blueblackgreen -> red.
gosh.
im freakin out.
how calm i appear to be at home. haha. they always thought i was this everyday-no-worries-just-whack person. dont want to change the way they think about me.
but. hell. am i scared. more scared than excited.
ahhhhhhhh..
totally freaked infront of auntie. must have thought im suchaloser. haha.

this isnt the same as everything ive been through. its like... big.
tv was super scary for me at first but i got used to it really quickly. fnb as well. money also. wallet also.they were all firsts. NONONONO this is just different!!!!!! i dont exactly know how to put it into words! and i really dont care coz i need to sleep.