHHHH! ONE MORE THING.
please dont tell me... anything. you decide.
once, twice. sure, i will try my best to fit everyone in. but not ALL THE TIME. its tiring having to please everybody.
er just wondering... is the psp just an escape from talking? or an escape from the awkwardness of having nothing to say?
you can tell me thru msn or sms or wtv. i just want to know.
esp after how you just played psp the whole of our little meet up session. outing which i considered a failure. probably should have watched a movie or smth since you weren't planning to talk to us much.