am glad now. like a weight lifted off my shoulders.
missed family dinner at sakae.
its ok. it was worth it.

yes it was.

but damn. wasted sat and half a sun. now i think that today is sat... coz sat is usually a happy day. (just not this sat)
sigh.

not really looking forward to next week tho its marking days...
im kinda free. but da will be busy the whole week.
better fill my days with tuition then.
i'll be just fine.

fast forward later at 10. but me wanna do sudoku from newspaper. like we always do on sat and sun. wanted to do it ytd also but i dont have 'today'...

family isnt back yet. sigh yaiyai... hungry. hope they tabaoed food for me!

only bleach can make me happy.
yeah better than you

1.Longing for light, we wait in darkness.
Longing for truth, we turn to you.
Make us your own, your holy people,
light for the world to see.

Refrain
Christ, be our light! Shine in our hearts.
Shine through the darkness.
Christ, be our light!
Shine in your church gathered today.

2.Longing for peace, our world is troubled.
Longing for hope, many despair.
Your word alone has pow’r to save us.
Make us your living voice.

3.Longing for food, many are hungry.
Longing for water, many still thirst.
Make us your bread, broken for others,
shared until all are fed.

4.Longing for shelter, many are homeless.
Longing for warmth, many are cold.
Make us your building, sheltering others,
walls made of living stone.

5.Many the gifts, many the people,
many the hearts that yearn to belong.
Let us be servants to one another,
making your kingdom come.

audrey! i finally know this song (:
i rmb you always asked me if i knew this song when you wanted to play it on the piano but i always said i didnt know and so you would just play other songs.

Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.


I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.


I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.



Encouraging song. Hope it helps.

grah trying to find solitary and fact or fiction: beyond belief.
search super long alr.
they're kinda old shows. but left an impact on me man.
scared the shit out of me when i was younger the fact or fiction one.
solitary was just coooool.

who doesnt understand the meaning of cool? please raise your hand.
oh let me ignore that one lonely hand.
*rolls eyes*

"my mother's dead. she got killed in a car accident. my sister got killed too. my dad was a detective and was sent to the accident. he didnt know it was my mum till he got there"


"it is easier for him to say that his mother is dead than saying she ran away."

"katie died in her crib a year ago. cause unknown. i died then i left."

"there isnt a single night when i dont lie in bed and ask myself.. did katie cry and i didnt hear, did i turn the tv on too loud, why didnt i just walk into the room and kiss her goodnight again?

"its time to forgive yourself. i can help you. im an angel."

"you're an angel? you're an angel?? you're an angel! SO WHAT?? what are you doing here now. where the hell were you a year ago. where was an angel when my baby died alone in that crib. why didnt an angel come down and take me out of my bed, drag me into the nursey. why didnt an angel dial 911 for me. where the hell was the damn angel then??!"

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy.
There's nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you
in time - It's easy.

All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
There's nothing you can know that isn't known.
Nothing you can see that isn't shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
It's easy.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
All you need is love (all together now)
All you need is love (everybody)
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.

go.. awww so sweet and know that its all BULLS**T(:
that aint gonna happen in REAL life.
puh-leese. all crap.
its never. ever. thaat perfect.

sick of all these nonsense.
too tired to care anymore.
gdlck

stressssssssss siaaaaaa.

d-day. fri.

english english.

i still wanna danceeeeeeee but work is more impt. 2 things by tmr!!!! ahhhh. ok bye. back to work.

wahhhhhhhhhh.... ):
thought i was free to do prep tmr but NO... i have relief.
and soooo many relief omg.
multiplied by the next few days. till 13oct. or when psle's over... ):

all the best to those taking psle. esp josiah.


i have no idea how to start what im supp to do. COZ i dont even know what im going to do. anw... it doesnt matter coz i still wouldnt know how to do it... even if i knew what i was supp to do. SO! me shall sleep right after this.

totally wasnt listening to what hod said to me today man. i hadnt got over my "7.30-8.30" thing and she like spammed me with info...forgot the date, deadline and what im supp to send her. EVERYONE'S SPAMMING!!!!!! i know they mean well but my brain is like tiiiinnnyyyy. it feels like its gonna burst. like i have so many things to do but i cant rmb what!!!!

me is so.. so.. dead.


AHHHH. You put me here! and i still will cont to trust You that everything's gonna be just fine. tho im like... dreading everything and all..

pppppphhhhhhhhhhffffffffffftttttttttt. gnite

grah supp to do work now..... ):
i dont wanna....
haizzzzz.
not good. not good.............

dread dread dread.
uh ohssssssss..

scary shit coming up on tue man.
but i guess this is how it is.
new stuff to handle.
being thrown into the deep end expected to know how things are done.
guess im better off alr. so i should be thankful.
and yeah i guess i am. not complaining complaining. just a little scared. and excited. nervous. anxious.
i pray my stage fright stays away.
seriously.

3movies in a week.
thats what happens most of the time in sg.
eat, movie, shop.
kinda sian but nth else to do anw...
the ugly truth, surrogates, inglorious basterds.
and online, the proposal.
hahah.

too lazy to plan anything now. will cont planning tmr. really tired alr.
longggg longgg day on mon.
4f x 3, 3c x 3 netball 1.30-4, thessa 4.30-6.30, tiffandrey dinner 7-?
and tue is omg.. not enough time to prepare!
but no use freaking out. tue will come whether or not you like it. just make full use of mon for practice.

alrights. off i go...
just whack