WHOO finally back from my hiatus!
but i dont believe that anybody will come here anymore since it hasnt been updated for months. which is actually good heh. :D

right now, i believe, if i talk about my little "adventures" during the hols up till now, it would be from a biased pov. hmm.. guess i shouldnt talk abt them then. but just so you know, it was AWESOME. thrilling, exciting, heart-stopping,eye-opening, exhausting, worrying, magical. hahahha spam adjectives. but its all true. (:
guess ive been having too much fun during the hols such that even though its already a week into the semester, im still in the holiday mood. I kinda blame it on the 3 hour breaks! we stone, tennis(:D), drive out for lunch and do anything but study. feels so holiday-ish. which is friggin fun. but of coz, as usual, two sides to a coin, fun during breaks vs ending late. 530/630.

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
Small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

Cause the last time you saw me
Still burns in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself pleading
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
Realized I loved you in the fall
Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin your sweet smiles so good to me so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably my mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door I understand

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December turn around and make it alright
I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

half-apt.

sometimes i look back and wish it could last for a long long time. preferably forever. sigh.

yet again, i look forward to june. hope it materializes. :D

*looks at my blog and laughs.*
its so dead. hahahahah.
but its alright.
coz im really too super busy to blog/whine wtv.

anw. i do think about it everyday and what i'm gonna say.
mm.. i need more time. it took you three years, i think i will need some time too. i have never forgot it. im sorry i am really really busy with projects and all. please wait awhile more k.

should i.. listen to e-lect or go to bed. waking up at 730 tmr.. hmm.. 6 hours.. and then presentation which i totally heck care about. i hope nobody from my group sees this. haahaa.

i will clear my work one by one! bring it on man. RAWR

Just a little while longer I wanna pray
Can't get You off my mind so I came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me, Your love is so amazing
Oh it changed me

Chorus:
Here I am with all I am
Raise my hands to worship You
I wanna say thank you, oh thank you
For everything, for who You are
You cover me, You touch my heart
I wanna say thank you

I could have died in my sin but You saved me
Didn't have any hope at all
You gave me peace divine, strength to carry on
I should have been the one to pay
But instead You took my place
My Jesus, words cannot explain
Even though I don't deserve Your love for me
You look beyond my fault and You showed mercy

CHORUS

I wanna say thank you for the sun
I wanna say thank you for the rain
Everything You do is beautiful
I'm so grateful for Your love

I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
I am the master of my fate
I am the captain of my soul.

trng soon!
and im not sure how to get there. gahh.

NEED TO GET EGGEN AT 7PM! but there is training at 7PM! AHH!! )):

apparently! my phone is atas wor. shrugs! i reaaallly didnt even know oops.
now i look richer than i already do. HA. ):

i will miss jenelle and her cm [ ] (cm squared) hahaha.

i've got alot on my mind right now and i mean really alot! i dont know what to start thinking first. i feel i need dumbledore's pensieve to take out some thoughts for a little while and get back to them after i've settled the easier ones.

i dont even know how i feel right now.

why now? why two at the same time? for years you two made me feel like i dont mean a thing to you. and now both on the same day showed me that i actually meant something to you. its just... overwhelming.

1; thanks for that. i appreciate it. but i just dont know how to reply. well.. not just yet. i am not capable of such.. such.. well-phrased emails.. but i will get down to it when i've thought through what i wanted to say. i dont want to say the wrong things but for now, i know that the right thing to say would be.. sorry too for being an idiot 3 years ago. please give me some time.

2; never thought u would even think of me. thought you would be too busy with uni and everything else in your life. i wanted to reply you but see.. i've always been a listening ear to you(and still will be) but you never really made use of me much. you were my listening ear for awhile but it wasnt 'fair' if you didnt see me as a listening ear which is why i stopped. and true enough, you never bothered to let me be your listening ear. and im not so sure if you actually wanted to hear me.

work is omgnessly alot. i know there's alot more to come.
sigh.
thankful for bie who has been my constant support, who never fails to remind me of my one goal when i wanna give up. and its only been a week. yes. i went home crying. my grandma says im like a baby. im like.. weakkkkk ): no more motivation. thats what happens when i stop training proper. sigh. no direction no goal. immediate ones that is...

God is good.
God is fair.
yupps He sure is (:



When I'm with you Baby
All my worries disappear
Troubles that surround me
Disappear when you are near
When you need my loving
I'll be there
You know
When you need my loving
You know
Where to go

When I'm full of sadness
Nice to know you're always there
In this world of madness
Nice to know somebody cares
When I need your loving
You'll be there
I know
When I need your loving
I'll know where to go

When I'm with you Baby
I know you make me feel so good
When I'm with you Baby
You give me what nobody could
When you need my loving
I'll be there
You know
You know
When you need my loving
You know where to go


time flies when its time spent with you.

so many things i wanna do!
watch house! finish reading my books! finish packing. shop for sandals. print stuff.
but at the moment, top of my to-do list would be to SLEEP.
super giddy. hahahah.
no not drunk. dont even know how drunk feels!

okok sleeeeep.
on a side note, my new phone rawks!

like LOLROFL? this is stupid stuff.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qwutac3rmH0&feature=related

how retarded can ppl get. -.-

just gonna post coz im free now.. supp to be reading book or watching house but just need to rant.

super sad francesca is leaving. sigh. oh wait. she left.
well at least the last day spent with her was so wonderful. yesterday with them was just awesome. had so much fun. never laughed so much before.
we didnt eat very expensive food but it was whoooo! and wow. small girls, big eaters! little monsters. im not a little monster compared to them man! ahhaah.
despicable me was great. they were hysterically giggling even before the movie started coz they were so fascinated by the 3d effects. love them(:

in class today,
show students a picture of a boy in wheelchair trying hard to pick up his pen from the floor.
me: what should his friends have done?
katrina: they should help him scotch tape the pen to his hand. go round and round so wont drop lor.
me: o.O

show students a picture of the same boy trying to get up a kerb.
me: so how about this picture? what should his friends do?
katrina: dont need do anything! his wheelchair have the rockets then can fly up higher than the thing on the floor already what!

after awhile..
katrina: ITS SHOOHHH FLHUFFFHYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was seriously OMG. o.O'' and ready to burst out laughing.
me: YES KATRINA. ITS SHOOHHH FLHUUUFFFHYYY IM GONNA DIEEE!
katrina: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHHA! is this considered annoying, ms tan? *slaps her cheeks and does that pop pop sound.* (YOU HAVE TO WATCH DESPICABLE ME TO UNDERSTAND THIS)


theres more retarded stuff in p3 classes.
me: remember to do the remaining questions in your worksheet and hand it in tmr.
girl: Then what about the rest of the questions????

che: OOHH i heard a loud clap of thunder. (coz nat dropped her chair down instead of putting it down quietly.)
germaine: *CLAP. then realises* WHAT??? why you say clap?!! clap for what??

im not bothered to post coz
1. it just isnt my priority now to update the one or two ppl who read my blog.
2. it doesnt make sense.
3. why blog when it wont make sense to anybody.
4. dont want ppl to be guessing wrongly.
5. dont want ppl to think im oh so fine and loving a guy. HA.
6. dont want to put useless stuff on my blog.
7. apparently some ppl have the habit of doing that just to get attention and when attention is gained, they just dont wanna tell. probably an attempt to get more attention.

this an example of number 3,4,6 :

Acceptance
Autopsy
Humpty Dumpty
TB or not TB
Daddy's boy
Spin
Hunting
the mistake
Deception
Failure to communicate
Need to know
Distractions
Skin deep
Sex kills
Clueless
Safe
All in
Let sleeping dogs lie
House vs God
Euphoria
Forever
Who's your daddy
No reason


well. ive just wasted 10min of my time. happy trying to figure out(or not) what the fa im talking abt.(: